Spare For The Alpha

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Quinn

The comment sliced through me like a knife. My father was cruel, and although I didn’t want to turn out like him, I did look up to him. Just like all little boys, their father is their hero and he had been mine until he tore me away from Clem. I didn’t want to hurt her, but if I didn’t hurt with my words, I’d end up breaking her heart even more. I knew she loved me and I loved her.

My fated mate was incredibly special and the bond was strong, just not strong enough to erase the feelings I had for Clem. Knowing that she was going to spend her life waiting to be my spare was torture. Emily was weak but I doubt she would die anytime soon. I loved and cared for Emily deeply, but my wolf was greedy. He wanted the shy, innocent Emily and the feisty, unpredictable Clem.

Emily was very vanilla. She would do anything I wanted, but I needed someone to have a backbone, I liked it when someone stood up to me. Emily would barely look me in the eye. I tried to tie Emily to the bed and spank her once but she passed out from fear, so we never tried again. I had to control myself around her. My wolf was crazy and he needed to let go and be wild with his mate but she was so fragile. I needed to have so much restraint, to make love to her gently and always be in control of my wolf. I could never let go.

Clem had always bossed me around as pups. I followed her around like a lapdog. Once I realised I needed to start acting like an Alpha, I tried to put her in her place a bit more. She became more reserved and quiet around me in public, then would go crazy at me when we were alone. Just the way I liked it.

I didn’t agree with the ruling which had been made about her being my spare. Now that I was officially going to be Alpha, I wanted it to change, but going against my father wouldn’t end well. Besides, there is a rule that any agreement couldn’t be overruled by the next Alpha without a council meeting. They had all agreed that the punishment would be severe for their family, my father had let them off lightly due to the friendship her Mother had with mine. If I tried to overrule that, they could end up dead.

I desperately wanted to go after her. Seeing her in my t-shirt and her underwear felt natural. It’s how it should have been, Clem, walking around our home together like that whilst I couldn’t keep my hands off of her. I was so angry at the Moon Goddess. We were destined to be, and our connection was undeniably strong. I love Emily so much, and I know that nobody should deny a special gift from the Moon Goddess, but.. she wasn’t Clem.

A fated mate was a special bond, but I couldn’t help but think mine was wrong. Rejecting the bond would have caused us both great pain. If I sexually touched another she-wolf then Emily would be in pain. I would never do that to her. I’d heard stories about these pigs who had done that but I’d never met anybody. In our pack, we had a great respect for our females, from what I knew.

Everything I knew about the fated bond was wrong for me. I loved Emily, and I wanted to protect her but I didn’t care if another male looked her way. I should want to rip his head off. I was insanely jealous about Theo spending so much time with Clem though. It wasn’t right. It never made sense.

I always knew there was more though. Something we needed to look into.

Clementine

I lay in bed crying. The tears wouldn’t stop falling and my pillow was soaked. ‘You’re crying a lot for someone you hate so much.’ Tine teased.

‘Shut up. These are angry tears. I’m angry, not sad.’ I screamed, so loudly it was out loud rather than in my head to Tine. She irked me sometimes.

I couldn’t waste another tear on that boy. As I got up to get a shower, I noticed an envelope on my dresser. I was forbidden from attending events now, so I don’t know how this got here. I opened it up, for my day to be ruined even more. It was an invitation to the crowning ceremony of Alpha Quinn Lovell and Luna Emily Blake for next week.

At the bottom, it read that all members of the pack will be required to attend. I knew I wasn’t an exception. The only exceptions for missing a crowning would be if you were giving birth or dying. I wonder if they would pretend I was dead to ensure I stuck to the agreement and didn’t mingle with any boys. ‘This is perfect, perfect. Absolutely perfect.’ Chimed Tine. ‘How so?’ I asked her, although I knew exactly what she would say.

‘Clem my darling, do you think someone who looks like you isn’t going to attract every unmated wolf in the pack? They are going to be on their hands and knees crawling to you. You’re the kept secret, the one who got away. It’s also pretty likely, that we will find our fated mate and run through the forest with him whilst he takes down every warrior who tries to capture us.’ She continued, but I’d stopped listening.

Mum came upstairs with excitement. ‘Did you see the invitation? We are invited to our first celebration in years.’ Mum was all excited. Although she was able to leave the house, she was forbidden from attending events. Her friends drifted away, as they didn’t know the truth. People assumed she had gone crazy after she lost my dad. Which is normal for wolves to do when they lose their mate. She hadn’t though, she stayed strong for me.

‘Yes, Mum. I am so excited to watch my dearly beloved take the crown whilst I wait in anticipation for a girl to die for absolutely no apparent reason.’ Even Mum knew it was the most bizarre punishment. Quinn could have anybody he wanted. Why did I need to be the spare?

I heard Theo thunder up the stairs. He never knocked, he treated the house like it was his home too, even though it was rare I would see him so soon after our last meet. He was eating one of Mum's freshly baked muffins. ‘This is delicious Mrs Touissant’ he said with a mouthful of muffin. Mum just looked at him and laughed, as she left my room. We both knew he had helped himself without asking.

‘Is everything okay Thee?’ I asked. He handed me a huge paper bag from Crescent. It was an extremely posh boutique which sold designer clothes where the wealthy wolves shopped. ‘What’s this?’ I asked, pulling out a box and lifting the lid. ‘You’re my date for next week.’ He replied with a huge grin on his face and a mouth full of a second muffin.

‘I’m your what now?’ I asked as I pulled out the most beautiful floor-length gown. It was navy velvet with an open back and high front. ‘Mum said I needed to ask you to be my date. She wanted you to wear this awful black dress which looked like a witch costume, so I showed the girls in the boutique a photo of you and they came up with this. I’m not having my date look like a bin bag.’ He said as he stuffed a third muffin in his mouth.

I was astounded. Why was I Theo’s date? His Mother would kill me if she saw me wear this ensemble instead of what she had demanded. I looked at him with nothing but worry and fear on my face.

‘Clem it’s fine. I’ll tell her I got you the dress. She’ll be so busy by the time we go in, it will be too late for you to change.’ He shrugged.

‘Theo, why am I your date?’ I demanded. ‘I don’t know. We will be sat at the main table, she probably didn’t want me to be lonely because the other tables are quite far away.’ He looked back at me and smiled ‘We aren’t boyfriend and girlfriend though, dream girl.’ And ran off with a cheeky face. He was completely adorable.

I knew exactly why I was Theo’s date. No other male would come near me if I was dating Theo and they couldn’t get close either. If my mate could smell me in there then he wouldn’t be able to find me. It’s so busy and he wouldn’t be able to approach any of the important tables near the top. It was the perfect way to get around everything. They were scandalous, and poor Theo was being walked all over. He could have taken a proper date, a girl who he liked, but instead, he was lumbered with me.