Fractured hearts

brotherly love

tara pov

I stand alone with nothing but my beating heart, I know my heart rate is high right now as I try to calm it down but I am unable to think about anything as I look at my hands, my hands are covered in crimson blood, I fall to my needs finally coming to terms with what I just did, I didn't just break the promise but I shattered it, broke it too a million pieces and let it fall. I don't know how I can come back from this as I look up to the sky the dark clouds finally break and I am left on my knees letting the rain soak me, I should welcome this and I do knowing this is no one fault but my own. I broke the only promise holding me together.

me: Ten men. Ten men added to my total, please I need you

I send the message to all my brothers knowing they be able to hack my device and find my location without a problem, I know Theo is really smart so finding me wont be as hard as he tells me it is. Placing my phone back in my pocket I stay on the ground looking at my hands knowing this is the end of everything. I destroyed everything. Blake was my lifeline and he bought me back down to earth and now I sit here I know theres no one else to bring me back into the light. When I look up I see two pairs of headlights coming my way, and I don't have to move to know they are my brothers as they come racing towards me, the first car door opens and I see Tye out his car racing towards me, he wastes no time in wrapping his arms around me, my twin.

"I-i- I broke m-my prom....promise. I need h-him to for-give"I manage to say tears running down my checks as Tye keeps his arms wrapped around me every so tightly not wanting to let me go. My brothers was there that night I lost Blake as I called them and they all knew the promise I made before he was taken away from me, they also knew how much Blake meant to me so they have a clear understanding off how much this is eating me up right now. Blake was everything to me and that promise was the only thing I had left to remind me off him but that i have shattered that, I don't know what I have left but a broke promise.

I look up to see Trent coming out the building arranging clean up for what I just did and when he comes into light I see the look he is giving Theo right now, I killed ten men and as much as they was clear shots some of them got a little handsy. I am being pulled up on my feet by Tye and we end up walking to his car, he places me in the passenger seat shutting the door leaving me alone as he walks up to Trent and Theo. They think I cant hear them but I can

"Ten kills. I have arranged clean up and this will be sorted" Trent says to Theo and Tye who are nodding, Tye looks back at me for a second as his eyes connect with me, I can see the pain in his own eyes. We have always had a close connection for twins so he's hurting for me.

"We should have never let her do this, this is killing her and you both know it" Tye shouts pointing a finger at each of them before running his hand though his hair however I would have done this regardless as it was mine to clean up. its sorted now but Tye is right, this is killing me

"I know it, however tara would have never accept our help. All tara emotions are coming out now and she needs us so Tye drive her home and myself and Theo will be right behind you once we sorted this out. We need every camera of this" I hear Trent says, Trent keeps us all in control as the oldest and he knows it as he looks at Tye who holds his hands up and walks back over towards his car.

Tye has climbed in the drivers seat even though he hasn't said a word I know he wants too but he wont till we get to my apartment, I am still covered in blood and while they want to tell me everything is going to be ok, I know it wont. I broke tonight and the three of them know it however they wont know the damage of tonight till I have slept and come to terms with what just happened. Arriving to my apartment I walk into the living room looking around before heading for a shower needing to get this blood of me.

Standing under the shower head I look down and see all the blood thats coming off me, I don't have any marks on me but the emotion pain is enough for me to fall to the floor holding my knees towards my chest. The tears keep running down my cheek as I recall the exact moment I pulled the first trigger and the moment the body dropped, I just hope Blake wasn't watching as I killed those ten men for that one women and her baby. I even remember the look of pure horror when my g*n was pointed towards the way of the women and when I refused to put my g*n down, the women closed her eyes like that was the moment she was going to die. I knew in me that the man wouldn't have killed the women and the unborn child, Blake would have never forgiven me if that women have died.

Climbing out the shower I quickly dry myself before throwing a over sized t-shirt on and shorts, when the door to the bathroom opens Trent Tye and Theo are all standing there watching me, waiting for me. I look at all of them dead in the eyes, I am the youngest so they take it to heart when they see me hurt like I am right now. None of them liked it when I first bought Blake home as they didn't want me to date a innocent and as I look into Trent eyes I know he saw this happening, he doesn't want to say anything about it but I can see it written all over his face.

"We know you had no other choice and Blake will forgive you for this as he cared for you deeply that he turned a blind eye to your killing, Blake may have made you promise no more and you kept that promise with everything. Cameron coming back and asking for help no one could have seen that coming however Blake also knew about him and he would have wanted you to save him, he wanted you to save as many innocent as you could and you did that tonight. Blake will understand Tara and he will forgive you, we understand and we love you" Trent says bringing me into a hug, I whisper those three words into his ear before turning around and taking a seat on the sofa, Theo wraps a blanket around my body before taking a seat next to me like the rest of the two.

They understand but doesn't mean I do.