It was such a beautiful night for a walk. The weather was warm with a comfortable breeze blowing and most importantly, the moon and stars were out shining bright. With the day I had, a night like this could make everything in the world right again.
All of a sudden I started to feel a little uneasy, as if I was being followed. It is getting pretty late, I probably shouldn't be out this late alone, so I put a little pep in my step and started walking a little faster. Out of my peripheral I could see these headlights from a big vehicle creeping along with me. Immediately I thought of a r***r van! I kid you not, I damn near broke out in a full fledged run.
“Erica?”
“Erica!” The voice was becoming closer and whoever it was sounded like they were out of breath. I was walking fast as hell, so I suppose that would be logical.
“Erica, please stop! It’s me, Jonathan!” That revelation had me stop dead in my tracks and damn near drop to the ground in that exact spot. I all of a sudden couldn't breath.
Jonathan is, well was my first and only love. He was the first to open me up completely. He was my first in almost everything a teen could experience. He was also the one who I offered my innocence to. He was the first and only one to ever show me what real love was and is. He was my world and he just up and left, he left me! No explanation, no goodbye, no calls, no letters, messages, no anything in almost six years and here he was standing right in front of me.
I must've lost my footing at some point because in the very next moment he's catching me and I'm in his arms. I hurriedly straightened myself and created myself a little personal space because for whatever he still affected me.
“Um...Johnathan, hey! Ah it's been a long time. Wha- what are you doing here?”
“Now that I'm done with school, I actually moved back home a few days ago. I have a place just up the road. That's where I was headed when I saw you walking.”
“ Oh really?” s**t! Why man, like why would you do a thing like that? Do you know how long it took me to get over you and move on? It literally would’ve been better if you just have stayed gone.
“So um, can I give you a lift the rest of the way home? It’s getting pretty late and you shouldn't be out here alone. Where's your husband? Is he okay with you being out this late?”
I chuckled lightly at that because I'm curious how he knew about that. Has he been keeping tabs on me? “First off, I’m never married. Secondly, I'm a big girl Nate, I can manage a walk home. It was a beautiful night this evening, perfect for a walk and I wanted to enjoy it before I turned in for the night. So if you don't mind, I should probably get back to it and head home!” and started to walk off.
While nervously rubbing the back of his neck, he says, “I..I'm sorry Re, I heard that….you know what never mind.”
“Well for your information, as the wedding came closer, I lost the nerve. I called it off at the last minute, I couldn't go through with it. So here we are!”
As I'm about to walk off again, he grabs my arm with this guilty look in his eyes, “I'm sorry, I didn't know, I didn't mean to bring it up like that, it was selfish of me. Can I at least join you? I would feel better knowing you made it home safely.” I nod and he says, “Let me go lock up my truck, I'll be right right back!”
I simply said, “Okay.” He gets back to where we were and we begin to walk off in the direction of my house. Most of the walk was made in an uncomfortable silence, with a few questions here and there. We finally get to my front door and I go to say goodbye when he says, “Can I take you out tomorrow night?”
The f**k, really. “Are you serious right now?”
"Yes. Why wouldn't I be?”
“Did you hit your head or something while you were away. You do remember you just up and left me right?”
“About that, I can expla..”
“NO! Save it for somebody else Nate, I will never allow you to get that close to me again. You left me, you hurt me and took my heart with you.” I unlock my front door and slam it right in his face. Needless to say, I didn't get much sleep last night. I tossed and turned and even cried a little majority of the night.
I woke up pretty grouchy, I get that way when I have a sucky night of sleep, but my day has to carry on anyways. So I make a pot of coffee and get ready for the day ahead. I'm a veterinarian, so because I didn't have a lot of appointments today, work was a little short. I send my receptionist home, clean up some odd and ends, file a few documents and begin my lock up process. I'm just about to set the alarm and lock the door when I see Johnathan standing by his bike looking sexy as f**k as ALWAYS. I shake my head at myself because I’m mad at him remember. Anyhow, I lock up and head towards my jeep, when he calls my name.
“Erica, please talk to me!”
“Nate it's fine, it's in the past, just drop it.’ I stick my key in the lock of my jeep when he aggressively grabs me by my arm, turns me to face him, pushes me flat against my vehicle, has a hand pressed flat on my chest where my heart would be.
“No, it's not okay! I owe you an explanation. If you still don’t want me around, I'll respect your wishes and just stay away from you.” He says this while looking deep into my eyes and damn near speaking to my soul. At this I’m worried about being alone with him because I’m going to be a goner. I said okay, but of course he wants to take his bike. So I throw my too big and loose items in my jeep. I hate his bike, he goes extremely too fast on that demon of a ride. He's already on it and has it started, I throw my hair in a pony and hop on behind him.
“Why do you like this thing anyways?” I ask him.
While pulling my hands around his waist and placing them on his chest, he replies, “The adrenaline and,” turns his face back a little to see me better, “other than making love to you, this is the closest I can have you near me. That was the only reason I bought it to begin with.” I place my face on his back, by his shoulder and he pulls off.
