Bad choices make Good stories...

CHAPTER 6: NOT AS INNOCENT

Working in a pool office is never easy, there are good days and bad days but the most annoying thing about a pool office is lack of privacy. "Sir", calling my manager, " i failed to adjust the costs of this line and it was captured wrongly", trying to hide my disappointment. He took some time looking at the document and looking at me, " Well do not worry Gibby, this is an honest mistake, you are innocent", he says with a laugh, "don't worry it can be fixed".

I walk back to my seat with a smile, relieved.

"Innocent", Chad laughs, "The innocent ones are never innocent, Theo my man, tell them", he snorts again. Theo joins in laughing," You will be shocked, you take baby girl home thinking that you'll be the teacher only to find out that you are in for a big lesson.

I surely hate conversations like this one, because its like they see through me. This is me innocent looking and having an overwhelming burden of sh*t to hide.

"like this one, i tell you my man faces like this one are bad news", says Chad looking at me. It is true but I'll hold on to my little thread of pride and defend myself. "You really failed to mind your own business, huh, you caught the conversation" i say whilst focusing on my work.

"Well, sometimes what you see is what is really there", feel their gazes on me, as i am looking at my computer.

"Ohh really, so tell us about yourself, what are you hiding underneath those puppy eyes and angelic smile", Chad fully turns his body and looks at me. Theo also shifts his attention to me. Cornered i respond, "there is nothing to tell, nothing that concerns you", i look at them.

"Holding back on information is always a bad sign, red flag yhooo!"

Chad is so dramatic, i had to laugh at this one too.

"As for me, i tell you im not innocent, i opened up, your turn Chad", says Theo. "Same as i, im not innocent", Chad follows, both turn to me. "Honestly, you did not have to go out of your way to say that, both of you. Please leave me alone, unlike some people i have work to do", i ended there.

So how do you tell people that you ruined your life so badly and you regret it more than they can imagine. I would rather keep the innocent act up. Especially now that im feeling more drawn to Theo as each day goes by, i cant let him know. I should not, right, because I am not as innocent.

Lost in my train of thought scanning the room i come across an intent gaze, Theo's gaze. "Come here, i want to show you how some of this is done". I go to the other side of the desk, sitting next to him i notice that he is not working at all. "Tell me about yourself, i really want to know, you look like you have a good story to tell. I will start, everyone in this office things that i am a womanizer",

"Which is true, right", i interrupt,

"No, do you think so. Tell me honestly do you think that i am a womanizer?" he looks at me smiling. "Yes, definitely the way you talk, if someone doesn't know you well they will be convinced that you are flirting with them",

"Haha, hell no", he holds in his laughter, " so did you feel that way when i started talking to you", he says maintaining eye contact in a low, husky, soothing voice. Flirty. "You see, this is exactly what I mean, the tone in your speech. You make it seem like you are into a person. You do that with the girl next door as well. You look at her, straight in the eyes and you start talking so sweetly. Even if you are uttering absolute nonsense, the person you will be talking to will be compelled to listen and may not even take offense from your insults". Theo could not help it but chuckle. "Ahh, Gibby, you really got me rolling on the floor. Do you really think that i am all that, is that how i make you feel?"

I cannot answer this question rushly, i have to provide safe answers. Honestly, hell yeah, that how I feel when he is talking to me and when he is talking to some other chick i really wish that it could be me because damn this man got lines, vibes and i would be crazy not to get the jibbies, butterflies mmmmmn YES.

"No, but i can see it when another girl is impressed or allured by you. Remember i sit in front of you, i know your moves and i know you and the girl in the next office have a thing going on", i cover my back with solid, believable lies.

"What, you think we have a thing, why?"

"Well, the way you look at each other, the way you talk to each other and she is girl anyone would want to be with", i respond.

Fairly she is a girl one can die for, she has a perfect African natural body. African me would love that Mercedes behind and Theo is an African man who has the opportunity to snatch this beautiful lady so, my loss.

"Child, do you think i give her vibes, like, do i seem as if i am interested in her", i couldn't even wait for him to finish, "Yes", i interject, "absolutely, why would you flirt like that if you do not like her? And people in here really hype you guys, Theo and Mels this, heeee, that"

"Listen, i am not into her, okay its just that we are in a pool office and people cannot mind their own business. They make it seem like there is something going on but do not be fooled, lol", Theo says, it kind of feels like assurance and i really hope my face is not giving off the joy that is brewing inside of me as im hearing these marvelous words.

"Okay", Theo fair enough.

"Eish, Gibbs let's go and get some lunch," he says standing up, "and you will be telling me about the atrocities you have committed. Though i think that the worst you may have done is kiss a boy", he walks out.

I walk up to him in the corridor, " Well if you really want to know, where should I start. Okay, i was r***d and no one believes me and..", he chuckles, " why are you laughing you think im lying?" offended i ask him. The second time that i got pregnant, he r***d me, literally hit me and forced himself into me and i forgave him afterwards (foolish me) anyway i wasn't lying.

He looks at me" that's what they all say, what you all say, to hide your shame", he snorts. I ran out of the energy to convince people that it actually happened so i just went on with my story. "Okay, in summary the worst that i have done is having a body count of five, aborting twice, forgiving the mother effers and repeating the same mistakes", i look at him and he is staring at me. "You are saying that as if you are telling a bed time story, ha ha, you really thought i would believe that", he say opening the door to the cafeteria. I see he doesn't believe it, but believe it or not nigga it is what it is and i am not as innocent as i seem.