All I Want For Christmas

Chapter 2 - Coming To Terms With The Painful Truth.

'The path of your life can change in an instant'

~ Ann Brashares

Olivia's P.O.V.

I feel numb and broken, not to mention lost as well which isn't surprising considering my whole life and future have just been imploded.

I know this may seem dramatic because we're only eighteen, fresh out of high school and we've got our whole lives ahead of us, so it's probably silly of us to tie ourselves down at such a young age and maybe you're right but it never felt that way with Colton and me.

Everything always felt real between us, every kiss and hug we had, every time we slept together in each other's beds, every conversation we had and every plan we made felt real and authentic or at least to me it did and I honestly felt like the luckiest girl in the world because I had found the one at eighteen when there are people out there who either have died or gonna die without ever finding the one for them.

I honestly don't know what made this whole situation worse for me, the fact that my 'boyfriend' had not only made this bet but he actually went through with it and succeeded in winning the bet, all the while cheating on me, if we can even call it that with quite possibly the biggest w***e in our school or the fact that my brother, my twin f*****g brother was also in on it.

It was a painful sting to my heart to learn that my brother, my twin brother, the man I had shared a freaking womb with was nasty and vindictive enough to do something like this but it destroyed me when I learned that he played a bigger part in this that I originally thought.

I didn't stick around at Colton's house for that long but I did stay long enough to learn enough information to completely change my whole opinion on not only Colton but also Tyler as well.

I learned quite a bit of disgusting and vile information from my brother and Colton before I'd had enough and bolted out of my now ex-boyfriend's home.

One of the things I had discovered was that Colton had to provide proof to his friends to prove to them that he had indeed take my virginity and he did this with the bed sheet that he had taken from our hotel room which left me feeling confused because the sheet was clean when we left it, so what proof did he have on a clean sheet that could prove we had s*x?.

I had heard many horror stories from my cousins and also girls at school who told me that they had bled like they were having their period after losing their virginities but that never happened with me.

Does that mean that there's something wrong with me?.

Anyway, after Colton had shown his moron friends his 'evidence' and they all laughed loudly like a bunch of dying hyenas as they congratulated my i***t ex for 'conquering me and my virginity', I then found out that I had been manipulated in a way by my brother to go through with having s*x with Colton on graduation night.

Tyler and Colton both knew that I wanted to wait until marriage to have s*x just like my parents did and I thought the latter was ok with it but clearly he wasn't and Tyler wasn't happy that his friend wasn't happy so he used my insecurities and fears about not being enough for Colton and he played on them to convince me to give it up to him before I lose him to someone else, instead of waiting for us to get married which they both said was stupid and ridiculous of me to want.

I had also found out what my twin brother really thought of me which was a real eyeopener for me because I truly thought that we were close and that he loved me just as much as I loved him but it turns out that he doesn't even like me, in fact, his exact words were 'she's annoying and so goddamn perfect all of the time and needed to be brought down a peg or two'.

Tyler was also bold enough to say that I'd thank him for doing all of this later on because I'm way out of Colton's league because someone like him who is gonna make it big in the NFL deserves a sexy pin up like Chelsea for a girlfriend, not some frumpy and boring Betty Crocker wannabe which I knew was a dig at me wanting to be a famous baker like my mom.

Now, I know you're all probably thinking s**t Ollie, that's bad, surely things can't get any worse, can they? and I hate to break it to you babes but they sure as f**k can because after the smug bastards were done explaining their gross plans to Demi, Colton then said something which not only broke my already shattered heart into irreparable pieces but it also boiled my blood as well.

The asshole had the nerve and the motherfucking gumption to say that he wanted to keep me in his life as his mistress whilst flaunting Chelsea as his girlfriend and that he knew I'd accept this new role in his life because not only am I obsessed with him but I'm also madly in love with him as well, so I'd have no other choice but to accept this if I wanted to remain in his life.

Fucking cockwomble.

I'd maybe accept this arrangement if it was someone who's worth it in my eyes like Austin Butler or Harry Jowsey but not this i***t.

Yes, I love him and yes, he's incredibly hot and charismatic, not to mention, Colton is also sweet and kind as well when he wants to be but so are thousands of other men in this world, he's not unique.

I will say though that Ryder who is one of Tyler and Colton's best friend made me laugh and he also restored my faith a little in men as well when he sided with Demi and told them that what they did was wrong and that they shouldn't be playing with my feelings like they are.

If you're wondering what he said or did to make me laugh well, that's simple, Ryder told Colton that he reminded him of one of the main asshole characters, his words not mine, in the romance novels that his sister reads.

It was after this that I left because I didn't wanna hear any more from them.

I immediately came back home and locked myself in my room as I struggled to not only contain my tears but also the nauseous feeling in my stomach as well which I was feeling from hearing people who I thought loved and cared about me degrade me in such a way and that's where I've been ever since.

I've spent the past few hours just lying on my bed crying my eyes out as I thought about how I should go forward with my life because I was supposed to start college soon with my brother, Colton and Demi but now I'm not so sure if I want to.

Knock!!, Knock!!, Knock!!.

Urgh!!, go away.

"Baby...Ollie babe, are you in there?"

No, I'm in space, asshole.

I mean, I may as well be considering I've been lost in my thoughts for the past god knows how long.

"Ollie...Ollie, sweetheart"

Colton's voice said sounding like he was becoming frustrated and frantic as he repeatedly tried to open my door.

Good luck, asshole, my door's locked.

"What the...Olivia, why is your door locked?"

To keep evil away, no wait, that's holy water.

"I'd give up if I were you, bro"

"Why should I, Ty? her door is locked and her curtains are closed"

"Yeah because she's probably asleep, mom said she looked worn out earlier on"

Tyler said and Colton groaned against my door.

"I don't know, Tyler, something doesn't feel right here...you don't think Demi has spilled the beans to her, do you?"

Colton whispers the last part but I still managed to hear him.

Fucking, i***t.

"I don't think so, brother, Demi would never betray her own family like that"

Unlike you, Tyler Redwood.

"Now, come on...dad said we can have some of his beers to celebrate the next chapter of our lives, leave Ollie to rest"

Tyler said before leaving.

Colton then let out a sigh as I heard a slight thud which I assumed was him resting his forehead against my door.

"I hope everything is ok with you, baby...I love you, Ollie"

I highly doubt it, Colton because if this is how you show your love to someone then I'd hate to see how you'd show your hate to them.

I thought to myself as a stray tear rolled down my cheek.

I didn't want to cry and I didn't want to feel any good emotions towards this man but I couldn't help it.

I couldn't help feeling love and affection for him because it was all that I knew to feel for him but I'll grow out of it eventually and one day I'll finally feel nothing for him and our time together will be nothing but a distant memory or at least, I hope it will anyway.

I really hope all of this was worth it, Colton Andrew McKenzie because you've just lost the best thing that has ever happened to you.