Nigel I remained silent after what Zalia told me. It didn't make it any less painful but at least I knew why she left. My heart broke a little at the thought of her going through ask much without me there to help her. Then I thought of what she said, she still loves me? I thought by now she would have forgotten about me or even if she remembered me wouldn't have feelings for me again. This changes everything I was ready to move on if she didn't turn up today but now she's here and I'm feeling the emotions I felt at 18 hundredfold. I wonder if this meant she would be staying or if she planned on going back to London. I knew we couldn't pick up from where we left off all those years ago. We're different now, older and more mature and in my case ready to settle down. My parents have been

