I-WILL-DIE

I craved for this ❤️

Nooooo--- an answer that shocked everyone.

I've heard someone whispering "what's happening to Artemis? Is she fooling us all here?"

I've seen the disappointments in everyone's faces, especially our parents.

I've tasted the acrimonious atmosphere in the four sides of our house.

I run away from all of them, leaving them in deep confusion.

(The day I should confess is the day he proposed. The day that we should be happy is the day we've started a tragic ending.)

Since that day, I've decided to go to our rest house in Bataan. I want to run away from all of them. I'm just like a fugitive escaping the reality that I will die.

(In the darkness of the room, I found no joy , I found no hope)

Knock! Knock! --- A sound coming from the door.

Who's that? How many times should I tell all of you that don't disturb me because I'm taking my rest! , I shout with my annoyed tone.

(The door slowly opens; I've seen the angelic face of my mom)

Art, can we talk? , she said with a melodic voice.

Yeah, sure my mom (my reply as if I felt guilty for a sin that I didn't mean at all)

Ivan is--- she is supposed to open up a conversation about him.

Mom, stop! I really don't care if you will just make me remember how foolish I am just to get out!

She sat beside me and it is just like I'm not comfortable enough with what's going on till she began to speak;

I still remember the day that heaven gave an angel to us. It is quite fulfilling for every woman after long hours of a life and death situation. Then, upon hearing you crying all I know is my heart is filled with joy. I can't explain every detail I felt in that moment but it made me think that it was all worth it when I finally had you in my arms. I have dreamt a lot for you darling and seeing you achieving all of those gave me a sense of pride as your mom. And now, seeing you like that, my world shattered into pieces. I thought giving you the perfect life you deserve is just my role as your mom but I was wrong I forgot that I am your mom I should know everything about you. The pleasure of this earth gape me and I neglected my greatest treasure. My angel, my unica hija . Sorry Art?? (Tears fell in her eyes)

No, mom I'm sorry (that was the first time I heard myself howling)

She hugged me as tight as she could. I have craved this chance for a long time. Their busy schedule made me realize I'm not worthy of them. I was wrong.

That night, my mom didn't go to my side. A mother's love reigns to the four corners of my room. She became my light in this darkness