Bloody Hands

Diamond Heart pt. 2

Everything was dark and I was unconscious. My eyes began to open, I saw sunlight. I woke up and saw myself lying in a wide meadow. I saw a big tree and my parents were there. They turned and looked at me, I got up and chased after them. I hugged them, my mother kissed me and my father stroked my hair. The smile I longed for, I can finally see it. Nothing beats the warmth of that smile, nothing.

"I miss you" I said.

"I know" my mom said.

"We are always with you" my daddy said.

"Nothing else will separate us. I will be with you, forever" I said.

"You can't" my mom said.

"Why?" I asked.

"Because this is not your place, it's not time for us to gather together" my daddy said.

"I don't understand" I said.

"Go back to your place. We will gather when the time comes" my mom said.

My mom and dad walked away. I called out to them, but my mother just smiled and then disappeared. I looked around and called out to them. I screamed, no answer.

I woke up, slowly opened my eyes. I was in a room. This isn't a hospital, I know that. I lay with the hand infused. Someone saved me, but who? I tried to get up and a woman came in.

"Lie down, you can't move much for now" she said.

"Who are you?" I asked.

"You can call me Ashley You've been unconscious for three days and during that time you've been in really bad shape. You're lucky to be safe"

"Where am I?"

"Don't worry, you'll be fine here"

"I wouldn't worry if I knew where I was"

"I can't tell you"

"Why?"

"Cause I can't, but they will tell you"

"Who?"

"Someone brought you here. He will tell you everything"

"Who?"

"He will come soon. If you need anything just call me and this door will be locked from the outside so you won't be able to get out. I'm always behind that door, so don't worry"

Ashley smiled and left the room. Someone brought me here and treated me. There's no way Kevin, he's the one who tried to kill me. Who brought me here? And where am I? I have lots of questions in my head.

The next day, I woke up Ashley opened the door and brought breakfast. After breakfast Ashley changed the bandage and then left.

I still don't understand, why am I here? How did someone find me in the middle of the forest? Of course it was possible, but under those circumstances I could have bled to death before being found.

I got out of bed and opened the window, it seemed I was in a plantation. Where am I? I sat on the bed and looked at my wound. Looks bad, really hurts. My stupidity put me in a situation I never expected. I knew it would turn out like this, but I didn't expect that the bullet would come from someone I didn't want to hurt.

For 2 days I was only in that room. Ashley delivered food and gave me medicine, my wound is not as bad as yesterday but still very painful. That night Ashley came to me and delivered dinner.

"Why can't I leave this room?" I asked.

"I'm just executing orders. After all someone is looking for you it would be better if you stayed here" she said.

"You know just sitting in this room is boring and I want to know someone who brought me here"

"I know, but I can't tell you. My job is just to look after you and make sure you get everything you need"

"I can't stay here, everyone must be looking for me"

"Someone's got over it, you calm down everything will be fine. All right, finish your dinner and take the medicine. I have to go"

"Okay"

Ashley left. After finishing dinner, I looked in the window, there was no one. The leaves swayed in the night breeze. It's 11 pm and I'm getting sleepy, I lie down and close my eyes, slowly I fall asleep.

The next morning, I showered and changed clothes. Ashley came and brought breakfast. She put the tray on the table while I was still in the bathroom. After taking a shower I finished breakfast.

I looked out the window, I wanted to get out and get some fresh air. But Ashley, she couldn't possibly let me out. For now I can only follow everything and hope everything will be fine.

Suddenly I heard someone unlock the door, I turned around. The door opened Ashley smiled at me and walked in, someone following her.

For a moment I couldn't say anything. I was speechless, shocked, and angry. Why is all this happening to me? Was that bad of a mistake I made that I had to end up like this. Now I wish I was dead.

"I didn't think you would do all this. Let me guess, you want me to die in agony and then you guys will celebrate that day as a day of victory" I said.

"No, that's not why I'm doing this" Kevin said.

"Really?"

Ashley came out of the room and closed the door.

"If you will listen to me, I will explain everything" Kevin said.

"How can I trust you? I saw, heard, and passed it all. No need to bother explaining everything, I already got it" I said.

