She Still Wants You

Wait

Meagan POV

******* EARLIER WHEN I WOKE UP

I woke up next to Oscar. My mind goes upside down trying to figure out what happened I thought I went out with Jeff how did I find myself in Oscar's room. Guilty and anxious get the best of me, I asked Oscar if he knew Jeff.

"Who is Jeff?" Oscar asked looking puzzled and jealous.

"Am sorry baeb, it was a mistake I was drunk..." I woke up completing my apology from my dreams. The 5:30 AM alarm woke me up. Am sweating and heavily breathing, dead worried, what will I say to Oscar the day he'll know about Jeff.

.......

I take a shower after doing some workouts. It is been a while doing morning workouts so I was sweating a lot. Its been like 3 months ago when I last did my morning workouts. And now I feel so exhausted.

I look into the mirror as I am dressing up for the day. And a thought crosses my mind 'about six months ago Oscar used to be my mirror when dressing. And now I substituted him with a lifeless glass.'

I ignore the thought though still acknowledging the emotional hurt behind it. I miss Oscar I can't fight the truth that I was happier staying with him than alone.

I get to the kitchen to prepare some breakfast. I was still feeling the tension of my muscles from the workout. The thought of how intense the workout felt compels me to prepare a heavy nutritious meal. Hoping to make up for the calories that were burnt during the workout.

I am done eating my breakfast, it was just as power boosting as I wanted it to be. I leave the kitchen after washing the plates, I get to my living room planning what I'll do for the day.

Its 7 AM almost getting to 8, the sun has already started working its shift for today, while am still wondering bout my schedule for day. Should I stay home and retouch pics of my recent events?, or I go retouch the photos at the studio as I wait for clients that might pass by the studio for a quick photo session.

Kate calls while I was still debating with myself. And I was starting to love the idea of going to retouch the photos from the studio. At least at the studio I will have something to keep my mind busy so I can avoid thinking about my impairing relationships, and other personal issues that these familiar walls of my apartment might remind me of.

"Hey Kate!, how are you doing? what happened? I was calling you yesterday and you were not picking up, I had thought you lost your phone or maybe you were robbed." I pick up Kate's call nervous and excited to finally hear from her.

I was so worried about her, like why she was not picking up, and especially when her line went off, it made me a bit scared wondering what's happening to her.

"Hey baby girl, sorry I missed your calls. I had went clubbing with hubby last night, I was so lost in the moment I didn't even notice that my phone was ringing." Kate replied giving her explanation.

"And what were you saying that you going back to Oscar's crib?" Kae asked sounding a bit pissed and surprised.

"Oh yes, I was thinking of going back to stay with Oscar, I feel like this space thing isn't helping, we are just growing more and more apart. And....." Kate's question reminds me of my impairing relationship with Oscar, and I explain to her how I feel about what's going on.

And It was Kate's idea for me to get some space, all I just wanted was a way to tell Oscar that I would love to be engaged and married while am still young and beautiful. I know it doesn't really matter but, I don't want to look old in my wedding photos.

"Wait a bit baby girl, let's talk about it properly, you might end up wasting 6 months of your effort. And when you go back to Oscar's crib, trust me next time you wanna move out for some other reasons, it will be hard and close to impossible for Oscar to believe and understand those reasons. Wait we talk about it properly before you make any move." Kate's reply makes me think twice about it. She has a point, but again am tired of the complications. I just want my Oscar close, close to me like we used to be.

"How busy are you today? I come over so we can talk about it ." Kate asked.

Her question pulls me out of my pool of complaining thoughts, pulling me back to the call. I hesitate to reply thinking about my schedule for the day. Noticing my hesistation Kae insisted I stay home we talk about it. She compels me into changing my mind about going to the studio.

"Aah....., let me tell my assistants that am not going to the studio today." I replied after giving it some thought.

Agitating thoughts crowd my mind like paparazzi at a press conference. What will I do after talking to Kae? Cause to be honest am tired of making moves that I don't understand, and am not seeing any progress, what if this plan is just wrecking up my relationship? wild ideas keep nagging my frustrated mind.

