She Still Wants You

Harder Now

Oscar's POV

"Ring, ring...." its the same thing, she is not picking up. I have called her a thousand times now and she is ignoring me.

"Could it be she has gone clubbing with Kate, that's why she is not picking up?" A wild thought crosses my drunk brain. I toss my phone on the bed and hang my head on my hands as the thought started making sense.

"I need one more cup to drown this thought..., I swear Kate will pay for what she is doing, she wants to slowly turn my girl into a hoe." I go to the fridge to get the bottle of grants. I am already wasted but the idea of Meagan clubbing makes me feel like am still tipsy. I swear it is disturbing, thinking about how things go down in the club and imagining my girl in such an environment. It pierces my heart suffocating my peace. I feel like a vampire that has been stabbed with a silver blade in the chest. It kills me thinking about it on a sober minded or tipsy. I take another sip straight from the bottle. 

     **********   Early This Morning   ***********

"Morning, boss, how are you?" Emmie greets me with a big and beautiful smile like she always does. "Morning, Em, am good and you" I reply while walking to my office as she follows me. "Yes, Emmie what's for today?" I asked taking my seat.

"Uh, today my team is supposed to start working on the data structures of the game. And am told some of them have not yet reported, but am..." Emmie's daily report felt trivial today, my mind was lost thinking about the investors so much that the company's wellbeing felt boring to me. "Is there anything from the investors?" I cut her short, asking about my main concern at the moment. I really can't afford to lose these investors. Things haven't been going too well for me in the recent months. Having many investors and partnering companies on my project is my only hope to get my life back on track. If I lose these guys then am done with, it will mean I'll have to prorogue most of my plans. The game will take a lot of time to develop and will be more expensive to make without the investors and partnering companies. And Meagan's dream engagement depends on it as well. Otherwise I'll have to improvise on her ring and wedding expenses."I haven't received any word from any of the investors nor partnering companies." Emmie's reply makes me more anxious.What's taking this guys so long to give their feedback? I even gave them PowerPoint presentations of the game. They should say if they're not going to fund the project, so that I should know what to do. I am tired of waiting, this anxiety is messing up with my focus... 

"Alright, you get back to work." I dismiss Emmie before anxiety gets the best of me."Its not good for a captain to panic before his pirates even when the ship is sinking." I remind myself of a leadership quote in my mind to help me keep my cool in front of Emmie.

"I'll send them a reminder in their mails, incase they forgot" Emmie replied assuring me that she is handling it. "I'll appreciate that. Em" Emmie smiles at my reply before leaving my office.

My eyes escort her as she leaves, she is beautiful, with a sexy body and intelligent. If it wasn't for Meagan, she would have been my girlfriend. I would be hitting that smart ass like am coding. 

She looks like she gets wild and nasty when she is turned on. And it would be easy for me to have her in my bed, she likes me even though I don't appreciate her effort. 

My mind zeros in on the thought of taking advantage of Emmie. It even pictured her naked in my room. Even though it was perverse, at least for a while it help me forget about the thought of making the game without the help of investors and partnering companies.

I continue working on the project plan of the game, when I snapped out of my thoughts. I get the reports of my team, analysing where the project plan is having difficulties to be implemented. 

..............

I call for Emmie every now and then throughout the day, asking her how they are doing the work. Emmie gets patient with me understanding my situation, she doesn't complain about me calling her countless times to my office. 

Its now 6pm everyone else has knocked off apart from Emmie. She has to give a report of what they have achieved as a team today. So that I can prepare their tasks for tomorrow. As Emmie was giving her report, my phone rings. Its Mr Hendar. I get a little nervous hoping he is calling to tell me good news. "Good evening Mr Hendar." I pick up the call."Good evening Oscar, how was your day?" Mr Hendar replied."Am good thanks and you" I replied."Am good, I have some bad news about the investors, I have just been told that one of the marketing companies turned down the proposal which influenced the rest to do the same. Check your email they should have sent you an email by now." Mr Hendar's news crushes my spirit, it is unbearable. Things were better when I was still waiting, at least there was still hope then, but now I have to live through my nightmare of improvise. 

The feedback I wanted so badly became my destruction. I couldn't hide it from Emmie anymore, she has seen the captain tremble to his ship sinking. "What about you Mr Hendar, what is your decision?" I asked, hoping my optimism will do me good. "Sorry Son, I would love to join on this project buh the odds are not promising. I would have joined if there were at least two other media companies. I hate to follow the others, buh I got a family to feed and bills to pay. All the best son..." I hangup on Mr Hendar before he could finish talking.

