Journey of a Dancer

The Realisation

You know guys one thing I can tell you for sure that though good times doesn't stay for too long but that doesn't means the memory would fade, everytime you guys do something you really love the sweet memories will be in your mind forever. For me these memories are mostly of those time that i spent with my cousins whether we fight or laugh or tease or make fun of each other these little things matter alot they are those memory which I never wanted to forget especially when we created our little talent secret hunt which actually helped me in becoming so close with myself without it i would never be able to discover my talent of dancing and I'm really grateful for this little talent secret hunt. I may not be showing my talent to the outer world but I feel motivated in myself both Daisy and Peter are like home to me. If my cousin never went with this crazy act of myself i wouldn't realise my self potential of dancing somewhere after that i dreamt of becoming a stage performer not just someone who dance inside the walls or in front of just two person, the world to witness my talent and my passion i started to hope for this thing now although the path is full of throwns but I'm ready to let my feet bleed if that's what is needed as i thought about this qoute, slowly but steadily I try to make myself confident because the first and foremost was the attitude and confidence to carry yourself on the stage no matter how good you are with steps without confidence you would just look as boring as study to watch so i began to make my mind up my motivating my mind with some solid words so that i wouldn't just freak out in front of everyone and make a fool of myself. The progess to of becoming extrovert from introvert isn't easy for me next to impossible because the firts time i try not to stop when someone enter the room i failed miserably I just stand there in attention position like i got punished by someone both my cousin laughed so hard at this, i thought this habit that i possess would become less as i motivate myself but no i felt the more I motivate the more I made myself look like a stupid person. Another time while trying to make myself confident about my dancing i so hard thought not to stop but as soon as someone enter i weirdly start acting of finding something here and there so person who just enter wouldn't get suspicious of about the dancing thing and trust me this act was so much weird that i myself laughed with both Peter and Daisy for this type of solution my mind gave me to keep the secret of hunt. No matter how much i tried to make myself confident i just was not able to to i don't know why like if I wanted to perform in the stage atleast little confident should be with me otherwise I might get a anxiety attack. It's not like i have lots of time in my hand because as soon as my break get over we have to get back to my grandfather's house where i wouldn't even get a room to dance but to hide myself in washroom to practice the skill , i realised like this i would not be able to have the confidence which is required for the stage performer I mean i just dance in front of two of my cousins, can't even manage to dance in front of family members how would I even be able to manage myself when i would encounter audience in huge number atleast more than my family members. Due to my lack of confidence and hesitation move and why i would be hesitant even if I dance with my peter because I still need time to bond together and if i see audience I might gonna cry there these would not be happy tears but sad because i was not able to cope with anxiety and wasn't able to develop the confidence needed. As now a way to overcome this situation, I just had to focus on one song it is because the more focused on one goal the more likely to have it so here if i dance or learn the step of one song with focus and dedication I might develop the confidence to go in front of anyone and can dance without any type of hesitation or worry plus the moves from practicing the same song would be sharp and clear and at last if family like it they would compliment you praise you and it will boost my confidence more so in this way I can be out from the protection shell. First whole day passed just like that thing of a song that would fit my vibe I mean i could be comfortable to do the steps, so trying to find a song where everything is lovingly comfortable, after searching for two days I got it amd continued with the practice to get the step correctly but to piss me off my cousin brother always change the channel to dance and listen his favourite or like song or just to watch cartoon or WWE for this i actually beat him and it would turned into the fight. Thus few days went by without serious practice but i wanted to be serious about becoming stage performer. I tried my best to learn the step as fast as possible I just want to give more time and it was easier than the last time of continuing the dance when someone entre the room , this time i do stopped as well but listening to same song the beat and all that music made a way into my body that now i know the steps by my heart not mind ..