The Devil and I

Chapter Ten

Hello, my lovely little readers, I'm sorry for being gone for so long. I was actually going to have an update a lot sooner but work kind of got in the way. To those of you who still read my stories and have waited so long for an update, thank you for not giving up on me. I will tell you this, even though I might not update for awhile it does not mean that I have given up on my stories, I will finish them it just might take a little longer than I would like to do so. Once again thank you to those who have stayed with my stories.

This chapter is dedicated to all of my precious readers who have been waiting for some kind of update from me.

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Sol's P.O.V

Time seems to have flown past so quickly. Time has flown so quickly that before I knew it two months have already past me by. Xenophanes has called for my services a few time already these past two months that I have been here, but other than that I have been tucked away in this tiny little room. The only thing in this room is a thin, small bed, and a tiny little bathroom that has only a toilet and a sink.

Every day I wonder how my precious little Siren is doing. I also wonder if Lilith will come and save us from this horrible place and if she can't save us both then I hope that she will be able to save my Siren. I hope that she gets here soon because I fear that if she doesn't I will end up dying in this wretched place. I don't want to take my last breath in this room or when Xenophanes decides that he's tired of using me.

I don't want that, I want to be free of him, I want to be able to live freely and peacefully with my precious Siren. I think about my past with Xenophanes and in truth, I can't even remember why I fell in love with such a horrible monster such as him. Another thing that I don't understand is why does he need me when he has that evil little b***h Callien to satisfy all of his needs. I don't want him anymore, I was happy with the life that I had when I left him. I just can't understand why he has dragged me back here. I don't want to be here, I left and gave up on him so that I could move on with my life and be happy. I want to be able to be happy and not have to worry about some monster wanting to hurt me just for the fun of it.

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Here lately I've been thinking of ending my life. I've been thinking about it quite a lot. I think about how amazing it would be to just end my life and escape from this nightmare. I think of doing it several times a day, however, there is only one reason that keeps me from ending it all. The only reason why I don't end it is because I can't stand the thought of what would happen to my precious boy. The only reason why I'm still breathing right now is that I don't want anything to happen to my little boy.

I let out a small sigh as I hope that, that monster won't use me tonight. Every time he decides to use me he always makes sure that it hurts. Sometimes when he uses me it seems like he is punishing me for something, however, most of the time he is cruel just for the sake of being cruel. I can also tell that he enjoys seeing me in pain with the way his eyes light up in amusement everytime I let out a muffled moan or scream of pain. Sometimes when he uses me I go deep into my mind and imagine having the old Xenophanes back before that evil b***h Callien showed up and ruined everything.

I think that the only good thing that Callien has done by showing up, is letting me see Xenophanes true colors. I was able to learn who the real Xenophanes was and that he had never loved me at all. I learned that I was just some stupid little toy that he picked up to use to pass the time. I meant absolutely nothing to him at all, every single kind gesture of his was nothing but a ruse to get me to trust him, to love him. He wanted me to love him, to completely trust him, so that it would be even more enjoyable for him when he decided to destroy me.

I don't understand how anyone could possibly find enjoyment from causing someone so much pain. If he really wanted to hurt someone, why did he have to pick me? Is really so much fun to fix a person, to build them up, to make them feel so loved and then watch them crumble apart in pain because of you? Is it really that much fun to destroy someone like that?

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The door to my room slammed open and in walked one of the guards that stay outside of my room. "The master wishes to see you in his chambers. You have exactly five minutes to clean yourself up before we leave" the guard growled out before striding out of the room and slamming the door shut behind him. The guards are stationed outside of my room to make sure that I don't try to escape, they are also there to make sure that I follow the rules that that bastard had given me. I'm not allowed out of this room unless he has summoned me and I have guards with me, I'm not allowed to speak to anyone unless it's to him and even then it's only when he tells me to speak, I'm not allowed to look at anyone other than him, my eyes must always stay on the floor in the presence of other people, and last but not least I'm not allowed to eat anything unless he hands it to me himself. I hate these rules, especially the first and last one. The first rule means that I can't wander around and look for Siren, and I hate the last one because I don't get fed very much which means I don't have the strength to look for my little Siren

I also hate the fact that if I break any of the rules then my sweet little boy suffers for it. I can't, I won't let that happen. I follow the rules just like that monster wants so that my boy doesn't get hurt, though everytime that I do I die a little inside. I'm trying to stay strong for my boy, I'm trying so hard, but my mind keeps going to dark places. The more time that passes the more I feel my will to stay strong for Siren weaken. I'm so tired of staying strong, right now I just want to close my eyes and never open them again. I just want everything to end, I just want it all to end.

Letting out another sigh I get up from my bed and head to the sink. I turn the water on and begin to quickly scrub myself with warm water before the guard comes back in. As I scrub myself I try to mentally prepare for the pain that I will go through once I get to Xenophanes room. It's going to be a long painful night, and once again I think of ending it so that I don't have to feel this pain anymore.