A Broken Luna

Chapter 4: Secret Desires

As I started to come from the darkness, I felt something touch my forehead. It was so warm, so soft, so smooth. This almost magical touch was cooling me off like rain would on a hot summer day. ‘What is that touching me?’ I thought to myself

‘I don’t know but whatever it is, please don’t let it stop’ Rose says in a moan.

The hand stops abruptly—causing me and Rose to groan mentally—but was quickly touching the top of my head, moving it up and down almost as if it were going through my hair. The coolness now turns to something lustful and is doing wonderful things to my core. I must see what this wonderful thing is touching me like that.

My eyes open slowly, adjusting to the sun light. Once they were fully opened, I was looking at the most gorgeous man I’ve ever laid my eyes upon, Alexander. His eyes shown nothing but love, admiration and more importantly it showed lust. He looked at me as if we were the last man and woman on Earth and at that moment I wanted it to be. The look he was giving me turned me on so much I started becoming really wet.

“If looking at me pleases you so much, I could only imagine what it would be like when I’m inside you.” He says in a husky voice.

I gasped; I’ve never met someone so forward. ‘Rose, a little help please?’ I said.

‘With pleasure!’

Letting Rose take the wheel, I watched as she lightly touches his face. She brings his face close to her—so close that the lips barely touch—and whispers against his lips, “You think your man enough to handle me baby?” He growls at her and she smiles, looking right in his green eye, “I thought so.” And to tease him, he licks his bottom lip.

That’s all it took to finally snap. Our body was thrown to the ground with Alexander pinning both my hands with one of his. Him being between my legs with black eyes and canines that were out and ready. “Oh, I see you like it rough and dirty.” She says while purring.

“I’ll show you what I can handle.” He says and then gets close to my ears to whisper, “By the time I’m done with that ass, you and your wolf will have a hard time walking for days.”

“Is that a promise?” Rose asked.

He responds to her by licking and biting her ear hard, making Rose moan. His free hand makes their way under her sports bra. Then, he starts to play with a harden n****e. “Do you like that?” he asks against Rose’s neck and then sucks on it.

“Mmmhmm” was all the response she can give to him.

“No that’s not good enough. I want you to say it loud!” he growls, disapproved by her answer.

“Ohh yes baby that feels so good.” Rose says.

He then takes his hands and travels down to my shorts and tugs at the hem of my thong. “What kind of fabric we have under here?” he says.

“It’s a secret, but I always where these kinds of things.” Rose whispers while laughing a little. ‘Um hello, I do wear regular underwear—most of the time.’ I say to her.

‘Shut up!’ she says to me.

His hands make it down to her sweet spot and without warning he starts to rub on her c**t.

‘Oh f**k!’ Rose says loudly. He sits up and looks at me, smiling at that response.

“You were all talk and such a bad girl in that field, who would have thought you would submit to me now and lose so easily.” He says with a smirk.

‘Is he taunting us?’ Rose says to me.

‘Oh hell no.’ I say to her ‘I’m taking the wheel now.’

When I gain control of myself, I push his hands out of me and flipped us over, making him grunt a little. I then leaned forward to his ear and grabbed his neck and slightly squeezed.

“I don’t know who the hell you think you are, but I never submit to no man.” I whispered in his ear and sat up, lick the outline of his chin as I moved.

“Not even to an Alpha?” he says with a grin.

“Not even to a Supreme Alpha.” I replied, looking away and adjusting myself to get up.

He grabs my waist and holds me down, forcing me to look at him. “You know, you’re fated to be Luna, right?” He asks while sitting himself up and fixing my legs so that now I was straddled on him.

I smirked and wiped some of the stray hair back. “I know, but it wouldn’t be fun if just submit to you.”

He grabs my chin and bring my face close to his almost as if he were ready to kiss me. “You will be mines. If not now then very soon, and when I finally take your sexy ass, you will be puddled on my bed every day and every night for the rest of your life.”

“Ditto” I said while closing my eyes preparing for my first real kiss. Just when he got really close the voices came again.

‘He’s going to find out. He’s going to find out. He will hate you and leave you. You’re not worthy of being a Luna. You stupid b***h!’

‘Oh my gosh, these stupid c**k blockers’ Rose said, obviously annoyed.

‘Roxy don’t listen to them.’ Lucy says to me, but it’s too late. It already stuck to me.

‘They’re right. He’s going to hate me if he found out about me, about the voices, about the visions.’ I said to myself.

‘Roxy, no don—’ Lucy started but the voices grew so loud they overpowered Rose and Lucy.

