My Ugly Mate

Losing yourself

Kendra

I needed to blow off steam and try to reel myself in. It’s been five months and Keyon doesn’t know when to quit. After he threatened me and tried to break into my “house,” I couldn’t go anywhere without him finding me. He intercepted everything: groceries, food, and even mail. He was doing everything he could to lure me out. Little does he know, I’ve been out and about without him seeing me. See, this whole time, I didn’t want my scent to be linked to the mansion, which is why I have been using the tunnel. But now it’s getting to the point where I have no choice but to leave that way. It’s irritating because I can’t go near any of the towns without someone reporting me to him. So, I decided to try to clone myself and fool him. I figured he'd take the clone and I could walk about freely. I thought it was a smart ass plan. The only issue is, I don’t know how to clone myself. I looked it up and even contacted some people to help me but, my powers are at bay. Why can’t I use them freely? I groaned and looked at the camera. I know it’s been a while since I’ve seen Keyon at the door, but I have to stop leaving home the regular way.

I took a chance today and went through the cabin. When I got to the trapped door, I was ambushed and poked in the neck with something. As my vision goes blurry, someone places a bag over my head… how did they get in? And why wasn’t I alerted? My main concern is that they’ll figure out where the tunnels lead to. Why was I so f*****g stupid? I don’t know how long I’ve been out, but when I came to, I was in someone’s dungeon. There were skeletons and s**t buckets with flies everywhere. I wasn’t shackled and, surprisingly, my cell looked like it was clean. I rubbed the back of my neck where I was stabbed and groaned. What the actual f**k? I was startled when a voice called my name. “I have to admit, Kendra, you are one smart ass wolf… but not smart enough.” I looked up to see Keyon’s face in the shadows. I rolled my eyes, “you couldn’t get me one way, so you had to do it the hard way… that still makes you a bitch.” I challenged. He chuckles, which turns me on instantly. See, I still haven’t broken the bond yet, so he still turns me on. Too bad for him, he can still feel everything I do.

“I didn’t want to resort to this Kendra… not at all, but you forced my hands.” I said nothing to that… I forced his hands, ha!!! He can take his hands and shove them up his f*****g ass. “Oh, you have nothing to say huh?” he teases. See, the jokes on him, I’m being quiet because my powers are surging through me right now, and if I were to engage in his fuckery, I wouldn’t be able to plan my escape. The area we are in is unfamiliar, so that means that we are nowhere near either pack. I’m trying to calm myself down, but once again, he’s on his bullshit. I’m ready for whatever the hell he has got going on, he can torture me all night, but I will not accept his rejection. Let the war begin.

Keyon

Five f*****g months, it has taken me five months to finally capture Kendra. I couldn’t for the life of me figure out how the hell she managed to evade me leaving her house. This took place for at least four months, when finally, I was able to break into her cabin. It was completely empty but you can tell someone lived there. It was set up as though a woman was living there, but there was no food in the kitchen at all. Which is funny, seeing how I’ve intercepted food and groceries that were addressed to this cabin. So, unless she died of starvation, she doesn’t stay here. But everytime I come to this house, she’s speaking through an intercom. Which now means she’s nearby but not here. I’ve been so damn busy running back and forth between the three towns in between the packs, that I always managed to miss her, so I thought, why not wait here? I told Trevor and Latvia that I needed some time and was camped out here this whole time. I had someone put a loop on her camera, so she'd think someone wasn't coming up to the house.

All that persistence paid off, because as she was coming out of a hidden door, I jumped her, drugged her, and dragged her ass off to a location one hour past our pack. No one knows of this location but me, so there’s no rescuing her. I had my boys search the hidden door but they said it was a big ass loop for about 8 miles, it led to another opening 45 minutes before the next pack. I had them search the area and, lo and behold, there was another cabin that was the exact match of this one. Smart Kendra, but not smart enough. I finally got you. I had to spray a scent blocker on me because her smell was intoxicating and it didn’t help when I started to talk to her. When she stopped responding to me, I took that as she was scared and warned her that she was going to pay for everything she'd done to me. I left her in that dark cell with no water or food. I left her there for at least two weeks, but when I returned, she was not in the cell. How the f**k did she escape?

