Above the water

Away

‘My dearests Sabrina,

My sweet love. If you are reading this letter, it means I am long gone.

My heart is so full of joy that I got to hold you in my arms.

I could never wish for a better gift than this. In the coldest winter, you warmed my heart eternally.

Even if I could never see you grow, I know in my heart that you will make me so proud.

I am deeply sorry for the burden you have to carry in your life.

‘I love you’ with all my heart and I always will no matter where I am.

You are a Mayer and this is a name you should wear with dignity. Never let anyone tells you otherwise.

Be safe my sweet love.

Your mother,

Isabella Davis’’

The morning breeze were caring around the leaves, making Sabrina’s skin prickle while she was standing at the porch holding the letter from her mother in her hand. Her heart was aching. Not only from the fact that her whole life was one big lie but also from the fact that her birth mother was dead. She in her whole life has never experienced such pain for a person she never knew.

Stuck in her own pain, she heard footsteps approaching her from behind.

‘Have you ever wander who you are?’ - she asked knowing it was Ryan standing behind her but she didn’t flinch to turn around. She continued to stare ahead as long as her eyes could reach out, deep in the woods from the cabin they were in.

‘How are you feeling?’ - he asked but he well knew the answer. His heart was bouncing in his chest so fast. It hurt him to see her like this.

‘I.. um’ - she laughed ironic and wiped the tears from her eyes. - ‘I guess I.. um..’ - before she could finish she felt Ryan’s hands on her shoulders. He was so gently touching her hands that shivers run down her spine. Around him she felt so peaceful like all that happened was gone for a second. She signed deeply. - ‘I am so sorry I crashed your car’ - she said to him and looked down.

‘I couldn’t care less about that, sweetness. You could have hurt yourself or worse die’ - he said with a serious ton.

‘Yeah..I’ - she signed.

Ryan suddenly leaned forward and put a necklace around her neck. She raised her hand to touch it and when she bent her head down she saw the same neckless her father gave to her.

‘So you knew.’- Sabrina now turned around to face Ryan. He did knew. Even when she was unconscious she was still holding it in her hand when he found her in the car. He himself hoped till the last moment that she is not her, she is not that person his own father wanted to find but he managed to get his s**t together and swear to protect her with his life because even if he didn’t knew it yet - he loved her.

‘A name and parents does not define who you are. You are who you choose to be.’ - he said back to her with such calmness that the pain in her heart softens.

‘I can’t bare anymore lies, Ryan.’ - she looked straight into his ocean eyes. -‘And I think that meeting you was the most real thing that has ever happened to me.’

He froze. He stood there looking at her but he couldn’t say a thing. She, with her piercing eyes, was studying his reaction but she couldn’t get a flinch. His lies to protect her was going to be their downfall. He knew he was going to loose her forever. She would hate him for hading everything from her but this was the price he had to pay to protect her.

A little smile formed at the corner of his lips. He did enjoy what he heard but he also didn’t want to creep her out. He was trying to contain everything that was burning and screaming inside of his body. He was so pissed that everything had to be this way that he wanted to turn around and dig a hole in the wall.

In her weakest moments Ryan was always there. It was so intoxicating for her to be around him. Like a drug that you constantly need but was it all real or was Ryan for her just the means to heal her broken soul.. she wasn’t sure.

‘I..’ - he opened his mouth but then Sabrina leaned forward and kissed him. It was the very first time she ever did it and that drove him insane. His skin flinched by the touch of her warm lips in his and he grabbed roughly the back of her head. - ‘f**k sweetness.. - he started kissing her so passionately, his tongue was playing inside her mouth with hers in a perfect sync. She could barely take a second to breath but she didn’t care. She needed to feel once in her life that she mattered. That she wasn’t nobody. That someone actually cared.

Ryan grabbed her from the floor and cared her inside the cabin constantly kisser her. He pushed her near the wall and took off her clothes for nearly a second. His touches made all her problems go away. It was like he was sucking the pain away, like he was her saviour, but little did she knew that sooner that later he was going to be her downfall.

