*Maddie*
I thought I understood pain and had a good grasp on my reaction to it. I always have. Emotional and physical, I have just learned to deal along the way.
But this pain, this is new. It is far more pain than I have ever felt. Worse than the broken bones I have suffered through my life, more than the things I have seen in Africa, more than the abortion and loosing our little girl.
Screaming, screaming seems all I can do. I feel like I have screamed until my throat is raw. I have screamed at Colin, at my brother when he dared to poke his head in, at the doctors, at Colin again and at myself. I even think I have screamed at the baby once. To get the hell out of me.
Yup, I am in labour and right now Colin and the doctors seem terrified. This is not going really well … I started
