Chapter 17
Cara
He just said that he loves me.
I am too exhausted from the s*x and the heat of the afternoon for my heart to pound; I lie there, supple, a wary and tentative happiness filling me. It isn’t much, but it was spontaneous and came out of his mouth just as I was wrestling with how to feel about him.
I have never had a boyfriend before. I was never supposed to have one in the first place. Straight from undated virginity to marriage, served up on a golden platter for someone, dumb and inexperienced as hell. That was what I was supposed to be. But now I’m something else again, and as I lie sated with his sleepy voice echoing in my ears, I wonder if I’ll ever trust him enough to try and make this last.
There’s something else knocking around in my head as I doze next to Jean: Hi
