REBIRTH
1093 Words
I don't know how it feels to die. But I know I'd hate to die. Like hey, looks like your time is over! You can't be with the living no more. Can't talk with them, see them, make memories or just be there. And then the big question of where you will be instead. Cats have nine lives they have never cared to explain how they stay alive. I would love to know their secret. I don't know how it feels to be reborn too. But I surely feel like I've died and reincarnated somehow. It's the only explanation I have.
Or maybe it's a dream. Or I'm imagining things. I guess I just want excuses and explanations to things. But it felt too real. Too real. Just like yesterday, I sleep for less than two hours because I keep waking up feeling like I'm procrastinating something. Like I'm always forgetting something and when I'm about to remember it, I wake up. Try to go back to sleep to continue the dream but it doesn't work. What is this I keep forgetting? And it's so weird because I check off every thing in my to-do list. I'm one of those girls . I just have to be completely sure and I hate incomplete works.
But still something doesn't feel right. I feel like I'm missing something big and quite ridiculously feel it at the tip of my hemispheres if I can say so. Like it's right in front of me. What's wrong with me? My brain is playing tricks on me for sure. I get so spent and definitely stressed from work and when I get home relive all that in my sleep. It's completely draining to the mind body and soul for sure. And still I have a day of the same dose today. Don't forget to add some black pepper on this one.
For some reason, I have been dreading to accompany my boss to this interview at GEngTech Science Co. It's a laboratory which deals in genetics, engineering and technology just like it's name. It's a pretty popular facility. It has produced a lot of tech that has been useful to people all over the country. Anyone would be delirious about going there. Anyone but me. And I don't even know why. But I just am.
Every time I remember I'm scheduled to go to the place soon, my heart beats so fast and I shake too. Then there is something at the back of my mind that strongly warns me against it. I honestly don't know why I would be so scared about visiting a laboratory. I've been to others before when younger like the YeriBots which is a facility that makes robots.
There has been rumors for a while now that they have made a prototype of an AI . None of the rumors have been confirmed but there is never really telling with these scientists. They are too smart for their own good with theories they like to prove. Like what is your point?
AI? Now why does that ring a bell? I don't know much about that topic that I'm surprising myself by thinking I know a thing or two about them. From where though? But I for sure know... Never mind.
Back to what I was talking about, I've been to other laboratories except the one in question. I don't know how I've managed to skip visiting it before because like I said it's pretty popular and everyone visits it. My boss sends me a reminder for the interview and a frappucino in thirty minutes. I seriously hate being an intern. If I were the boss, I won't need to follow anybody's command. Would issue them myself . Would feel nice to be a boss.
But that's done so I quickly clean up and groom a bit. With a boss like mine, you just have to clean up nice or not hear the end of it. And she says what's on her mind when it is. Some people should have been born chimpanzees because verbal communication is like a fuel that catalyses or the soil that facilitates the expression of an evil mind. Try insulting people using chimpanzee sounds and signs.
" That skirt looks like it's wearing you! "
Does it at least look good doing that?
"What happened to your big girl shoes? We are not going to PE here in the office. "
It's the weekend you said I could wear casual and sneakers are casual!
"Please don't use cologne that could easily give people around you indigestion. "
Can't really afford custom made from the peanuts I earn as an intern! What I do I try so much to. She should cut me some slack.
"Maybe if you wore dresses more, someone might want to take you out. Someone should have told you, jeans are not any effort. People prefer a little effort. "
Yeah I give up! I would say that jeans is casual but everyone already knows that.
My boss Miss Depps would bluntly point things like that out to me. I always hated her scrutiny. She takes her time checking you out when you step into her office. And she evaluates you then blankly point out anything she feels should be spoken whenever.
I sometimes wonder how it's like to work for a man. Work for a man...
I would work for a man and enjoy it. I feel like I actually know the experience and I like it. Or I hope I like it. Because a Miss Depps is no man. And way she likes to be called madam or boss it is pretty clear from the former what her gender is. But gender is not the issue here let's not get confused. The issue is how stressful it is working under the madam. Think of walking on eggshells or through quick sand. Internship sucks.
I give myself one last glance in the mirror and nod in approval. I'm ready to go visit a laboratory that sets my soul on fire. Not the good kind and I can't even explain why. I hope we won't be long. I take a long deep breath then step out.
'Don't forget the frappucino again Anne. ' Is what I got yelled at yesterday.
I have never forgotten you know, for the record! I don't know why she even said that. Correction, yelled that. She's always yelling.
And I got a reminder this morning. I'm not trying to get fired so...
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