‘That’s right you stupid b***h, he’s going to find out. He’s going to find out. When he finds out, he’s going to leave you. You really thought you, a pathetic nobody, were going to be a Supreme Alpha’s Luna?’ The voices all laugh, mocking me, taunting me.

My heart started to race fast, and I was starting to lose sight of Alexander. Oh no, not now. Please not in front of him. But the darkness doesn’t take pity on me.

It never does.

Just when I was about to panic, I hear Alexander’s voice.

‘Roxanne.’

His voice overpowered the others and soon everything got quiet and I can see him clearly. His hand, that is touching my face, radiates my whole face and it felt so good.

‘He did it again.’ Lucy says.

‘How the hell is he doing that?’ I ask them.

‘I don’t know but now I have the urge to ride his face, let me out again Roxy.’ Rose said and I just shook my head.

“What’s going on in the pretty little head of yours Roxanne?” He asks.

That was a weird question to ask me, almost as if he knew the pain I was going through. Before I asked, I hear my father’s voice in my head. ‘Roxy, is everything alright? Your next opponent is waiting for you.’

‘I’m coming father, I needed to change my shoes.’ I lied to him.

“This was fun, but we got to head back. Their waiting to get their ass beat by the Queen.” I said, kissing him on the cheek.

He let out this sexy laugh that made my hear flutter. Gosh this man was gorgeous. During the process of getting up he kept me straddled against him so when he’s fully up my legs is wrapped against his waist.

“You didn’t need to do that.” I had started to say but something caught my eye. When I turned, I saw Jess standing behind one of the cars, eyes wide as saucers and a huge blush on her face. I quickly got down from Alexander.

“Jess” I said, but she shook her head and smiled. “We were worried about the two of you and I volunteered to see if you both were alright. I guess I can tell them you guys are definitely fine.” She and Alexander laugh, and I rolled my eyes.

“Let’s go back Jess.” I say before giving him my seductive smile and walking away.

Alexander POV

That woman is going to be the absolute death of me.

She’s tall, gorgeous and such a seductress; my type of woman. Not only is she a freak, and an Alpha’s daughter, but she’s an excellent fighter. One of the best fighters I have ever seen. She’s probably better than Brad.

With all that skill and beauty, she must bear with the price of it. The entity, a darkness that tugs at her heart and mind and tries to consume the very good essence of her. Thankfully the witches in my pack were kind enough to give me an idea of what this darkness is and teach me some incantation to help put it at ease. It also helps that witch blood flows within my veins, but that explanation is for another time. Just when I was going to kiss her down like a real man, her eyes started to become cloudy and I feel dread come upon me. It’s the entity, they are eating away at her again. I touched her face and focus on ridding the darkness that’s trying to torment her. Her eyes cleared up and she is looking at me, confusion clear as day.

“What is going on in that pretty little head of yours, my future Luna?” I asked to myself.

Her eyes got clouded a little, but I knew it was someone from her pack talking to her. She then proceeds to tell me she need to go. When we got up with her straddled in front of me, I see a woman there looking at us. At first glanced, I noticed rage that I know was directed towards me by the way she was staring into my eyes. When Roxanne looked her way, it swiftly went away, and she played it off. Roxanne and the woman walked away together laughing and joking.

When I see her get into this state, I feel dread and darkness and when I touch her, I see images of her running from something. Seeing this and feeling these emotions compels me to touch her and try to ease that pain. Is this what it feels like to be mated to someone? When she goes back to herself, I’m filled with so much joy. It’s the same feeling you get after winning a battle. I look at my hand, opening and closing them.

‘Alpha, are you okay? Alpha Luca’s daughter returned with her friend, but you didn’t.’ Brad says to me via mind link. He sounds concerned.

‘I’m fine Brad, just had a lovely chat with your future Luna.’

‘Ew,’ he said causing me to laugh out loud ‘You didn’t…” he started.

‘No, we didn’t f**k, but I’m going to snatch that ass very soon. I need you to do me a favor.’

‘What’s up bro?’

‘Ask around about Roxanne and tell me anything you hear about her. Something is special about that girl, and I plan to find out.’ I tell him.

‘There’s a name for someone like you…” he says

‘Persistent, strong-willed, devilishly handsome?’

‘Nah, stalker bro.’ he laughs, and I cut off the mind link.

Although Brad is my best friend and Beta, I swear one of these days I’m going to punch him good in his throat.