"You only believe in what you want, no matter if it's true or not"

"So what I saw was a lie, what happened a few days ago was a lie, your fight with Ben was a lie, even your true nature is a lie. Only you know the truth"

"You should stop doing that, can you listen to me just once"

"Listen to you? I'm sick of listening to everything you say. How many more lies do I have to hear. You lie about who you are, its not a small thing. When someone can lie on such a big thing then they can easily lie with lesser rights. You broke my trust when I trusted you so much and I can't accept that, I can't"

"I will do anything to earn your trust"

"Get your s**t together"

He took a deep breath and looked at me.

"Okay" he said.

He turned and left. I'm angry, very angry. He acted like he was innocent, this was worse than being on the verge of death. I was in the house of the person who tried to kill me, I can't imagine a worse place in the world than that.

I can only sit and hope something happens, I can go. For now I can't do anything, this wound is so painful and I don't know where I am. I can run away and face whatever it is, but with this condition I'm not sure. I had to find another way to go, without expending much effort.

I imagined what would have happened if I had never done any of that. Maybe now I'm on campus sitting with my friends, we chat and laugh together. In the afternoon until the evening I will work somewhere. Then I will come home late at night and rest. On holidays I will work from morning. After graduation I would start working, find a partner, and grow old together.

But, all of that is just wishful thinking. Too late to move down that road. Now I have to face what I have chosen in the first place. The choice I made without thinking about the impact.

The door opened, Ashley came in and brought lunch. Ashley put down the tray and then sat down across from me.

"I don't know what happened, but it looks really bad. I understand you're angry and upset with him, but he's trying to save you" Ashley said.

"Save? You don't know what happened. He was the one who shot me, I imagine what if I died then. It will be better" I said.

"Have you ever asked why he did that? No, you don't even want to listen to it, how do you know"

"I know everything"

"There are some things you can't see or hear, but you can feel them. Think again, if he wanted to kill you why are you still alive now? Shouldn't you be dead already"

"Cause he wants revenge"

"No, cause he love you. He brought you here to save you from his father, he pretended to kill you to save you"

"You know I won't believe you right"

"You have to stop being stubborn"

"Why would you want to work for someone like him? I'm sure you can get a better job"

"You don't know anything"

"I know everything"

"You only see things from your point of view, you don't see from other points of view. You are stubborn and reject other truths, you only believe in what you want to believe"

"Really? You didn't see what happened, you thought he was telling the truth"

"I know the truth, I know something you don't and that's more than enough for me to believe it. Think about it, if he wants you dead why are you here? You should be in the middle of the forest and waiting for the angel of death. But look where you are now, you are here in good condition"

"Good? You said good. I'm dying, I have bullet holes in my body and I don't know where I am either"

"You have to calm down. You'll be fine, if you calm down. Don't do anything that will harm you"

"You should have told him that. I will not harm myself"

"He won't hurt you, he just wants to protect you"

"I won't be fine as long as I'm here"

"You'll be fine"

Ashley walked away. I opened the curtains and tried to open the window, but couldn't. He locked this window. If I get out by breaking the glass I only have less than 2 minutes to escape and that won't be enough. In the bathroom there is a vent, I can get through it but it's high, it's hard to reach.

I turned around and Kevin was behind me, I didn't hear him coming in. Now he is right in front of me and looking at me. As I looked into his eyes, I felt something I couldn't explain, but then I immediately remembered how he shot me and almost died. I turned around and sat on the couch.

"You haven't eaten" he said.

"I'm not hungry" I said.

Kevin took the tray and placed it on the table in front of me. He took the spoon and fed me.

"I'm not hungry" I said.

"You have to eat" he said.

"I will eat when I want"

"You will eat now"

"You can't force me"

"You want something?"

"No"

"Don't do this"

"Do what?"

"Don't be like this"

"You're the one who made me like this"

"I didn't mean it"

"Enough, enough, I don't want to be here, I don't even expect you to save me. I wish I died then, you ruined everything"

"I know. I ruined everything, I let you down and I'll try to make up for it"

"If I were you, I wouldn't try. How will anyone forgive all that, everything you did"

"I've arranged everything, I really didn't mean to kill you"

"Oh, really? So why you shout me with real bullet. I don't see the slightest guilt in your eyes when you do all that. You did well"

"I feel guilty, it's all haunting me. Watching you almost die, it tortures me"

"Really? Are you tormented? I didn't know you still have feelings. I though you were numb"

"I see, you're angry"

"Stop saying you understand. You don't have to say all that for me to forgive you because I can't. I can't, never, I hope you understand that"

"I am really, really sorry. Wish I could do better, but I don't know anything"

"Can we end all this? You know who I am and I know who you are. We don't have to do all this and we can go our separate ways, now"

"We have the same path, you and I, where we are on the same path"

"We were never on the same path and never will be, remember that. Even we weren't supposed to meet"

"No, we were meant to meet"

"We met by mistake and you know it"

"It's not a mistake"

"This is a mistake. We should never have ended up like this, we should never have met"

"I'll show you that this isn't a mistake"

I stood up and walked away from him.

