His sunshine baby

Strange feelings.

Sansa's pov,

I felt my heart pound in my chest as I was led towards the study by my husband who was holding my hand.

"come sit" he said as he sat me on the chair in front of his desk and sat in the opposite one himself.

I glanced at him nervously, their was nothing out of place here at least.

He looked at me with a strange expression and sighed loudly.

"I know you're not in your head space"

"..."

I kept quite, what could I say.

"I'm going to tell you something important now.. are you listening carefully sansa? " he said his expression serious.

"yes daddy"

"good"

He was quite for sometime and looked at the wall.

"from today this study will be a place for penance for you, I will punish you here, alot of the times with your nanny in presence, I will be given a report about your day and if you have disobeyed then you will take the punishment I give out here"

He said softly but firmly.

I felt my heart miss a beat.

"I know you're scared but listen to me first, I love you. Even though a lot has happened but still. I will not be cruel to you even at the time of punishments I may be very strict while your discipline but believe that I love you and you are precious to me"

He said and I felt my eyes fill with tears.

"sometimes I will s***k you as warning if something new is happening and I think you will act up. sometimes you may get a maintenance discipline session but that will never happen except on a Sunday and that too if I think you need it. I will be using different implements now some you have not experienced but I'm giving you a safe word, only use it if you absolutely cannot handle what I'm doing, if I think you could. Believe me you'd wish you didn't use it"

I just cried silently.

"don't cry sansa please"

I tried to stop and took the glass of water he gave me.

"you have a way to stop this"

I looked at him surprisingly.

"yes, if you think you are ready ask me to punish you for what you did and every thing may not go back to normal but you will get back some of the previous previlages"

I smiled so hard that he also returned it with a small smile.

As I opened my mouth to speak he stopped me by saying

"you should know that that punishment will not be easy and I will make it count and you cannot just say it at anytime okay, you can only say it while I call you on every Sunday to my study, I will use a whip on you for that session among other things so be careful. Otherwise let me go at my pace although this might look hard but slowly I will stop being as strict and you will get a lot back but slowly. Period. "

I felt chest fallen but decided to not think about this new information till I was in my bed tonight.

" I'm still thinking and making new rules, don't worry I'll be sure to include sometime for you as yourself but let me be clear I am not ready for you to be big yet so you shall not be. I will force the issue if I have too wife."

He said this line with a kind smile contrary to his words

I nodded when he looked at me expectantly.

" don't worry about your nanny, she is a kind woman. Remember she has the instructions to be strict. You can tell me if she does something she shouldn't but remember if I think she is right you will be disciplined.

We will go back to normal sansa after sometime, let this time be a lesson to you and to me. Maybe we might even discover new things that work for us"

I looked at him feeling strange feelings, what do I tell you my love, I'm sorry but I'm scared to take you on your offer.

I felt tears fill my eyes again.

"the last thing for today is that I have to give to a warning s******g now because you will need it after all that I told you. Calm down and bend over the table when you're ready. You will take my belt on your bottom today."

"AND your safe word is red." he said

I kept sitting silently and stopped crying but even after 15 minutes he did not push me to do as he had said and we just sat looking at each other and feelings of security was what I felt, I knew he would give me a belting if he said he would but still I could not make my heart hate him.

He was and is still my husband who I love more than anything.