An image of Roxanne’s beautiful flashed in my head, making me smile. I’ve never felt this way about anyone in my life, and I’ve lived a long one. Whatever she’s going through, I am going to figure out what’s causing my queen to go through this and when I do, I will do anything and everything to ease her from that pain. She is my mate and regardless of what’s going on with her, I will stay by her side. I just hope she feels the same when she discovers the truth about who I really am and my dark past.

Jessica POV

Watching Roxy being touch by that man like that made me feel different types of emotion. I was hurt, I was angry, and I was even, possibly, turned on. How come whenever she does something—anything—I start to crave her. I wanted her to look at me, to touch me and kiss me and sometimes even do naughty things. I knew I loved Roxy. I’ve always loved Roxy—and I mean more than a friend. When I was getting bullied by the other girls in middle school for being a little thicker than most she wolves she came to my rescue being a complete badass babe.

—    Flashback —

During one lunch period, ‘popular girls’ came up to me and was trying to talk down my outfit and hair.

“You know they are going to tell you to take that skirt off, we can see your fat ass standing up.” One of the girls says will smiling, while the other girls laughed. I just ignored them.

She continues, “And that hair too, long hair does not suit a chubby cheek person like yourself. You might as well do yourself a favor and chop all of it off.”

“Just be honest, your jealous of me.” I said to her without looking at her. “You wish you had a body like me but because you’re so petty and bitter you take your jealously out on me…” before I can finish I felt something hard hit my cheek, knocking me out of that chair.

“You fat b***h!” she screams at me, “Just because you’re the Beta’s daughter you think your something special huh” one of the girls pulls out the scissor and hands it to the girl who hit me.

“When all that hair goes, you will stop acting like this entitled selfish tramp.” She starts to get close to my hair with that scissor and I close my eyes. Right when she grabbed a strand I heard the voice of an angel.

“If you touch her, I promise you I will have you, your friends and all of your families banished from the pack.”

We all turned to the angelic voice and when I saw her my heart started pounding. She was the most beautiful goddess I’ve ever seen.

“Roxy, why do you want to stand up for this pathetic loser?” the girl says to me hiding the scissor behind her back. But by the way her face darkened, I already knew that she saw what was about to be done.

“I should call my father. It is a great crime for attacking his beta’s daughter with a scissor.” she said while walking towards us.”

“What? That’s ridiculous…why would I try to hurt Beta Jonathan’s daughter. We were just talking a little and things got out of hand, right Jess?” I didn’t say anything.

“One, you call her fat and, you wish you had a body as beautiful and curvaceous as hers. Two, you make fun of her hair when you envy the fact that you will never have something as luscious as hers. And three, you talk about her father’s title and the fact that she acts like you are beneath her, but the truth of the matter is you are the one jealous of her. You are jealous of the fact that her father was honored such a position in the pack, meanwhile your father is stuck serving both of ours.” Roxanne gets close to her face and looks her dead in her eyes “If you and your pathetic excuse of friends bother her ever again, I will have no problem dealing with you accordingly.”

The girl looked at Roxanne with so much hatred that she started to squeeze the scissor. Roxanne smiles, “Are you ready for you and your family to be killed at the hands of my father and mother? Walk away.”

After another second the girl relaxes, flips her hair and walks away with her goons behind her.

I was so shocked. No one has ever stood up for me like the way she did. “Thank you” was all I could say.

She turns to me and smile. “You are the Betas daughter, never let anyone talk down to you. Rise up and fight.”

And in that very moment, I fell deeply in love with Roxanne Blair.

— End of Flashback —

Ever since that day, Roxy became my morning star. She fills each day with so much joy and happiness that no other boyfriend has ever given.

With all that she makes me feel, why haven’t I confessed to her. Why haven’t I claimed her as my lover and shower her with love and attention that she deserves.

Then a distant voice from a memory played in my head:

‘You are a woman and my daughter. You must hide these ridiculous feelings about the Alpha’s daughter.’

My father, Beta Jonathan

I shook my head and looked at Roxy and smiled, she looked back at me and blushed.

“Are you going to tell me what happened back there?” I asked while nudging her shoulders a little.

She blushed even harder. Gosh she’s so sexy. “I will, but later okay?” She says and smile.

No matter what I feel, I must do what my father says. She will never know what I feel for her. Maybe in another world I could taste those lips, touch her face, and hold as her as if she was my source of life. But in this world, were I must suppress those feelings because of my father status I will have to accept that she’s too far for me to reach.

I nod at her and linked arms with her.

Someday I will get to tell you…

I love you.