I couldn’t let it get out what I did, so now the hunt for her is back on. I was still on leave, so I extended it. I couldn’t find her for another three months. One thing I can say, she’s f*****g good at hiding. I took the liberty to go blow her original places up. That way, she has nowhere to run. I went back to the dungeon to make sure she didn’t sneak back in, which would’ve been dumb. I thought I caught a glimpse of her, but I think my eyes were playing tricks on me. She had to f*****g die, that’s it. I’m through with the games and I’ve f*****g had it. Next time, there won’t be a capture, there’s a murder. I’ve already made up my mind. Kendra Lowe will join Katalina in hell, and by my hands. When I couldn’t locate her again, I became angry at the world. How the f**k did I let her go? I got cocky and arrogant. I should’ve stayed by the dungeon, just in case. I got lucky this time around. She slipped up and let me see her in the other pack. We were visiting there because of an emergency meeting. By this time, I had already come back to work. We were in the process of leaving when I saw her. She was walking with that Johnathon dude and I could tell it was her, because of her scent. Why hadn’t I picked this up before? Then I realized she masked her scent, until today. I guess she figured I wasn’t going to be there, and plus, she was hiding in plain sight, so Trevor and Latvia would’ve missed her. But she’s my f*****g nightmare. I know that scent, ugly ass face, and body from anywhere. I couldn’t grab her right now, but now I know where to look. I needed to catch her outside the pack. But when and where?

I looked back over my shoulders and caught Kendra getting into her car. So, she’s not staying here? Where is she going? As I watched her pull away, I turned to Trevor and Latvia, “could I take a single car, I need to run an errand before I return?” I asked. They looked at me suspiciously, wondering why the sudden urgency. “Okay, but meeting in five hours, I have something to talk to you two about.” Trevor said. I thanked them and hopped in the car, speeding off. She left a few minutes ago, so she shouldn’t have gotten far. I wonder what made her come to him, and not continue to hide the way she was. I was just outside the territory when I saw her car turn off the road towards the mountains. I followed suit, wanting and needing to know where she was and why. We had to have been driving for thirty minutes in the desert when she stopped on the side of the road all of a sudden. I slowed my pace down and pulled over a few yards away from her and waited. She didn’t get out of the car. As a matter of fact, she turned the car off and just sat there. What the hell is she up to and why would she suddenly stop here? The car isn’t moving or rocking, she’s just sitting there. I felt uneasy suddenly and whipped my head towards my backseat to see her sitting there. Eyes bloodshot red. “Funny that you're following me, Keyon, now the question is why?”

Jonathan

Ever since Kendra told me that she was about to disappear, I have been seething with anger. How dare that muthafucker threaten her after I just warned him to leave her be. I know MJ would have my neck for starting a war behind Kendra, who is technically still mated to that asswipe. But I warned him, and now I’m livid beyond belief. I will protect and avenge Kendra for his disrespect. I’m in the gym pounding the hell out of this punching bag. I haven’t eaten for days since the call, my body is tired, I’m burning every energy in me, but I don’t want to eat. Kendra trusted me and now I betrayed that trust, by bringing that lying ass punk to her place of residence. I couldn’t forgive him for that and mostly, myself. I was on the verge of passing out when I received a call from Kendra. I thought I was seeing things, but as my eyes focused, I snapped into focus. “Kendra, hey. I’m shocked to be hearing from you.” I said, out of breath. “Johnathon… I’m so sorry. I was being a b***h and took my anger out on you, I’m sorry.” she began. “No, no Kendra. I owe you an apology. I shouldn’t have come at you the way I did. I should’ve talked to you better than that, but I didn’t. Most importantly, I shouldn’t have led him to your place. I thought I was doing the right thing. Now I know I was wrong.” To hear her chuckle turned my tired ass on. “I want to see you Kendra, to make up for what I did. I want to make it right with you. I don’t care how long it takes.” I damn near pleaded, praying she said yes. “Um, I don’t know Johnathon, I have to find a new place to stay and I-I don’t want any issues between you and that bum. Even though you don’t owe him anything.” She says, breaking my heart a little. “Look, come to my place and talk to me then, you can stay as long as you need to.” I immediately offered. I usually don’t invite females to my crib, but Kendra, I’m ready to end it all behind her. It’s been damn near a year since the last time we spoke.