"I wanna see you try" I said.

He was about to touch my face, but I caught his hand.

"Don't you dare" I said.

I let go of his hand.

"I will control everything, and until everything is under control I need you to trust me" he said.

"Haven't I trusted you before? You know what happened after that" I said.

"I didn't mean to lie"

"Really? You don't mean to kill me either?"

"You missunderstood"

"No, that's the truth"

"Sharon, I won't hurt you"

"Liar, you are liar"

"I've arranged everything to save you"

"Oh, really? I don't want to hear anything"

He grabbed my hand.

"Sharon!" he said.

"Let go of my hand" I said.

"I never want to kill you"

"Let go of my hand!"

"Listen to me"

I slapped him. I took my hand and walked away. Kevin pulled me in front of him and gripped my hands. He looks at me, I can see the anger in his eyes.

"If I wanted to kill you, you would be dead already" he said.

He let go of my hand and left. Who does he think he is, by saving me he thinks he can become a hero? I knew he had other plans that's why he saved me. Now I have to think of a way to get out of here.

Night fell, I looked out the window. There was no one out there, the leaves swaying in the wind. Where am I? How far do I go? Can I come back? I will run from all this, I will find a way to go.

Ashley came in and delivered dinner, she left after checking my wound.

The night is getting late, I will go tonight. I tried to climb up to look out the vent, no one was out there. I opened it and went up there. I could feel my wound as I tried to climb up to the vent. I jumped out, my wound was so sore. I crept forward, no one was there. I ran down the cold night street. Where am I? I'm sure it's past midnight, there's no one here. I walked long enough to see a car. The car stopped and someone got out, it was Kevin.

"Sharon?" he said.

I turned and ran, but he grabbed me.

"Let me go!" I said.

"You can't go" he said.

I punched him in the face and ran away. He got back in the car and stopped right in front of me. I try to fight but I can't stand the pain. He grabbed me.

"Sharon, stop" he said.

"Stay away" I said.

"Sharon"

"Stay away!"

"You can't go anywhere"

I run away, it hurts so much. I tried to run as fast as I could, but then a car stopped and Kevin came. Two men got out of the car and walked towards me. I turned and saw Kevin standing not far from me.

"You can't run" he said.

The two men pulled me into the car and we headed back to the house.

"Make sure no windows can open" Kevin said.

"You are monster! You can't keep me here! Whatever you do you won't be able to keep me here!" I said.

"I kept you here for your good" he said.

"The longer I'm here the sooner I die!"

"You will be fine, I promise you will be fine"

"f**k your lie"

He held my hand, I pushed him away.

"Don't you dare touch me!" I said.

"I understand you're angry, but please stay here" he said.

"I will not stay here! You can't kept me here!"

"Sharon"

"You think you can hold me? You will regret it!"

He grabbed my hand.

"Sharon" he said.

"Let me go!" I said.

"Sharon!"

He screamed and looked at me.

"You won't leave until everything is fine" he said.

I pushed him away.

He pulled me into the room.

"Let me go, please" I said.

"You won't leave here until I let you go" he said.

He went out and locked the door.

"Kevin! You can't kept me here! You can't!" I said.

I cried and sat down. I don't know how long I was there and I fell asleep. I woke up when I heard the sound of the door, Kevin came.

"Morning, I brought you a breakfast" he said.

He smiled at me and put the food down. He came closer to me and tried to touch my face, I blocked his hand.

"Keep your hands off me!" I said.

"I don't want to hurt you" he said.

"Shut your damn mouth!"

"You have to calm down"

"I don't need to calm down"

"Sharon"

He tried to touch my hand.

"Don't!" I said.

"Please, listen to me" he said.

