Anonymous world of a suicide

My life

CHOLE POV

WHY DO I TRY ANYTHING WHEN I KNOW THAT I"M GOING TO BAD AT IT AND THAT PEOPLE ARE JUST CALLING ME NAMES THIS IS MY BOOK so of yall think it a diary it kind of is yes a diary of a dead girl this is kind of like 13 reason why but I don't have 13 reasons why I did it a plus you may not know that my story will go down

September 7, 2019

It my 1st day of high school and I was in the bathroom cutting myself (i was cutting myself to deal with the pain of why life was this happening to me like for like everything is just like everyone just blaming chole i just think THAT what would it be like if I'm not here like if I just killed myself i'm already dead to the world why not just do it now and then that when you walk in and you try to act like you were that bitchy ass, bad boy, every but I knew that you were one of these guys who thought that every girl wanted. But I just want high school to end so that I can just be in my room by myself and just think what if life had been like if I was not here the question I ask. would people happier? Well, they have to stop thinking about having this b***h around with them? Or why were even friends with her? This is the thing that I do and I want people to answer but for now, let me stop worrying about Mr. Logan who think he all that and death cause I know that if I continue I be like that girl from 13 reason why but I have reason for doing all of this and because I get bullied for being me not about death but to being the way for calling me gay and slut and because shity ass people keep pushing there on to me ( like if someone thinks that this girl is gay they would push it on to me and make everyone think that I was gay and I don't have any real friends)but the main reason I'm like this is because I'm They're crying out for help,

You say stop but they don't listen

You say go but then they stay

And then after it over they want to be your friend they want to

November 17, 2019

This story goes to someone I thought as a friend but from this day idk you always think that this person that I'm going to hang out with is going to be different but there not all I have to this person is that I thought that you kinda like a friend but like a 2 face backstabbing Littel b***h and I really thought that we could but there one thing you forgot I'm a stone cold b***h and then I forgot what a fake b***h you are and I thought that I could trust you but I was wrong you were the only friend I had and I thought we would be friends not forever but I didn't think you would backstab me and it was not like you did it I in front of everybody you found a chance to be popular and you took it you didn't care if it hurt any else as long as you were popular wow Layla how can you sleep at night knowing that you a b***h and for knowing you were one of the people who killed me and I hope you and your boyfriend are fine cause y'all have a good sign to show everyone at the school that biggest f**k boy and slut of the school yea I went there but it true and after learning that you were not the person I thought you were going to be the one person in the school that looks at me like a person and not somebody you use to get famous and popular I know your using my deathly be famous you a sick b***h you know that Layla oh but then again Conner didn’t mind me sleeping with me