Soleil
After meeting with Ethan, I was unimaginably drained. I don't think there's ever been a time when someone drained the life out of me to this extent. I don’t believe even mom had the chance to and she was the biggest soul sucker I knew. Well, that was until tonight.
I was thankful that Gunnar didn’t intervene or question me afterward. I’m expecting it to come soon but soon was better than now. Now was when I break and crumbled. Now was when my anxiety attacks and emotional fits came about. I was prepared for now but none of it happened.
I didn’t have a panic attack. There were no fits, and I didn’t break or crumble. Honestly, I wish I had. Cause right now, I had nothing and that left me numb and empty. At least if I had cried, I could have said that I had opened up that empt
