*Colin*
I am rolled up on the pull out couch in the living room. Maddie hadn't exactly kicked me out of the bedroom, but she wanted space and I am going to do my best to give her that.
Wrapping my arms around myself I am fighting the tears. How could I be so dumb ? I actually thought I had done everything right this time. But I had still treated her like a kid I needed to care for, not my equal, I see that now. Actually I don't get why she hasn't left me earlier. She must really love me.
The thought that she might leave me makes it impossible for me to keep in the tears. I know I screwed up. I should have ended it a long time ago... hell I should never have started it. I might have ruined her marriage and my own even before the wedding. And Bren probably wants to knock my teeth out.