“Johnathon, I..” I cut her off, “don’t make me beg… I’ll get on my knees and beg you.” I said seductively. “Do you need me to Boyz II Men it for you?” I asked, hearing her laugh out loud. “OMG!!! Please don’t, you suck at Boyz II Men.” she replies, laughing harder. “Then come talk to me and stay for a while. Let’s get caught up and look for a place for you together.” I said, as she calmed down with laughing. “Ehhh..” she starts, dragging it out. “I do miss that big, soft bed of yours… and your TV… and your huge tub… and your clothes… and your cooking.” she teased. “But not me?” I asked, egging her on. “I mean-eh.” she joked. “Oh, okay, so you got jokes I see.” she laughs again. “I’ll come by to talk, but I don’t know about staying.” She says. “Okay, I can handle that.” I lied. I wanted her to spend the night with me, have her in my arms. Smell her, wake up to her, and make love to her. But I know, because of everything that’s happened, we have to start slower than before. And I have no one but myself to blame for that.

Kendra

This stalking s**t Keyon has going on is bothering the hell out of me. I knew he was following me and he looked hella surprised when I popped up in his back seat. “Why the f**k are you following me?” I growled with anger. “f**k all that, how the hell did you get in my car?” he snapped back. “You worry about the wrong thing.” I replied, smirking. “You’re a hard b***h to find, you know that?” he asked, wagging his fingers at me. “That’s the f*****g point. Why are you looking and following me?” I asked again, waiting for an answer. “Accept the f*****g rejection Kendra!!” he growls at me. “Are we still on that? You want me to accept the rejection? Are we not moved on from that? I know I am.” I laughed, antagonizing him more. “I will never give you that satisfaction. Besides, aren’t you a little curious to know if I’m good in bed?” I asked seductively. I needed him to sleep with me, so I can drug him and leave his ass stranded somewhere.

I knew he was following me, which is why we’re here where we are. “I don’t give a fuck.” he lies. I know he’s lying, because his johnson was hard as f**k instantly. Hmm was all I said before unlocking his door. “Well, there is nothing more, I’ll be on my way.” I said, proceeding to exit the car. I walked towards my car and before entering I turned and said, “I want you to know, you’re about to really feel it tonight.” With that, I hopped in my car and drove off. I made a u-turn and as I rode past him, I saw the anger in his eyes. If he does what I know he’ll do, he’s going to follow me to the place I’m “staying,” which is what I’m waiting on.

Keyon

That f*****g b***h!!!!! It’s now or never, Keyon. I said to myself. Nigel hasn’t said s**t to me in months behind Kendra. “Leave her alone… Heave this warning.” he howls in anger. “Oh, now you wanna talk. Continue to do what you do best. Be quiet, I've got this.” I’m going to end her f*****g life and today is that day. I waited until she had a five minute head start before going behind her. Her scent led me to a hotel maybe 20 miles away for our pact. I’ve been here before and I'm well known, so I shouldn’t be bothered. I spotted her car and parked a few aisles over. Then, once again, using her scent, I figured out what room she was in. I went to the receptionist's desk and asked for a key to surprise her. I paid the lady a large amount as well. Once I had the keys, I went back to her room, drinking a masking serum. I listened from outside the door as I heard her turn the water on in the restroom. Then, I waited until she closed the door. A few more minutes passed and I unlocked the door and slowly opened it, making sure to remove the chain. Her scent was intoxicated as I approached the bathroom door. I left the room door ajar so I could make a quick getaway. I open the door as a s**t ton of steam pours out the restroom. That is perfect.

I didn’t get maybe a few feet into the restroom when the side of my neck started burning on both sides. As I spun around to defend myself, I fell to the ground as Kendra smiled, holding two needles. “You f*****g… bitch.” I managed to say before blacking out. I let her get the drop on me. How could I have been so careless? I came to what felt like forever. I looked around and saw that I was chained to a wall. The sounds of rats, water, and cars filled my ears as I groaned and moved around. “What the f**k!!” I asked out loud. “You know…” Kendra said, as she approached me. “You are easier to move when you’re unconscious.” she chuckles. “What did you do to me?” I mumbled, trying to get my bearings. Before she could answer, I could hear lightning and thunder in the background. “Oh nothing, just render you unconscious and put your wolf down so that he doesn’t experience what you’re about to.” I yanked at the chains, trying to break free. “When I get out of these, that’s your f*****g life.” I threatened.