The thought of how much this plot has made my relationship awkward makes me resolve to stay home and work from home as I wait for Kae, so we can properly discuss what I'll do next.

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"Morning baby girl, how are you doing?" I call my favorite assistant, Cindy. She is just easy to love. She is young beautiful, cool, hard working, disciplined and very reliable.

"Morning mum, am fine thanks, how are you doing?" She replied.

"Am fine baby girl, but I won't be able to come today, there are some family issues that I need to sort out. So as usual you'll be in charge of the studio. And if there will be clients that will insist to see me tell them am out of town and if its urgent you can give them my line." I give my instructions to Cindy making it official that am not going for work today.

"Alright mum, I'll do just that. Hope things will go well with the family, oh and greet daddy Oscar for me." Cindy replied sending her regards.

"Alright baby girl." I reply before hanging up the call.

I let out a sigh after ending the call with a smile. Guess everyone has that one person that looks up to them. Cindy is my favorite assistant and play daughter. She become my play daughter before even she started working for me. She was one of my first clients when I had launched the photo studio.

When she first started working with me, she would tell me that she likes the way I do things, that I inspire her. I used to think she would just say it to please me, then after some months of working together I realized the feeling is mutual. I enjoy teaching her photography, she is so passionate and determined. She has been propelling me to advance my skills. She reminds me of how I used to learn and look up to Natalie.

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"Mae Baby! are you there." After an hour close to two, Kate bursts into my apartment calling out.

"Am in the living room, there's nothing in the kitchen!" I shout back letting Kate know where I am, and trying to keep her from going into the kitchen.

Kate still goes to the kitchen ignoring my disclaimer. I hear the plates and leads being uncovered. Shortly she was in the living room drinking some juice.

"You didn't leave some food for me when you knew I was coming... wow! these are beautiful photos baby girl, I didn't know you could capture events this good." Kate was saying as I was heading to the kitchen. Seeing her sipping juice reminded me of how was feeling thirsty when editing the photos, so I went to get myself some a glass of juice. I can't be working thirsty in my apartment while my best friend is enjoying my cold juice.

"To be honest baby girl am impressed. For real, like I know you're good, buh this is great work. These photos look like a movie scene, everyone looks happy enjoying the moment. Meagan baby girl... am impressed!" Kate expressively compliments my work.

I was reviewing the exported photos in slideshow when Kate came in.

"Thanks Kate. And I also capture good videos as well, its just that you're often either drunk or away when am editing the videos." I reply as I come back from the kitchen, joshing Kate provoking her into seeing more of my work.

"Ohhkay seems like am left out,... let me check out the videos as well." Kate said taking a sip.

We start chatting as we browse through the event videos on my laptop.

An hour passes by and we didn't say anything about Oscar. We were just chatting while watching the event videos. Kate was always pausing the videos to laugh at the people that looked funny in the clips.

"Baby girl!..., you didn't mention that there is a video of our man at a wedding!" Kate calls out to me while I was in the kitchen preparing a quick meal.

It seems she had come across a clip of the Chisenga wedding, the same wedding where I ran into Mike. Kate nicknamed Mike as our man, saying he is the type of guys she likes.

"I thought I told you about the wedding where I ran into Mike." I responded going back to the living room with two plates of noodles and juice on a tray.

"Oh yea, that wedding, I remember it." Kate replied taking her plate.

"The funny part was that, I only realized that he was present there, when we were leaving." I said taking a seat.

"Mmm baby girl, what are you saying? Mike is easily noticeable in these clips. And besides he was the only cute one in the clip, then you failed to recognize him." Kate said refuting my statement.

"I only saw him when we were dismissed, I was focused on capturing the couple and my assistants were capturing other parts of the clip." I reply telling how it happened that I didn't recognize Mike during the wedding.

"Hey!, speaking about our men, what do I do about Oscar?" I ask out loud my thought, as talking about Mike made me think of Oscar.

"Oh yea, baby girl you need to wait a bit before you talk to him about moving back with him." Kate said turning to me.

"Aaaaw, I already texted him that we have to talk." I reply wondering what can be done to reverse the text.

