2 weeks later *Maddie* Today is the day or one of the days really, cause there are many of those in one's life.But we are back,in London and we are going to get a scan at a private clinic to find out the gender of our baby, and to make sure everything is still okay. We are both really excited, but also nervous, I mean you just can’t help being after what happened last time. I am trying not to show my worry though, knowing it would just make it worse on Colin. Honestly we mostly want to know the gender so we can start getting the nursery ready. I can't wait to go get all the cute and pretty things he or she needs and maybe even more to get those that we don't need. Colin comes home to pick me up and he holds the car door to me. "I guess I need to think about getting a more sensible car