We must've rode for what seemed like an hour. The sun is setting and he brings me to the beach. I must say, due to work I don't get out much so I miss out on some beautiful views by not making time for it. This is definitely a beautiful site to see. While scanning the area I spot a blanket spread out with a bucket on top.
“How'd you know I'd come?” I asked.
“Come on now, we basically grew up together. You're one of the most reasonable people I know. You'll always allow a person to plead their case before you say ‘f**k off’ completely.”
“Alright, then talk.” I stated.
He takes my hand and leads me to the blanket, we sit down and as the sun sets with various oranges and purples, we begin our talk. “I was an ass!” He starts with.
I c**k an eyebrow, “You don’t say.”
“I totally deserve anything you throw my way. Erica, with the way things were back then, there was no way for me to tell you I was leaving for school. You had already accepted a scholarship with one of the colleges here. There was no way to make a clean break without hurting you.”
“And you thought it was okay to make decisions on your own? Did you even consider me at all?” I asked as tears started to slip from my eyes.
He tucks loose hair strands behind each ear and grabs my face, “I was being a coward and I realize that now. This right here, your tears, I wouldn't have been able to take it. You know what your tears do to me. I melt like putty and probably would’ve wound up staying. Constantly regretting my decision and possibly taking it out on you. I couldn't possibly face that life with you.’ He sighs, “I loved, love, you too much for that.” I swipe his hands away at that. I don't want to hear that right now.
Then he starts kissing my shoulder, “Tell me you don't still love me. Tell me you don’t want me. I know I’m not the only who felt those sparks when I held you last night, even if it was only for a second. Tell me Erica and I’ll stop.”
I choose not to answer that because I can't tell him that. Of course I love him, but I had to move on. So I found a guy, we dated seriously for a long time. He proposed and I said yes. “You want to know why I didn't marry Tyler?” He nodded a yes at me, “it didn't feel right! My heart was never really in it because you took it when you left. I felt like I was betraying you in a way.”
He circled his hand around the back of my neck and his lips came crashing down on mines forcibly. It was a tug of war for power, but ultimately I let him lead and let him have his way. He moves to my neck, he's sucking and licking all over me and my panties are drenched at this point. “Mm-mm...not here Johnathan.”
“Why not Erica?” In his s****l hazed voice.
“We're outside, what if someone sees us.” whisper yelling this statement.
“So! What have I always told you. Live a little bit. Plus you're wearing a skirt, so it's perfect.” he comments with a sly smile. He goes back to kissing me, but this time he takes a hand and tugs at my panties. “Erica! You’re so wet baby!” I throw my head back as he pushes a finger past my walls and then adds another. I prop myself onto my hands and give in to the way he making me feel. He then lays me on my back and joins his fingers by sucking and flicking his tongue against my c**t. As he sucks on my c**t and fingering my wet p***y, I feel an orgasm coming dangerously close. So I grab his hair and push his face into my p***y urging it come and then it hits me strong as hell. I scream his name at the top of my lungs giving into this bomb ass orgasm. Panting and out of breath, Nate takes the two fingers he just fingered me with and sucks my juices off them. Can I say he instantly had my core pulsating with that.
He lays on his back, sits me on top of him, now I'm straddling him. His bulge is pressing against my hot p***y, so I unzip him, line him up with me and slowly slide down on him. He’s always been so f*****g big, I took so much of him already, I can fell him in my stomach. When I have myself just about full with him, he thrusts into me hard. He grabs either side of my waist and just rapidly thrusts into me. I put all my weight on him to make him stop and I then start rocking against him back and forth. Moving my p***y in a circular motion, while he's making small circular motions on my c**t. I bend over, kiss him passionately and he takes this opportunity to thrust into some more. He then picks me up off him, places me on my back, lifts my legs up and slams right into me. Thrusting into me continuously and still playing with my c**t. He does this for some time before he decides to flip over and start f*****g me from the back. This time though he begins to play with my asshole, thrusting two his fingers in and out, which instantly has me squirting everywhere and all on him. He still f*****g me and playing with my ass, but then he leans forward a little, takes his other hand and massage my c**t. Mmm-mmm, here comes the mother of all orgasms. As I’m cuming, he speeds up, so I assume he's about to ejaculate, So I take a hand, reach between my legs and play with his balls, which causes him to keep his speed, but now he's slamming into me.
“O f**k, o f**k,” slowing down a bit he says, “I’m coming baby, where do you want me c*m?”
“Wherever you want baby!”
“Can I nut inside you.”
“As long as you promise not to leave me again.”
He picks up his speed and replies, “Never again my love,” and dumps his seed in me. Out of breath and out of energy, we both collapse to the ground, laying on our backs and we stare into the dark sky where the stars are making their appearance so beautifully tonight. We face one another still panting pretty heavily, “I love you Erica and I'm going to do everything I can to gain your trust and to get us back to what we once were. And when our stars finally align once again, I'm going to make you my wife.” With that, we kissed lovingly and now that the f*****g was out of the way, we made love until the morning hours.