Nolans POV
It's been five days since Remi has been gone, and I would like to say it hasn’t affected me, but it has. I have been having dreams about her in that cell, covered in her own blood. I am holding her, and she is fading away like a light dimming into the dark. And then it’s just me covered in her blood, unable to scrub it off, no matter how hard I try. I can smell it. I can taste it. Then I am jolted awake.
It happened again this morning, and I am just getting out of a cold, cold shower. I have used a new bottle of body wash in the past two days, alone. Trying to scrub the smell of her blood off of me, even though I know it isn't really there. I have never had dreams like this. Ever.
I plan to stop by training today to ask Gamma Ben how Remi is doing. I have wanted to for the
