Mapa

Meet Theon

The next day

I have an appointment for something now. Job interview. I wear casual attire. My parents didn't know that I'm applying for jobs. I'm on my way to the place where my interview will be held. I'm nervous right now. The hardest thing is that I commute by myself. I'm not the type of person who is open to other people. I will choose to be alone rather than have at least eye contact with them. Maybe because of my social anxiety.

I go straight forward to the office. Inhale exhale. I know I can do it. I believe in myself.

"Hi, are you Lourdes Shamira?" the manager asked.

"Yes"

"Okay, come in"

I put my papers on her desk.

"Oh you graduated this year. Based on your paper your father was a tricycle driver for 5 years. Your mother was a housewife. The fact that they can have a professional job during their age but still choose to have a difficult one. Those jobs who can help them to improve themselves. Those jobs with high salaries. So that they can afford your wants and needs. Do their responsibility as a parent"

"Are you saying my parents choose the wrong job? Being a tricycle driver is a professional job for me. They do their part as a parent so shut up. My mother became a housewife because she wants to take care of us. Look at me now, I will not be like this if my parents gave up on their past jobs. They can afford our wants and needs. They don't need a high salary just to be called a hard working person. Sorry, but I don't respect people who disrespect my parents. Now I know why you have a few workers"

I snatched my papers. I don't care if I also pulled her hand. I want to slap her hard but I remembered my parents told me not to hurt animals. I ignored anyone and walked straight. I don't belong here. When I exit the building I feel like I'm at peace. I'm gonna eat first since I don't have any idea where I can apply.

While walking I saw someone who wore the same shoes as me. I started to follow him. He's going to my favorite restaurant. I'm gonna eat here also. He's in front of me ordering his food. I saw people staring at us. They might think that we're a couple. Once he's done he starts to find a place where he can eat. I ordered my food then followed him. I'm acting like a stalker here. I saw him sitting on a table with 2 chairs. I asked him if I could sit in front of him. He says yes. I sat in front of him. He's handsome. He's busy doing social media I think. He doesn't know that we're wearing the same shoes.

"They are staring at us" he said

"You know why?"

"Why?"

"We're wearing the same shoes, mr stranger"

He checked our shoes under the table. I'm staring at him. What a cute reaction. He's smile is the cutest! The waiter brought our food .We started talking. It's like a date but with a stranger. He doesn't believe that Lourdes is my first name. He said it's her mom's name. He gave me his social media accounts. I had fun talking with him. After we finished our meal we needed to say goodbye.

"Bye, Lourdes" he said and waved

"Bye, Theon!"

I need to go home. My parents will have a meeting. I opened my f*******: account and checked Theon's profile. I clicked add friend. Here I am again commuting on the way home. I'm gonna ride a bus now because of traffic. I got my ticket then paid for it. I used my earphones then looked at the window. I'm at peace whenever I use my earphones. I feel relaxed while travelling. After 15 minutes I'm home. I didn't see our car so that means they already left. I opened the door and locked it once again. I go straight to my bedroom. I changed my clothes into comfy one. I opened my phone and I saw a new notification from f*******:. Theon accepted my friend request. He also messaged me.

"Hi"

I ignore people but why do I feel it's hard for me to ignore him?

"Hello, Theon"

"Thank you for making me happy. I'm sad earlier because something happened"

"You're welcome, cheer up! If you need someone to listen, I'm here"

"I have trust issues but I really need someone right now. Please keep this as our secret. Promise me that you will never use this against me if ever we have fights."

"I promise"

"My girlfriend ended our 3 years relationship. Obviously she's not my girlfriend anymore. We broke up earlier. I prepared a surprise proposal. I proposed earlier but she answered no. I asked her why she said she's in love with someone. She said sorry then left. She's my first girlfriend. The love of my life. I cried in front of many people. I gave the flowers to the old lady that saw me cry. I still have the ring. I bought this one using my own money. In our 3 years relationship I'm the only one who bought gifts for our monthsary and anniversaries. I courted her for 10 months. I let her join our family reunions. My parents treated her well. She only introduced me to her parents. I treat her like a princess because my mom is my queen. I planned my future with her. In our 3 years relationship I never changed my treatment towards her. I know to myself that I never failed to show my love. My efforts are enough. I understand her situation. I want her to be my bride someday. I want to grow old with her. I already imagined our future. She may have fallen out of love. I'll start to heal and fix myself. I know my worth. I need to learn from my mistakes. Turn my mistakes into lessons"

"I don't know what to say. Move forward and focus on your goals now. Someday you will be the happiest version of you. Be thankful because she teaches you lessons in love but in a hurtful way"

"For you, why do people fall out of love?"

"They don't have time for each other. Maybe they are tired hearing the word sorry and don't see any change in that person. Reassurance is no longer given"

This man deserves to be happy. Someday someone's gonna love him the way he loves that person. That's the reason why I'm afraid to fall in love. People's feelings can be temporary. It will cause trauma.