An Unexpected Discovery
I do not know how long I wallowed in my gloom, weeping at my own foolishness and wishing that I could completely redo the past half hour. If I had danced in spirit form, I could have simply returned to my body once the stream grew too aroused. But no, I had to imagine myself as skilled as a Teuton priest, the master of all the elements around me as well as my own. Hans is going to chew me out over this, I knew, for there was no way I could keep it from him. He was the bearer of all of my Teuton secrets. And now he’ll think I’m still a ridiculous child, or worse, a naïve woman, just like Der Weg implies. One who needs a priestly husband to control her, but not him, no, never him . . . .
“Zoubaraera . . . Teutona . . . .” The two words entered my mind like a wispy s
