Project Schemer: Higeki's chapter: Requiem

Arc 2 - Prologue: New-found Resolution

"You can start tell me everything now Korvos, and i want nothing but the truth."

"Since you found out about the truth, i won't hide anything and you deserve the truth and nothing but the truth."

"But i want you to remain calm. I can't made you but i hope you can. And here is the truth, everything in your memory is a lie. "

"..."

"You are not an Altorian, your memory is a combination of augmented memories clashing with something inside you, your will or something that protect you."

"So there is no teacher ?"

"No, we found you in the snow... technically, Delta found you in the snow with the stuff animal next to you. With the report from Theta, we know you escaped the lab but losing your memories in the progress."

"So who am i originally ?"

"We have no clue, Theta can't take everything in the lab and they should burn those paper by now. I really want to find more about you but is impossible to do that now. But we believe you are special because of something inside you that protect from their influence and keep you from becoming a mindless puppet."

And then Korvos explain everything, how he and Alpha argue and in the end they decided to left me with in the gang. Somehow after a few day, i became the person i am now, in my mind i am a doctor with a mysterious teacher that taught me everything. Every memory slowly constructing in my mind and that is three years ago. At least i must thank my past self, at least he tried to escape the grip of the city leaders and he success, so now with free will, i will liberate our life, find those author and avenge the city leaders for what they did to us. Somehow i feel a different emotion, the moment i need to calm and think about every possibility but right now, i feel anger, i feel humiliated. The truth cause more harm than good, i am closer to found out about who am i but right now, i can't even calm myself.

"Higeki ?"

"I need sometime alone, i can't even calm myself down."

Right now, not only me feel humiliated, in my heart, i feel not just me or my past self but thousands or millions of anger, what is the meaning of this feeling. It feel like the anger of a world compressed in my heart, all these feeling, what are these feeling in myself, humiliation and anger but not just me, i feel the anger of million of individual. And that is the moment i can't feel anything, reality slowly fading away as i collapsed under the pressure of all those anger. 

Every dream have a meaning is what they said but in a world where miracle is extinguished, dream held no meaning but with all these emotion seeking a seclusion against the storm is necessary. Slowly solve every aspect of this incident is the possible solution, so there are two voices in my head, a voice asking for salvation and another voice ask me to wake up, but i doubt that have something to do with my past self, the lost memories and all these voices. Another mysterious part of my life is Tomoe, according to Korvos, Tomoe is always there and there is a bound between us, the moment i saw him, i know his name immediately. It feel like Tomoe is more than a stuffed animal but a living, breathing person, and he is always watching me, and that somehow always calm me down even when i can't save someone and watch passed away. Life in the slum is tough and this time, anyone could say goodbye to the snowy sky and leave for a better world but maybe there could be nothing after they left this world.

"Higeki, do you feel better now ?"

"A little bit better now, at least the voices are stop. How is everyone, Korvos ?"

"With the aid from the organization, the city doesn't detech us now. That young boy Theta placed a fake report that sector 2 and our sector are eradicated, we are mourning, do you want to join us ?"

Funeral, sorrow yet peaceful, we cry for them but in our heart, we know one thing, that the end of their chapter is a way to let them escape this world. Please everyone, rest and sleep, you don't have to be worried about this world or our fate, you do more than enough for us, you fought for us, you fall on your knees so we those who stay can see the sun. In this haven, we will fight to see the true sun again, please rest and sleep, we will carry on your legacy. 

The snowfall and the wind blow, the world in white and will remain that for a long time, at least this haven provide us with a clear atmosphere and a way to growth plants. The temperature at the greenhouse can be adjusted and sometime when outside is too cold, the greenhouse can be a good place to stay for a while. Because of the generosity of the butler, our meal have a little bit more variety in selection, the mansion under the ground is more of a noah's ark. Some plants mutated so their fruit can have the same properties as some extincted animal, explain for that meal the butler used to serve me with. For the explaination, i just say i found some tree underground and tested to see if it is safe for human consumption or not.