This time, she had gone too far. “You can still threaten me, even in your situation. You a bold muthafucka. I'll give you that.” she laughed. I heard the thunder and lightning again as she looked behind her. “Well, it’s time for me to go. We won’t be seeing each other again. I promise you that.” she smirked. As she began to walk away, I realized where I was. A f*****g storm drain. I started to rattle the chains more, using what little force I had to break free. I couldn’t call my wolf because she put him down, which isn’t good for me right now. “Oh, before I go. I still don’t accept your rejection. I'd rather bear the pain of you dying and never be mated again, than to let you continue to threaten and act on my life. Consider us even oh… and I won.” she walked off laughing. “This ain’t you!!!” I yelled, my voice echoing through the drain as water started to pour in. “No, it’s not… But you made me this way.” She replied, sticking her head around the corner. Those eyes, the bloodshot purpleed eyes. Those eyes of hatred and hurt, the ones when her wolf is extremely pissed off and doesn’t give two f***s, peered at me. “Rot in f*****g hell Keyon.” and just like that, she was gone.

Gretchen

I've had enough of the threats and action against Kendra from Keyon. Enough is enough. When I heard that they were coming to Johnathon’s pack, I put my plan in motion to finish Keyon once and for all. The night before I asked the Moon Goddess to grant me permission to see Nigel, and she didn’t disappoint. We met under a bloodstained waterfall. I waited for him to come to me, seeing how I’ve never met him before… no thanks to Keyon’s dumb ass. When he finally arrived, he was so big, he could barely stand in the cave. “Nigel.” I said, softly, waiting for him to make the move. He approaches me, wrapping his arms around me. “I can’t believe I get to finally meet my love.” he barely whispers. I wrapped my arms around him. “Nigel, I need to talk with you.” I began, before he pulled me in for an embrace.

I was taken aback because I didn’t expect him to still have feelings for me, especially with everything Keyon is putting Kendra through. “Ni..” I couldn’t get another word in as he began to massage my n*****s, groping and kneading them. I started to whimper and moan. I wanted him, but I didn’t know I needed him this badly. My n*****s are extremely hard and I’m soaking wet. I haven’t been touched in forever and how I’ve longed for him and I to be together. He’s kissing my sweet spots, as his fingers find their way down to my opening. “Nigel, wait.. We need to talk.” I tried to focus as his fingers continued to work. “I need you first… even if it’s my last.” he pleaded, as one finger entered my kitty, causing me to contract against him. I let him take control of me as we f****d everywhere in the cave, going a total of seven rounds. By time we were done, I was regretting what we needed to talk about.

We laid on the bed as we tried to catch our breaths. “I wish we had more time.” Nigel says, rubbing my back. “Nigel, I’m so sorry.” I began, feeling bad for what I’m about to discuss with him. “I know Gretchen, I know.” he says, sighing. “You know what?” I asked, sitting up. “I know what Keyon’s been doing. He won’t listen to me, he’s threatened and acted on her life three times already. He’s a cold hearted son of a b***h who sadly deserves everything he has coming to him. All I ask is I don’t want to be part of the torture. Put me down or something, let him suffer on his own.” he basically said in one breath. My eyes began to swell because I was losing the love of my life, because of his human. Why did it have to be this way? “The best I can do is suppress you until he dies.” I offered. He shakes his head, “I can’t believe he made you this way, with his selfish ass. He’s f*****g it up for me as well!!!” he yells, throwing the side dresser across the room. I touched his arms, wanting him to calm down. “Before I go, just know the Moon Goddess promises to bless you with a different human and mate. I’m sorry this happened to you. But you’ll find another true love, hopefully soon enough. I’m sorry you have to go through all that again.” I said sincerely.

“I understand my love. I understand completely.” he said, pulling onto him again. “Allow me to make love to this body a few more times before you leave my arms.” he said, as we began the next round. I woke up to him leaving, returning to his problem. “I love you Gretchen, and I wish we had time. Maybe in another lifetime.” he says, kissing my hand and walking off. The tears that were falling down my face were mixed with pure hatred and anger for Keyon. ALL OF THIS IS HIS f*****g FAULT!! I will definitely end him and in order to do that, I need complete control of Kendra’s body and I have to pass myself off as her. She cannot be awake when the deed happens because I know for a fact that she won’t be able to handle killing someone. I, on the other hand, don’t give two f***s. Keyon Black will die a watery death today, and by my hands. I left the cave with everything in motion. I drugged Kendra while she was still asleep and made sure it was a hefty amount. She needed to be asleep for a full day.

