Fractured hearts

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tara pov

Returning to my apartment I told Holden i'll be a little late as I was picking up and sorting some of my belonging out even though I know I could keep the apartment I still need to sort most of my s**t out but as I unlock the door and head into the back room I hear movement before I see it. I bend down slowly pulling my hidden g*n out from under the couch before moving my body around the room, there is no one stupid enough to break in but when I swing right I am frozen into place by the man standing in front of me, I never in my life think I would see him again. The stranger stands there looking at me, I take one look in his eyes and see the tears form before rolling down his cheek, I didn't think anything would caused this man fear but its written all over his face, the last time we met I had granted his a fresh start.

"Tara?" is his first words after I don't know how long it has been but it feels just like yesterday as I look into his eyes unable to say anything, the words are stuck in my mouth as I look at him. I am currently looking at a man who should be a dead man but as he stands in my apartment I wonder how he found me.

"Please, I had no where else to go. I need your help please, I am begging you" his voice breaks as he falls to his knees begging for my help but I have nothing left in me to help, I am retired but as I look at him, this is my own fault.

I drop my g*n running a hand though my hair, Cameron sits on the floor with his head in his hands, wiping his tears that have fallen, I always used to see grown men cry but when this man does it, something breaks inside of me. I shot Cameron when I was given the order but when I looked into his eyes I couldn't do it, instead my shot went wide and missed his heart by inches, I gave him a pill to make his heart slow enough for him to be pronounced dead and gave him a new life, when I was given him as a target by a client I looked into him and couldn't see anything, he was an innocent but I still pulled the trigger however I gave him a fresh start and now he's here. I promised myself I wouldn't kill a innocent and thats exactly what he was so I made the decision and now I stand here looking at that decision.

I f****d up that night as instead of ending his life I spared him and now its coming back and biting me in the a*s. When I look at him I didn't expect him to come back here and beg for my help after everything I did. He told me he forgave me and said he understood that someone wanted him dead, he was willing to die so I could say I did the job but I just couldn't. I couldn't pull the trigger instead I gave him a fresh start knowing he needed it.

"My wife she was taken and is seven months pregnant, I cant loose her please. If she's dead then I need you to kill me for real" I look at Cameron and I turn around for a second trying to take in all the information Cameron has told me. When I turn back around I see fresh tears running down Cameron face.

"I have been retired now for five years, i cant" I whisper but somehow cameron hears and looks at me like I am still the same person, he still sees me as a killer. Tears run down his face as he tries to come to terms with what I just whispered, I know he has no one else to go too as I took that away from me. I understand Cameron is hurting as its his pregnant wife its someone close to him, but as I look at him all I see is that this is my fault, if I killed him the first time I wouldn't have this problem right now.

"I am begging for your help, I wouldn't have come here but I have no where else to go. I got no one else but her she is my everything, she saw me and stayed with me. I cant loose her please" his voice is breaking as he begs me even more to help him, I grab a piece of paper taking a seat next to him. I may have lost my someone but I cant do this to him knowing I owe him everything, I did f**k up his life and now I have to fix it, maybe I can do it without blood shed.

Taking notes of everything that has happened and where she was last seen I grab some tissues for his tears, this man is different to the one who told me it was ok for me to kill him, he still looks the exact same but the light in his eyes as he speaks about his wife I know he loves her and I want to help him but I don't know if I can pull the trigger like I did five years ago. I was one of the ruthless knight clan but as I look at myself now I am just another person in the crowd. Cameron is not the only one who is different right now I am and I am afraid if I kill someone then I will slowly lose myself, I cant afford to lose myself right now.

"I need you to go under ground for me, I will find her but I cant promise what I will find, I have to do some research and see who's got her before I go in myself" I say making sure he understood the last word as I don't need him following me and getting himself hurt. He mentioned his wife is pregnant which means I need to be quick with this however something inside tells me they wouldn't touch his pregnant wife as its Cameron they want.

Looking out the window I take note of how light it still is and I need the cover of darkness to do the job, I hide better in the shadows. Grabbing a piece of paper I write down my number I use for jobs and I hand it over to him with a reassuring smile, I grab his shoulder slipping in a tracking device under his collar needing to know where he is at all times, I cant afford for this to go wrong with my own heath on the line.

"Text me if anything happens, ill get her back tonight. I need you to remain calm and trust me, ill be in touch" I say and when he does Cameron slips out the back door leaving me alone to think this though.

This is it, I can do this.