I kept on thinking and trying to place the words well in my head just before I let them out but the right words doesn’t seem to come up in my head.
I headed fast towards my room and I could hear my mom walking fast behind me.
What the hell is he doing in my room? Afterall I’m only his betrothed and we ain’t married yet so what gives him the effrontery to go into my room? My privacy! I’m big on my own space, my room! I don’t just let anybody into my room and I wouldn’t want just anybody and especially not Jacob all up in my personal space.
“And what do you think you’re doing in my room!” I screamed annoyingly at Jacob as I opened my door and saw him standing in front of my reading desk and opening a book. I really hoped deep down in my heart that he didn’t go through my diary, I want to at least believe that he didn’t see my diary.
“I’m extremely free to be in your room, you’re my wife! Did you forget ?? And soon enough, we would be sharing the same bed and duvet for the rest of our lives” Jacob said, as he pulled a devilish smile on his face.
Everything about Jacob irritates me, I still can’t deal with the fact that this man is my husband to be, this man that his appearance , his words , his gaze and everything that concerns him irritates me to my bones.
“Please, leave my room right now! Leave my room this moment, at least wait till we’re legally and officially married before acting all bossy, since you badly want to be regarded as Madison’s husband, ewwww” I said as I walked majestically into my room.
I felt so relieved at this moment that I finally gave my virginity to someone else, a total stranger at that! Yes!! I feel super relieved that I wouldn’t eventually give my virginity to Jacob, he doesn’t deserve me, I didn’t keep myself for years only to end up giving it to this ill mannered human being.
“Don’t talk to your husband that way baby, responsible women talk to their husband respectfully, where are you coming from? Why didn’t you spend the night at home? Where have you been? Why didn’t you spend the night in your house?” Jacob asked me as he sounded so confident and walked towards me and I trembled for a moment, but I tried so hard to not show it.
“Your hair looks scattered today, isn’t that a bit unusual?” Jacob asked again as he stood close to me and used a finger to pick a few strands of my scattered hair curls.
“Wouldn’t you let me even breathe at all just because I’m getting married to you?” I said as I summoned up the courage to talk back as I saw my mum standing behind my door.
“Hello Jacob, she was out with her friend, could you please give her a moment to freshen up then she would come and meet you in the parlor afterwards, you could just wait for her in the couch,” mum said as she interrupted after seeing that the interrogation between i and my so called fiancé is getting heated and she probably doesn’t want it to get escalated.
“Okay mummy, I’ll do just that,” Jacob said as he stepped out of my room and headed towards the parlour after grinning silently at me.
I can’t believe what I just heard, did he just call my own mother mummy? Yes he just did, wonders really shall never end. I have to accept this reality eventually, not like I have a choice though..
I’m doing all this for the sake of my dad, I love my dad so much. Seeing his business crumble down to the grains would do more harm than good to my mental health especially when I know that I could have saved him out of that stress and trauma.
My dad has worked his whole life for the success of his company, if his company goes down to nothing, he would never forgive himself, the shame and distress could take his life if care is not taken that’s why right now, I’m left with no other choice than to sacrifice literally my whole life to make his company back up and kicking again.
I closed the door gently and locked it immediately because I know Jacob could just decide to barge in anytime if he waits for a while on the couch and doesn’t see me.
He’s acting obsessed with me but in a very authoritative and cringing way , I don’t think it would be possible to ever bring myself to love him.
He’s not in any way my spec, absolutely no part about Jacob excites me, this is the human that I would be living with as my husband for the rest of my life, sadly.
I walked towards my dressing mirror and gently pulled my gown and I immediately had flashbacks of the night with my one night stand. I absolutely enjoyed every bit of it. He felt so perfect just like the man I have always imagined that would get me disvirgined in the novels that I have read.
The way he carefully handled me, it’s very hard to get that off my mind “ugh ugh” I chuckled as the flashbacks I just had right now lightened my mood, I caressed my body gently as I moved towards my bed and sunk in.
He got to know that I was a virgin, I’m sure that would have surprised him that someone who is a virgin is having a one night stand. He must have so many questions running through his mind right now, I’m sure he would have also been surprised to see that I disappeared totally even before he woke up.
I enjoyed every bit of that fact that I lost my virginity to zayn instead of Jacob!
Yes! At least I remember his name and that’s all that I really know about him.
He looks so perfect! He was the perfect man for the situation, I don’t have a single regret.
I smiled sheepishly in my bed as I remembered how softly he drilled me and how much I enjoyed every bit of it.
“Hello my baby, daddy is still waiting for you, you should be done by now,” Jacob said as he leaned against my door, I could hear his voice loud and clear so I’m sure he was leaning against my door.
“Ohhh, give me a moment, I’ll be right there!” I said as I jumped off my bed and ran into the restroom to have a quick shower, I was totally lost in thoughts about how sweet my night was that I forgot totally about the fact that Jacob is still waiting for me.