Once I had complete control of her body, I went to Johnathon’s pack, masking my smell enough so that Trevor and Latvia didn’t notice me. When the meeting was over, I timed it with Johnny so that I walked into Keyon’s view at the right time. He noticed me instantly and we both knew that he wasn’t allowed to pursue me openly, so I made sure to drive slowish, giving him time to catch up with me. Everything was going according to plan, even up to the storm drain and the storm. I took him where it rains damn near constantly, Seattle, Washington. Of course, the weather didn’t let me down. I stayed in the house above the storm drain where I could hear him screaming, straining, and rattling those chains, trying to get someone to notice and hear him. Joke's on him because people were scattering to get out of the rain. After what seemed like forever, he finally calmed down. I didn’t wait around to see if he was dead. I had to get back to Johnathon and give Kendra control back before he was discovered. I feel absolutely nothing and although Kendra’s memory is mine, I’ll just tell her it was just a dream.

I have no sympathy for anything, especially after the coma Kendra was in, from the excessive pain of him f*****g that b***h the day we were attacked. He didn’t care about her life on more than one occasion and I for damn sure didn’t f**k about his just now. It’ll probably take a few months before his body is discovered, that is if the rats, alligators, or whatever the hell lives down there, don't destroy it first. Then, due to the water, they’ll have to identify his body, report him to Trevor and Latvia, who would then have to identify the body. Once that happens, the investigation will begin and since I’m good at covering our tracks, it will probably take them a few more months to put Kendra at the scene. We didn’t check into the hotel, so our names are not registered under any names, they would’ve just thought he paid money to surprise his mistress for a secret affair in a vacant room. His car is still there of course and since Kendra doesn’t know how to use my powers yet, I made sure we were invisible on camera. Pretty much all of our tracks were covered, even his raggedy ass car. No prints, no hair, no face, and no case.

I know it’s cruel, but the amount of torture that she endured, because he didn’t find her attractive, is beyond what I did… sort of. He showed no mercy, but neither did I. I also kept Kendra asleep to heal her as he died, seeing how we both felt it. As the pain became less intense, I knew he was gone. She’s going to have to sleep it off until tomorrow, and by then, I should have the potion I need to heal her broken heart. She’s in that state of mind now where she doesn’t trust anyone. Jonathan included, especially since Keyon tricked him into showing him where Kendra lived. Kendra really likes him, which is why I reached out to him for her. I needed to get into the land and use him as a decoy. But as they slept together, I could feel Kendra’s heart and thoughts. She's afraid, but she feels safe around him. I guess one mistake is okay, as long as it doesn’t happen again. I’m exhausted because healing a broken heart takes a lot of energy. I already told the Moon Goddess that I accept all responsibility that will come with Keyon’s death. Speaking of deaths, I truly miss Nigel. I wish Keyon had given us a chance. Wishful thinking, huh? After everything I’ve done, we will never get this piece of ourselves back. It’s gone forever, like my chance of love with Nigel.

As I lay down next to Johnathon, the tears began to stream from my eyes. I knew I had to make an excuse as to why I'm crying, but I was going to take this to my grave and protect Kendra at all times. Johnathon held us in his arms all night, until Kendra woke up the next morning. She was in so much pain that she buckled as she tried to go to the restroom. She couldn't explain what was wrong because she doesn't know or remember. When she finally discussed the "dream" with me, I told her not to let it bother her. It was just a dream. I told her that we accepted Keyon's rejection last night, which is why we are feeling what we're feeling. When she asked me why, I said, "because I am tired of the hold it has on you. With us rejecting him, he can't hurt or try to hurt her again. This was all he wanted." Kendra said that didn't sound right, but it would explain the pain. I told her that she'd be in pain for a while and to explain to Johnathon what's going on. That way he can act accordingly, and of course, he stayed by her side for the next three days. All the while, I finally got a hold of the potion I needed. Once I administered it to Kendra, she was feeling a lot better. I finally needed to rest and explained to Kendra that I was going to be out of commission for a few days. I told her to take this time to learn Johnathon.