Was That Love?

Fast Forward

2 years passed away and Priyank just contacted me 3 times. The second time was when he sent me a friend request on f*******:.  we had a short chit chat session in which he told me that he went into an internet cafe just to reach me on f*******:. He also told me that his uncle was not behaving well with him and makes him do all the household stuff and sometimes even beat him up and also that he had started drinking alcohol because of the trauma he was going through. His parents thought he was making excuses just to come back home so they asked him to focus on his studies rather than making silly stories. I felt very bad for him. I really wished that I could rescue him from there and could keep him with me forever but unfortunately, I could not. After that, he never came online for the next 4 months. One of his very close friends at school told me that he was in a relationship with some other girl out there but I did not believe it. Somewhere deep down in me, I kept consoling myself that he will never ditch me like that. I kept messaging Priyank on f*******:, again and again, every time hoping for his positive reply denying all of the accusations.

 The third time was after four months when he came back online and replied to me stating that," Listen, you dumb girl. Just stop bothering me again and again. I don't want to be with you. I already have a girlfriend now and I don't want to lower down my standards by being in touch with a small-town girl like you. Go get some village guy for you who suits your personality. And ya! one more thing. I never loved you. Whatever I said to you was just the part of my plan to convince you. I did all that for Daksh because he wanted Kritika, so we planned to convince you first and then take your help in convincing Kritika. But now I don't care about anyone because I am very busy in my own life. So you just f**k off and don't message me again or else I'll block you." Whatever he said just shook me from within. My mind went blocked and senses stopped working. Tears were rolling down my eyes and with shivering hands I kept wrote again, convincing him not to leave me. But he blocked me. He not only broke my trust but also my belief that not every boy is the same. Nobody could ever think of the trauma that I had gone through. I trusted him with everything but he left me like nothing. I started hating myself for being a dumb small-town girl but one thing that I could not stop doing was loving him. It seemed like his rejection made me doubt my very own self-worth but I could not hate him for that. I kept loving him more with every passing day.  

It was a strange feeling to realize that the wait of those two years ended like that. He was supposed to come back to me at the end of those two years. But he was a liar. He gifted me with an insulting breakup note in return for my loyalty and endless love. All those years I never looked at any other guy and waited for him patiently as a loyal girl does but what I got in return was not something that I deserved. I was left broken into pieces. His rest of the batchmates also passed out from the school and I was left with nobody around who could help me to reach him.

And that was how the first two years of my relationship were like.