"I don't need to listen to you, everything that comes out of your mouth is nothing more than bullshit"

"How will you understand the real situation if you keep shouting"

"I know the real situation"

"You don't know"

"I know everything, I see everything"

"There are some things you can't see"

"I can't see the difference between bullshit and truth in your words"

"Sharon"

"Sharon I'm telling the truth, Sharon I won't hurt you, bullshit! it's all bullshit! I won't trust you anymore!"

"You don't want to listen to me, you only believe in what you see, you don't care about other truths"

"I'd rather die than believe in your lies"

"If I want you to die you will surely die, but I don't want that"

He came out and slammed the door.

"You f*****g asshole can't hold me here!" I screamed.

He will pay for it, no one can do something like this to me, no one. Almost 12 o'clock, Ashley came and brought lunch.

"Why don't you eat your breakfast?" Ashely asked.

"Why you care?" I said.

"My job is to make sure you're okay and got everything you need"

"I need to die"

"You torture yourself, if you continue like this your condition will only get worse"

"I don't care"

"I understand you're angry, very angry. But don't be stubborn, you have to think about yourself, don't just think about your ego"

"Why do you care? What's the difference between me living and dying? Nothing, no difference. I'd rather die than like this"

"I heard you was trying hard to run, to stay alive when your life was in danger. Why now you wishing for death? Is it just because the one who saved you was the one who let you down?"

"Yeah, cause the one who saved me was the one who let me down, and not only that he also tried to kill me and he almost succeeded"

"Have you ever asked why he did all that? You never ask because you keep screaming and thinking you're right. You refuse to see from another point of view, you are selfish"

Suddenly Kevin came.

"Ashley. We should talk" Kevin said.

Ashley left. I sat and looked out the window, it was the only reminder that I was alive and all nightmares would end. All day I just stare out the window and wish I could run away from all this.

I can feel how time moves. In the afternoon, slowly the sun went down and night fell. I just sat looking out, there was no way out, there was nothing I could do. Kevin came.

"You don't eat anything all day. You want something?" Kevin asked.

I wanted to say go and mind your business, but that's impossible. He can stand in front of me whenever he wants and I can only accept that.

"Say something. I can't leave you like this, you'll get sick if you continue like this" he said.

Nothing will change even if I say something. I hate him and I wish I could get him out of my life. I should have thought before letting someone into my life and ruining everything.

"Well, if you don't want to talk I won't force you. But, please eat something. This is for yourself" he said.

Now, I really want to scream come out and don't bother me. But that won't really make him go away, I'm sure tomorrow he will see me again and act like nothing happened.

I felt numb, the only thing I could feel was the pain from the wounds on my body. When I realized my situation was going bad I should have stopped, but I didn't care about anything and ruined everything. Now I'm in the middle of nowhere with someone I don't want to see anymore. I stupidly hoped things could change and get better. I can't even call someone and ask for help. I have to fend for myself.

"Can you leave me alone?" I asked.

"Okay" he said.

He left. I wanted to break this glass and run outside but that was impossible. He would take me back and lock me in another room. For a moment I thought I could run and then I realized there was a limit to what I could do, a limit I couldn't cross. Even if I hit him or threatened to kill Ashley, he would still lock me up here. I'm outnumbered and I can't do anything now.

My mother used to tell me a story about a little girl who got lost. The girl was walking in the middle of the forest alone, she thought she was on the right path. The girl kept walking and without realizing she was getting deeper into the forest. The girl thought she would not survive, it was getting dark and strange voices appeared. The girl knew there were monsters in the middle of the forest and wild animals. As the sun went down the forest became even more terrifying. The girl screamed for help, but no one was there. She thought she would not be able to get out of the forest, the girl started crying. The night was getting late and the air was getting cold. Suddenly the girl saw a light from a distance, she got up and followed the light. It was the light from the lantern of a hunter who happened to be passing by. The girl screamed for help, but the hunter ignored her. The girl continued to run after the hunter until she was unconsciously out of the forest. The girl survived and never meet the hunter again.

It was getting late, I was very tired. I wanted to scream and cry in my mother's arms, and then she would kiss me and sleep beside me. She would hug me all night, I would feel nothing but the warmth of her hand and I would wake up in the morning staring at her smile that was brighter than the sun. In the morning he will say, nothing lasts long in the world everything will end. All the problems that exist will end and you will smile again. My mother would say that while stroking my head and then kissing my forehead. She would look into my eyes and smile warmly, and after that I know everything will be okay.