"What did the investors say?" Emmie asked in a sympathetic tone noticing my face looking sad. "We are f****d Em, that's what happened. The marketers f****d us up." I burst in anger going to stand by the door of my office. Starring at the workspace of Emmie's team. 

"Sorry boss." I heard Emmie's voice close to my chest. She was standing next to me by the door. "Boss, I think we can still make even without the investors. I have good connections on github, we can outsource the game to let them help out on the coding as we focus on the graphics of the game." Emmie said standing in front of me trying to get my attention from looking at the workspace."Do what you want Emmie." I said going back into my office. "Don't lose hope boss, there is still time and I'll take care of the programmers. We can make this happen." Emmie followed me inside my office standing in front of me.I hug her to avoid looking into her eyes. My eyes are so full of pessimism and she is nagging me, looking at me with her beautiful big eyes full of childlike hope. "Thank you Em. I don't know where I would have been without you." I whisper to her ear hugging her tightly. Feeling her warmth close to my chest sucking out the negative energy from me. "Anything for you boss." Emmie's reply starts to turn me on. The only thought strong enough to suppress any stressful issue in my head started to developing as I hug her tightly. Carried away in emotions I kiss Emmie. Looking in her eyes, she wants to kiss back but she is kind of lost with what's happening. Then my dilemma popped up reminding me of all the things I'll have to move back and improvise. Meagan's engagement haunts me the most. I dismiss Emmie before things get worse, I don't want to start having awkward moments with her, not with the way things are right now. I close my office and the other doors. Giving the security guys a quick greeting, no time to chill chat am not in the mood to night. 

I just want to pass by a liquor store then go drown myself in liquor at home. My night is already ruined there is nothing I can do to make it better than killing my worries with shots of tequila.

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I get by the liquor store to get myself a bottle of tequila. I place my order to the tender, then as he was going to get my bottle of tequila I saw a bottle of Grants on the shelf. Its been a while since I have drunk it. My first time drinking it was with Natalie in high school. I chuckle at the flashback of what happened after Natalie and I drunk grants. 

"It wouldn't hurt drinking a bottle of grants without Natalie, its not like you promised her you'll never drink it without her." A wild thought crosses mind. "How much is a bottle of grants?" I ask the tender as soon as he showed up with my bottle of tequila."Grants is at K100, the same price for best and vodka." The tender replied still holding the bottle noticing my glance at the bottle of grants."Give me a bottle of grants, and amarula as well" I settled for grants and amarula as my sider, plus it is cheaper than tequila. 

"Grants over tequila? Seems like someone is heart broken." Some sexy lady says coming by my side."Hey, am Ashley." The lady took a seat next to me. "Am still dating, and am out." I reply getting my bottles as I leave. I already have enough on my plate, I can't start messing around with a stranger. 

....I get home checking the time on my phone, I see a text from Emmie."I've reached home safe, and am about to outsource the game code." She had sent me the text while I was still by the liquor store."Alright, do your thing. And what happened in my office was not intentional I was..." I replied to her text while the flashback of me kissing her keeps on playing in my head. "Alright boss." Emmie instantly replied to my text, she probably had her phone in her hands expecting my text.

I start drinking with amarula, then later on poured some grants into the bottle of amarula. I sip harder as my thoughts keep haunting me. "You should tell Meagan about it, am sure she will understand. She has been with you through thick and thin." After downing a cup of the amarula, grants mixture, my different personalities started talking out. "Get yourself together muhfucka, Meagan has been tripping lately. And telling her bout your failure will only make things worse. Let your side chick Emmie handle it. Besides she is already down for you. All you have to do is give her what she wants." My intuitive character strongly suggested I flirt with Emmie as she looks for coders to work on the game's source code."I miss my girl mahn, I don't care how she will react, am telling her the truth. Am tired of living like this." My fickle heart melted the more I thought about Meagan. I got my phone to call her while am still at it. "I know it is late, but this is important and I don't want to wait till tomorrow." My fickle heart insisted on calling Meagan.

...........

After calling her a couples of times and she was not picking up. Suspicions started raising in my head. I try to kill them with shots of grants, but instead it only made me sleepy.