Mapa

Theon's POV

Theon's POV

I lost the love of my life. I lost the girl that I love the most. I lost my future wife. I didn't know that this would happen. I thought we would last forever. I thought she would be my ride or die partner. Those broken promises gave me another trauma. I love her more than myself. I trust her words more than her actions. I didn't deny her when it came to introducing our family members. I want to leave a message for her.

"Hi, how are you? I hope you're happy now. Thank you for the happiest years we spent together. I can't deny that I can't miss you. I will miss you everyday. Hoping that the man who made you fall in love will treat you better than I do. I know there will be no comeback. I'm happy for you. We finished our story but we didn't have a happy ending. Having you as a partner feels like I found my other version. Girl version of me. I'm proud of you. I'm sorry if I can't give you the best. I tried. Goodluck on your journey, my dentist. I love you for the last time"

I know she won't reply. Her dream is to be a dentist someday. Hoping that she will be successful despite all the challenges she will face someday. I open my other social media accounts. I set my relationship status to single. I won't entertain someone this time. Healing process takes time. I deleted my highlights that have our memories together. I opened my gallery and saw our moments together. From the day I court her till we become official. I have 5 albums that have our moments. Travel with her, anniversaries, her 18th birthday, her pictures and family reunion with her. While I'm deleting our pictures she replied.

"Hi Theon, I'm so sorry. You gave me the best gifts I've never had before. Thank you for the memories. Thank you for being my human diary. I know you won't say my weaknesses to others. Thank you for always listening to my rants. Sorry if I act immature. Sorry because most of the time I don't understand your situation. Thank you for staying. Take care always. Sorry once again. Good bye, my architect"

I deleted our convo. We're still friends on f*******: and that's okay. I don't have any plans to unfriend her.

Fast forward

It's been 6 months since we broke up. I'm okay now. I'm healed and accept the fact. I don't have any communication with her. Lourdes helps me to move on. She reminded me that moving on also takes time. We don't need to rush something that we know is worth it. I opened my messenger app. I started to watch my friends myday. There's nothing special. I'm about to exit but I saw my ex on my friend's myday. She's with my friend. I saw his caption. I think they are celebrating their 1st monthsary together since his caption is happy 1st baby, I love you. She fell in love with my friend. My closest friend. I can't believe it. This friend of mine is the one who helps me to make an effort for my ex. I felt betrayed. How did this happen? Why am I still affected? I replied to his myday.

"Take care of her. Stay strong, brother"

He replied immediately.

"I will. Thanks, bro"

He has my girl now. He also fell in love with her. Did he know that I prepared a proposal for her? Did he know that we broke up because she fell in love with him? It hurts so much. He's my childhood friend. I treated him as a brother. He knows how much I love her but what happened? Why did they end up becoming a couple? I cried. I can't handle this kind of pain. They are my weakness.

The lessons that I learned today are that people may betray you in a simple way. Actions are better than words. Unexpected happenings are the harmful ones. Love can give trauma that will last for a lifetime. No matter how long you spent in the past there will be a time where you will lose it. We need to express our love and make them feel worthy.