_why did you disappeared suddenly?_
1016 Words
Memories are coming back slowly to my mind and the reason why you suddenly disappeared without me even knowing it. I was left in total limbo, not knowing what to do and was surprised once again. I have cried every day and every night as I go to sleep. I always go to the places we always visit, but there was, but there was an NP SIGN of you. There are no traces or I couldn't even find answers to where you were or any clue. In the hospital that you used to work, I was always there searching in the corridor and wondering and hoping I might bump into you. I went to the emergency rooms and asked a lot of people if there was anyone who knew anything about him. All they can say is that you filed an indefinite leave to attend to something and I know that it is important you need to do it. I went to your old house when you were younger. To the place where the sun always shines bright and along the shore where we used to meet and walk on the white sand of the shore. You saw me first there, but you saw me with my friends first when we were there a dance for an event for our school, and there I saw you riding your bike passing all the slopes and humps with your backpack on your back and still wearing your school uniform. You passed by me and on our spot and called Yumi, your childhood friend at that time and my sophomore. I never thought you were friends and neighbors as well. I also remembered that I saw your hands while holding onto a chair and pulling it to sit on. I heard your voice talking with your friends with Yumi for the first time. You were laughing with them as you listened to their stories and I saw you smiling that time. I think that was the cutest smile I ever saw in my 15 years of existence. As if you were smiling at me and it's as if your eyes are already closed and can't see anything. That was the first time we met. Through our common friends and by accident or is it by destiny? I saw you pick up a violet cosmos flower as you walked slowly into my path holding it. I even saw petals falling and showering you while you were walking. Is it just my imagination? because it was like you are walking in a slow-paced motion. Oh.. what is this I am feeling?. My heart was pounding as you approached me. I was sitting on the lawn with my friends at that time and resting. You bowed and handed the flower to me with that distinctive smile you only have. I blushed as I hesitantly accepted it. I can feel our friends staring at me and cheering because of your gesture. I was afraid that time, afraid that I might disappoint you if I didn't get it. I actually can't understand the feeling that I had that time. After that beside me and we talked and talked like as if we were alone and there is no tomorrow. But I was back to my norms when somebody tapped me on my shoulder. " Pyong?, what are you doing here?' " Nothing, I just followed to know what happened and how are you?'. I was surprised by that question and that situation: 'Yaah! Oohh... I am fine". I never thought that it was really happening. All the while, I thought it was just a dream, that I was just dreaming, but I was really there. I told Pyong to just go home and leave me first and I assured him that I was just fine. I went back to the city at dawn and went directly to your house. I knocked to check if you were already home but no one answered. 'Did he leave again?', I thought. I keyed in the pass and opened the door. I have usually done this for the past 3 years. I was always there to check if you came back.
I went to the living room directly and saw the portrait I brought with the last photo we took before you vanished. I sat on the couch and remembered the days when you were still here. I always sent a text message on your number and I was surprised by the beep sent. It was just beside me underneath the throw pillows on the chair. There I found your phone and checked it. I saw all my messages unread and I opened the messages teary eyed as my throat gathered for breath and answers. I saw the last message you typed for me unsent. I couldn't hold back my feelings any longer and I cried and cried and went to your room to check on you things, your dresses, but they were still untouched. I sat on the bed and lay down to feel the moments when you're still here. I embraced the portrait I brought for you and I couldn't help the tears falling. ' I miss you so much....' I whispered.
I was awakened by a touch on my head. The touch that is so familiar brushing my hair and as I opened my eyes. There you are beside me sitting on your bed, looking at me, staring at me and smiling sheepishly. Slowly, you embraced me and kissed my forehead. I can't help but sob on your chest and cry my pain when I lost you.. I tried to touch your face to check if I was only dreaming it was just a Deja Vu or not. But I felt your skin. 'I am not dreaming this time ', I thought to myself. It was real you are really beside me. Right at that moment, I felt embarrassed and felt my cheeks burning. And you laughed loudly. I could hear your voice echoing the whole room and said' I am here. I am real.'
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