Fractured hearts

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tara pov

Feeling secure for the first time in five years I turn over and gets smacked in the face by holden chest, I feel his chest move slowly up and down and I know he's laughing at me as I wiggle around trying to get comfy one more time. Grabbing my phone from the bedside table I have a look at the time when I see a message from my brothers, I look at the time once again before replying

me: There in two hours

I reply making sure the message started with a 'T' for our name, our family has always started a conversation with that letter as we are overprotective with each other more so with me as my brothers want to protect me from everything but its also code to make sure we are all ok, we have coded words for everything and the boys asking me to meet them must mean its time for our monthly catch up where they check on me and I listen to them talk about there month, making sure everyone is on the same page about whats happening incase anything happens. I love my brothers but being the only girl sucks as I am odd numbers but at least my twin can be on my side eight out of ten times.

"I'm going for a shower if you would like to join me" I say stripping out the clothing I slept in and walking to the bathroom not needing to look back to know holden is right on my heels as I turn the shower head on. This may be new and we don't know each other very well but its nice to have a little company every now and again plus the s*x is hot and the s****l chemistry is there.

Letting the water run down my body I see the way holden watches knowing he cant take his eyes off me as I run the soap over my body, I see the way his eyes are closely watching every movement wishing he was the soap in the moment and when I grab the shower head his eyes brighten just a little that I bite my lower lip. Moving the shower head lower down my body teasing him slower I watch his movement hoping he do something and when I get closer holden pins me against the shower wall with my hands, I see the look in his eyes

"No one makes you c*m but me. Not that shower head and especially not by your own fingers, you want a release you come to me" he says and before I have a chance to say anything holden teases my folds before slamming two fingers in me hard causing me to scream in pleasure, I ride his fingers as he kisses my mouth, I let out a moan and when my mouth opens holden slips his tongue in my mouth taking the breath straight out of me.

"Holden what the f**k" I say as suddenly as holden stops what he's doing with a smirk just as I was about to c*m but the smirk on his face says everything as he looks at me l*****g the two fingers that was just in me. I know exactly what he was doing making a statement telling me who's in charge and if I wasn't so pent up with frustration I would think its hot but I am just annoyed

"What do you want baby" he says placing open kisses down my neck with one of his hands manhandling my boob giving me pain with the pleasure, I throw my head back with the words suck in my throat, I am enjoying everything he is giving me right now that I don't want it to stop.

"I need.... I need your tongue in-between my thighs as I c*m all over that pretty face" I say panting knowing I am getting closer and if he wont give it me right now I will take it myself. Holden looks at me with a smirk before he starts slowly kissing down my body, he loves my dirty mouth just as much as I love his mouth, this man knows just the words to use and when to use them.

When holden gets between my thighs I wrap a leg around his shoulder and before he says anything holden spreads my folds and his tongue darts towards my c**t sucking like his life depends on it and I take a hold of his hair pushing his face closer. I am so closer when I feel one of his fingers graze my back hole, I am stuck in two minds wanting him too and not, I open my mouth wanting him to take everything I am offering, he has already teased their once and I need to be full of him, I want him in every hole, on every surface.

"Do it" I beg and when the words leave my mouth holden pushes a finger into my a*s pushing slowly inwards as I let out a moan, I am panting so hard as holden moves his tongue and fingers at the same time. I feel it coming, I know its going to be more intense as holden works faster that my hand tightens in his hair, I cant hold on no more as I scream.

"Fuck.. Fuck.." I scream feeling everything as holden slowly pulls himself up with a grin on his face, I kiss his lip tasting myself on them before washing myself, holden stays behind me helping washing me once again before we both climb out. I quickly dry myself before getting ready knowing I cant be late. I have an appointment with my brothers and I know if I am even a single second late that they come and find me.

"I have to run out for a hour, when we are back we will talk" I say to holden giving him a quick kiss before leaving. I take the private elevator down to the under ground garage I know holden bought my car here, he has thought about everything and I know there is something he isn't telling me like there is something I am not telling him. We may be married but trust is something I cant give willingly.

Driving past my street I know my brothers have loop the footage making sure no one can track my location on the street cameras and my phone has been off since I left. I make sure no one can track my location before I pull up to greet my brothers. We talk all the time but its the first time in a month I am seeing them and Tye my twin is the first to wrap his arms around me, followed by Theo who is our hacker, I spot our oldest brother Trent standing there with a smile, he's only older by three years and he makes sure we all know he's the oldest. Trent eventually gives me a hug before running his hand thought my hair like he did when I was a kid, i'll always be his baby sister in his eyes and I am fine with that. I love each brother and I have a different connection with each of them as Tye my twin is my best friend, I would tell him things I wouldn't tell my older brother.

"Anyone got any trouble before we catch up?" Trent ask throwing glances at everyone and I know I don't, for five years I have been retired and no one knows I exist. Everyone thinks I died and I have no issue with that as I have no plans to return, I promised someone and it still unbreakable to this day.

"Good, then let's start with tara. How have you been?" I smirk at Trent as he always starts with me for some reason and I wish he start with anyone else as everyone pulls every little information apart and try to read in-between the lines to something that isn't there.

"This month has been good, I work and then go home. It's been the same for five years now, I have come to terms with my life" I joke rolling my eyes as nothing has been happening to me in five years and every time we meet up to catch up I have the same sentence and its probably why they pick on me first as I am quick to catch up. Unlike my twin Tye who is jack of all trades and isn't afraid to get his hands different, no one messes with us as we are the four ruthless knights, Trent is the worse as he kills without remorse.

Catching up with my brothers I give them all a kiss on the cheek and a hug before leaving, Theo has hacked all the streets cameras again making it look like I just nipped for a drive, I love Theo and he's talented but there is nothing you can hide from him. Once I arrive to my house I pull up quickly turning my phone back on before driving to the penthouse, I know my husband will be waiting for me as I said ill only be gone a hour, we still have a lot to talk about like our living arrangement and I don't know, I like my apartment and my independence. The drive to holden place doesn't take long and as I ride the lift to his apartment I wait for the door to open and when they do, I am greeted by holden.

"Move in with me" Holden says as soon as I open the door and I drop my bag on the floor looking at him, I cant even tell him we are rushing into things considering we are already married too each other. I want to tell him yes but my apartment is my everything, my getaway and sometimes I just need a second too myself like anyone else. I need something that is just mine. I look holden in the eyes unsure how to answer this as I don't want to hurt his feeling but I need my space, I still have so much in my past that he cant know yet.

"Before you answer you can keep your apartment and your independence. You said you give us six months and I need every second of these six months" I look at him biting my lip, I make him wait for an answer a little longer knowing he's still giving me what I want. If I move in then my brother would find it weird, I wouldn't put it past Theo to hack my phone every now and again but I could just tell them a girl has needs right.

"Sure" I tell him and he crashes his mouth on mine, when we pull apart I give him a shy smile not sure that us being together all the time could work in his advantage as I am still currently hiding secrets. However holden doesn't press on anything else as he goes back to his laptop on the coffee table leaving me standing there overthinking this.

Could we be rushing?