Picking up the pieces

Depression

I startled awake remembering everything that happened yesterday. How do you survive something like this and still be a fraction of the person you used to be. I can feel the pieces of my shattered heart crumbling. He chose sluttany over his own mate! I don't know his reasoning behind it but nothing could ever make up for this. He will never be forgiven. I need to try to move on. He is only here for a week and a half. I can't wait for him to g  ok back to his pack so I don't have to see him. Sitting up in bed I decide I can't hide in here forever I need to get on with my life. Do what I can to survive just avoid Dominic with every fiber of my being. I pick up my phone off my night stand while I slide out of bed. I see 4 unopened texts from the girls. 

Amanda: how are you?

Stacy: we love you and we are here if you wanna talk.

Amanda: are you going to tell your parents? 

Stacy: do you wanna go out today? Get some coffee and forget about last night for a while?

Omfg! I Hadn't even thought about telling my parents. They will be so angry and sad. My dad will go try to fight Dominic for my honor and I can't have that. For now, I will have to act like I never found my mate and hopefully, the gossip around town doesn't reach them. I need a shower to wake up and clear my head. I am going to get some coffee by myself. If I can avoid leaving as much as possible while Dominic is here I can cut down on my chances of seeing him. I really don't know how I will handle it. I don't wanna see them together. I get out of the shower and get dressed. I grab my phone and write a group text to the girls.

Me: I'm not telling my parents about this. I'm gonna need a little time to myself for a few days. Just lay low for a bit. I don't wanna see them. I will kill them both.

Stacy: ok. We love you and remember we are here if you need to talk.

Amanda: we will give you a few days. We are here for you and will help in any way possible.

Me: Thanks, guys! I love you so much! Sisters forever and I will text you later today.

Deciding it's time to go downstairs for breakfast I head down. My mom and dad are sitting at the table with plates and coffee. Mom made my favorite for me, A heart attack. For those of you who don't know it's a toasted bagel with cream cheese with an egg and cheese. Best breakfast ever. My mood is lifting if only by a tiny bit. "How was the game last night?" Dad asks.

"It was ok. Same as every other game. Spent more time talking to the girls than actually watching the game."

"Well, we are glad you had fun dear." My mom says with a happy smile. 

"Mom, Dad, I'm gonna go out for a little while. Call me if you need me for anything."

"Ok baby have fun and be safe." I hear from my dad as I make my way to my purse and keys.

I walk out the door and make my way to my 2016 grey Ford Fusion. I get in and fix my music like I always do. Maybe I will go for a run. It’s been a while since I have let Amara out to play.

‘ Amara do you want to go for a run? How are you feeling? I haven’t heard from you since the rejection but I didn’t want to push you. We both need our time the think.’

‘ yes, Anita  I really need to get out and stretch. Let go for a run it will be good for us. I’m feeling a little weak after everything that’s happened. I’m hurt! I can’t believe this has happened!’

‘ Amara I will go to our spot and we can run maybe rest a bit.’

I settle into the drive. It usually takes about 45 minutes to get to our favorite forest to run in.