"Even in a new house, i still enjoy stargazing with you right by my side, even if that memory is fake, i still enjoy this time of the day."

"Even the star above us is fake ?"

"Even if it is fake."

A normal stargazing session with Korvos, always once a week, looking at those "stars" even fake or real gave me a sense of calm, a slow hum and look at those stars again. I feel so calm and relieve, i wish we could stay like this forever and the city will leave us alone but i know that is fragile, the city won't give up, a daunting task for us, for those who remain. The star tonight can't calm me down, there are too much things in my mind, it is rude to walk away but i need to enter the dream again, even if it is pitch black. In the deep dark and cold abyss, we have countless time to think, this world is far too ugly that the star, the light of hope and deliverance won't be able to save anyone or anything. All in my mind is sink and that is the moment the voices return and my conciousness fade away. So this is the weight of the truth.

"So we finally met, see your face everyday..."

"Who are you ?"

"I am Tomoe, but i am so sorry, you are not the one, you are a apart of him... maybe but i am too weak, please give me more time."

"What i can do to help you ?"

"I am sorry but you can't do anything much, maybe you are here for some reason, maybe he wants you to do something."

"I just can't remember... ughh... what was his words..."

"I hurt you again... i should give you time... you will remember everything.... I will wait... I will wait like i did in the dark once... And you will found me again..."

Tomoe... i... i must found those memories... i remember a part of our oath now, i will never made you cry or leave you alone again. I must found those memories, all those memories that they took...No, this is not my oath, it is his oath, the oath that he swore and now i heard it, the voice of my creator not just to save this world, i must found your trace in my mind and then i will restore you back. Please trust me and wait for me, now, it's time to seal the pain and all those humilation and move forward, thank you my creator, in the depth of darkness and with all the pain i felt, all i can feel is lost. We fought this war for our future but i never know what i should fight for, i always told myself, i must stay strong, i need to asisst Korvos and help him become a pillar that everyone can follow. But what about my true desire for victory, i feel that is the part i lost. But now i found my true desire, i want everything they took from me, everything belong to me will be mine and that mean you too my creator, i will bring you back.

"Higeki, do you need more time ?"

"Enough of hesistation, now, can i have the latest report from Theta ?"

"Higeki... here."

"So they decided to search sector for traces... we have time for peace but playing around is not a choice. We will need more allies and i will find them."

"Alpha, Alpha."

"Calm down Theta, anything new ?"

"We finished the clean up in the sector 8 include the library and the old hideout. The city still insist on building the concentration camp even Iota destroyed it for at least 8 times already."

"This maybe something that can benefit us. Now, we just need everything to see this, witness our effort to stop them. They need a flag to stand under, the need a leader, someone who can unite them. They may have technologies but how many do they have, can they withstand the wave ?"

No one can stand against the wave, in the world where everything end, there is no reason to cling to life. Stand up, raise the flag, squash them under the wave, break them from inside, slowly turn them on each other, let them torn themselves apart. The city is where people look at themselves and compare themselves, a society that thrown away anyone they think unfit so they can divide what they get from torturing the lower class and they can get more. Torn them apart, ridicule them, show everyone, every part, every secret that they wanted to hide, we were wrong, we focused too much on the fact that we use all of our resources on finding their research that we forgot what we can truly do.

"This is the first time i feel so brilliant. We will slowly let everything fall apart."

All that i need is a real goal, a real target, my target and that is all need for all those years, everything can start. I no longer felt humiliated, no longer endure the pain of past, now i will break everything they have and take back what is mine. The humiliation is gone and now is anger and a new-found resolution, i will make them pain and suffer for what they did to me, this is my vengeance with grace and a rebelion that history of this world shall never forget.

"Thank you Korvos."

"I didn't do anything."

"You do more than enough, i considered you my father already. You raise me for that three years, don't think i don't know those treat that send in the name of my master is from you. You are my father, my friend and thank you for your bravery, for telling me everything without the fear that i will hate you."

"What can i say, i can't let a child die in frost or grown up become a nerd."

"And because of you father, i found sympathy."