A strange mix of emotions rummages through my head, driving me crazy. I feel bad about my conversation with Josh. I don’t want to put him in this position and I sure as hell can imagine better scenarios for a blooming relationship. But who said this s**t would be easy?
I know he has a point when he says that there is no way to know what the future holds and a part of me is fully aware of the fact that sometimes you just have to jump into the cold water to fall in love. But I’m afraid to. I know it’s only going to get harder with two men in the picture.
I didn’t expect myself to fall for Alex too. I thought he would have given up on me by now, but he hasn’t. And after that night with him and the way he treated me… I mean, how am I supposed to ignore that?
I am nervous about our dat