"Did you tell him what it is about that you want to talk to him for" Kate asked looking a bit anxious to hear my response.

"Yes, but I didn't tell him that I want to move back with him." I reply feeling a bit dumb as I assume what Kate is probably thinking of my reply.

"Meagan baby girl, learn to be patient. Why didn't you tell me about it? You know you were supposed to tell me before making such a move... I always tell you baby girl, avoid being emotional, it will only jeopardize your game. Always remember love is a mind game." Kate gives a disappointed face as she replies.

"...., I was calling you, and you were not picking up, last night I was calling until your line stopped going through." I reply acknowledging that, sending that text to Oscar was a bad idea, but I also tried to reach out to Kate but she was out of reach.

"Its alright baby girl, don't worry we will figure out what to do... and has he replied to your text yet or maybe he left it on read?" Kate asked.

I pull out my phone to check if Oscar has seen my text. I had sent it to him through what's app. I pass Kate my phone, pissed after seeing that Oscar has left me on read, and yet he is online updating statuses.

"Baby girl, how often have you do see Oscar?" Kate asked after sending a text.

"Not so often, last time I saw Oscar was like three weeks ago. We went to go see a movie as we were catching up. Why you asking?" I curiously respond wondering what Kate is up to now.

"Baby girl, you need to start visiting Oscar more often and sometimes give him a round or two. Before he starts looking for someone else to stroke his ego on your behalf." Kate said putting my phone aside.

"You have to get close to him." Kate said insistingly, as I was reading the text she sent to Oscar.

~'Never mind, just wanted to see you.'~

"That's why I want to move back with him." I quickly reply trying to show Kate that am thinking of the same thing.

"Moving back with Oscar has an advantage of intimate closeness but it might also ruin the whole plan if you're not careful. That's why I am insisting you get close to him as you wait to make your move. In the meantime spend a lot of time with him, talk a lot about weddings and stories of couples getting married." Kate said pouring juice in her cup.

"So when will it be best for me to move back with him?" I asked wondering bout how long I'll have to do this getting close thing.

"I think observe when he starts showing interest in marriage, then that will be a good time to move but even just suggesting and showing interest in conversations about weddings will do. Just don't get too comfortable with him when you get back.... then again when you take too long wait, he might find a replacement." Kate said making me realize that its just her estimate not the absolute fact.

"Alright, I hope things won't go crazy like last time." I reply letting out a sign.

"Cheer up baby girl, don't be pessimistic. Things will turn out good... and you'll go back to your boring life of riding one stick." Kate said turning on the TV.

"Okay,... enough talk about your worries. Let's watch something fun." Kate said noticing my slightly frowning face. I am still thinking about Oscar.

.....

"This actress looks as if she is a beginner." Kate passed a comment from the blues.

"Oh I didn't notice. What makes you say that?" I reply to her comment snapping back to reality. I was lost in my thoughts wondering why Oscar left me read. Could it be he is starting to shift interest to another lady? Anxiety thoughts crowd my mind.

"I was reading about acting tips that make a scene more lively and cinematic. And she is missing it. Her scenes just feel blunt they're missing that vibing energy." Kate said like some movie director scrutinizing a movie that's yet to be released.

"Aay...! you started reading about acting, that's interesting." I express my surprise as I reply.

"Yea, I've been thinking about it lately, and I decided to give it a shot." Kate said, while still glued to the screen.

"That's great you will do great in acting. So when do you plan to start?" I asked.

"In the next few months, at the moment am still doing my research and learning. And am still looking for someones to connect me to movie directors." Kate said still glued to the screen.

"Awwr that's great big sis, wishing you all the best am so happy for you. I can't wait to see your movie scenes." I congratulate Kate imagining her scenes.

"Then Hubby was advising me that commercials are a good start." Kate's reply sounds awkward.

It is so unusual for Kate to take advice from a man. Seem like her bond with her mystery boy friend is deeper than I thought?

"Yea he is right, commercials are really a good start, they instantly put you on the spot light... I would love to meet your hubby. He seen." I add on to Kate's reply while thinking about Kate's mystery boy friend. Who is this guy who managed to have his way with Kate so intimate that she takes his advice.