‘Beautiful’ - he murmured in between their kisses. Sabrina’s hands where buried in his hair while he was possessing every inch of her. Yes, this was not the first time they got intimate with each other but what she felt was something new. This was the very first time she actually needed him.

There was no any thoughts going through their heads at that moment as Ryan slowly removed her underwear and started kissing her inner thights. Her hand moved in his hair grabbing it softly and that was his sign to take it next level. He spread her legs so he could see how beautiful she was and starter kissing her at her softest spot. She was moaning at the touch of his tongue inside her, the pleasure was unbearable and it did not take long for her to start shaking under his touch.

‘Not yet.’ - he stopped and moved up to her ear.

‘Ryan..’ - she moaned loudly, she needed him to continue because she was so close.

‘You are mine.’ - he whispered in her ear and then entered her with a single move.

‘Oh..god..’ - she closed her eyes and grabbed the sheets from the bed.

‘Are you okay.’ - he froze for a second and looked at her.

‘Just f**k me.’ - she demand and grabbed his shirt. He started slowly moving in and out of her while she was trembling underneath him. His hand traced her leg from below up to her perfectly shaped ass and roughly grabbed it. She moaned loudly.

‘Come here!’ - he pulled her on top of him, holding her neck roughly and he passionately kissed her lips, then her neck and he moved slowly to her breast. She started moving on top of him and her head tilted backwards and this just drove him crazy. - ‘Shit.’ - he could barely hold himself by the look at her perfect body working its magic on him. It was just beautiful watching them taking every inch of each other and f*****g enjoying it. He then pushed deeper in her and Sabrina’s helpless body just fell on his. He was holding her hair softly while pushing himself in and out of her.

‘Ryan..’ - she yelled grabbing his skin hard, she was so ready to finish. She needed this so much.

He pushed her to the bed and turned her around so he could enjoy watching her perfect ass shacking while he was making her wet. He pushed her ass up and speeded her legs. He wanted to play more with her but he barely could hold himself anymore so he quickly entered her roughly and pushed harder and deeper.

‘Ryan.. I..’ - she couldn’t breath from the pleasure entering her body. - ‘Don’t stop!’

‘Come for me baby’ - he said to her and with that final push she finish herself snacking and barely feeling control over her own body.

‘Shit..’ - it was just a second later than he realised himself inside her and fell down on the bed.

In the middle of the night Sabrina woke up with a bit of heaviness in her chest. She couldn’t sleep because when she closed her eyes she was having those non stop nightmares. She walked in the kitchen while Ryan was sleeping in the bedroom. She poor a glass of water and took a sip. Her throat was sour from crying. She stared at the darker corner of the room and thought of her life. What it could have been before she was thrown away. Why her own mother didn’t want her. She walked to the kitchen table where Ryan’s laptop was standing and opened it.

‘Who are you?’ - she asked herself. She couldn’t possibly continued her life after everything she found out without knowing the whole truth. Why she was left behind. From the letter she got it looked like her mother loved her deeply. None of it made sense to her. She typed in the search of the section on the laptop ‘Isabella Davis’ and some random photos pop up but nothing really consistent of a woman in her early 60’s maybe. She was searching for hours, typing a different things and hoping to find something but eventually she felt so exhausted that she felt asleep on the kitchen table next to the open laptop with her search.

In the morning when Ryan woke up he starched his hand to feel Sabrina’s worm skin but the bed was empty. He immediately jumped out and walked from the room thinking she ran away or did something stupid that can her herself. He was holding his shirt in his arm, dressing up while storming out of the room only to find her sleeping on the kitchen table. He stopped and looked at her. He breathed out in relief. She was sleeping so peacefully. After everything that she has been through he didn’t want to wake her up. He leaned close to her and moved a peace of her from her face when he accidentally clicked one of the buttons on the laptop and all of Sabrina’s searches popped up.

He stared at the screen for a moment not knowing how to react. His eyes went back and forth from the screen to her and again. But what made him even more concerned was the fact that she knew her mother’s name but she didn’t type Isabella Mayer on the screen but his own last name. He was indeed a Davis but this was a name he didn’t proudly wear. It was name filled with pain and sorrow. He just wanted to end this circle of torcher and killings but Isabella Davis was after all his father’s own great relative.