Fractured hearts

It’s okay

Holden pov

"its going to be ok" I whisper to tara as I see the look of horror written on her face and I don't think it's about us but more about a pass relationship if she wants to keep this private, I want her to open up and tell me whats on her mind but I know I cant fix something that had happened in the past but I can make her forget and make new memories. I had no issue with keeping this to ourselves as being a mafia king comes up with loads of enemies and when one of them find out I have a wife she will have a target on her head. I should have granted her a divorce and let her go her own way but even my enemies would go after her thinking she would know something so I came to the conclusion that she be safer by my side and eventually I will tell her everything but not right now. I don't need my little runner running.

I have told tara to pack a bag as I told her we are staying at my penthouse tonight and I expected her to fight me on it knowing we are already at her house but my penthouse is more safer and I need her in my arms. I have more security around my penthouse knowing no one is getting in unless I aloud it. However I have my selfish reason for wanting her to be at my penthouse really.

I didn't expect to f**k her as soon as walked in the house but f**k it was hot and I wasn't thinking, I don't think when it comes to her. Tara needs to be protected and if she gives me these six months I know we will both fall for each other, tara will be my weakness and I need her where I can protect her, I spent six months searching for her and now that I have her I intend on keeping her. The world isn't all buttercup and daisies, theres monsters roaming the night skies and I am one of then, I am the monster parents speak about to keep their children in line however being with tara makes me feel normal. I don't want to be tara monster, I want to make all her dreams come true, tara makes me want to be anything but ruthless with her.

"Lets go" I say to tara as we leave her building and climb into my bulletproof car needing the best if I am going to be driving myself without a back up, I know I see as I easy target when I am alone but thats far from the truth. Driving to my penthouse I steal glances at tara as she looks out the window, I don't know why I cant take my eyes off her as when the street lights land on tara faces she looks like a f*****g angel and she's mine.

Pulling into the underground garage I open tara door taking a hold of her hand as I lead her to the private elevator that takes us straight to the penthouse, you cant use the elevators unless you have a code and theres cameras that only let it work if it knows your face. The elevator is also on a different generator if the electricity goes as I needed to make sure there was no chance anyone getting onto my floor for the sake of my own safety. Tara has been quiet so far as we make our way up and I don't know how to take it, is it a good thing that she hasn't said a word, is she taking it all in. I know she will have questions about this all and I will promise her she will get all the answers she wants but in time, I want her to trust me before I tell her who I really am and what I really do. After all I am the devil.

Looking down at our connected hands I take note she hasn't let go yet so it must be a good sign, when the elevator opens I lead us into the penthouse and straight away tara lets go off my hand, I didn't realise how much I miss the contact but I do but my eyes never tara as she explores the penthouse, I love seeing that look on her face as I close the gap wrapping my hands around Tara as she looks out the window, I don't know why but I need to touch her every second. I give tara the tour showing her everything she might need as I know ill be asking her to move in with me soon as theres no way I will let my wife stay at her apartment on her own without safety.

"This is our bedroom" I say with a smirk knowing we be spending most of the time in this room, I have no issue f*****g on every surface of this place and I plan too take her everywhere if she let me. Tara licks her lips as she takes her coat off and strips down, I cant take my eyes off her as she climbs into bed and I do the same thing. I know Tara must be knackered after working then our little make out session at her apartment so I make tara comfy as theres more time to talk tomorrow.

Wrapping my arms around tara as she wiggles her body against mine like the night on the beach, I am overwhelmed to have this women in my arms that I don't want to let her go, tara wastes no time but falls asleep and I stay there watching her. Tara is beautiful as she sleeps that I could watch her sleep for hours. I try to close my eyes but a phone vibrates and I turn around to grab it but when I look at the phone it isn't mine

unknown: Tailor f****d my suit, I'll meet you at our home

I reread the message trying to figure if theres a hidden message but there not and theres no other messages, the number isn't even saved and I cant stop feeling like I am missing something, if tara had a boyfriend surely she would have mentioned it to me considering we are married and have been for six months. I place tara phone back down and try not to be jealous as tara has a past like I do but its clearly a male texting her if he's on about a suit. I am unable to sleep now as my mine runs around ideas off who could be texting her and the way he said 'our home' could it be family. f**k I am frustrated as I lay there needing to be a background check on her to make sure theres no psycho ex I need to know about.