I am worried about Alex. She keeps on pretending that she is alright as if she was trying to prove to everyone that she is strong. She avoids speaking to me about it and I can sense her pain of losing our child. It haunts me every single day that I witness her soul burning in her eyes and watched as her life got sucked out of her again.
She hates it when I want to touch her, she pushes me away when I want to. For a moment she will let me curl up against her but then it's all gone and she moves away. I know she still needs to heal and it would be unfair of me to think of my own wants while the woman I love with my whole heart is hurting.
My dad noticed that I was distracted during our class together. At least the new young fighters didn't notice as they were excited to have me in their cl
