Abused queen (dark romance)

Fourteen

I woke up and I slowly tapped the side of the bed wondering if Sam was awake yet but the pain that jolted my entire body made me remember the incident and tears fell before I could open my eyes and I was afraid to wake because I didn't want to hear it, I didn't want to know the truth about my baby but my the tears informed the person in the room that I was awake and a hand touched mine and the familiar warmed broke me as I cried my eyes out and she held me close in her arms trying to soothe me with her words but I knew the truth and I knew I could never tell her the truth even if I tried because I love her so much to drag her into my mess and knowing her she will be in the royal jail or blame herself for getting into me into this mess, but it was nit her fault I made the decision to marry him, and I’m the one who opened my legs for him, I’m the one that loved him

I hugged her tight as I sobbed in her arms enjoying the familiar scent of coco butter, it made me feel like I was home again, reminded me of the times that the only thing I had to worry about was doing assignment for school

"It's all going to be alright, let it out I'm here" she said but I knew that's not the case no one was there for me so, I stopped crying and put myself together as I wiped my tears putting up a front for my best friend, I hated lying to her but I had no choice and I hope she bought the façade I was putting on

"I'm sorry you had to see me like this” I said hiccupping but she just smiled slapping my shoulder and I winced in pain making her eyes go wide

"Ow sorry I forgot you fell from the stairs, you always been clumsy but you have to be careful Michaela you could have died and I'm really sorry for your baby too, I know how much you Like children and I know you’re going to be a great mother one day" and I stopped the tears from coming and I nodded giving her a small smile, do that’s what Samuel told all if them that I fell from the stairs, it was not far fetched and I’m sure they bought I was always clumsy but it still hurt to hear it, knowing he was the one that killed our child, I still didn’t know why, why would someone kill their own child a heir to the throne?

"I know and I promise I won't be clumsy again and I will be careful" I told her avoiding talking about the baby my husband murdered

"Where is my mom? How is she and Michael?" I said changing the subject, although I was mildly glad she was not because I knew how I was never going to stop crying in her presence and probably beg her to take me back home with her, and that would have been a bad idea, as far as I knew Samuel was not willing to let me go for some reason

"Their fine they wanted to come but Samuel told them you alright and you might need space after your loss to grieve, his a nice guy although I thought it will be better to see your mom after the loss, I understand where his coming from, they both overreact or exaggerate" she said smiling and it hurt me more because he took another thing from me the comfort from my family who I really need right now, but I also knew why he did he didn’t want them to see me like this, and he avoided suspicion from my family, but didn’t make it hurt any less as I sobbed again, but trying to he strong at the same time

" It's fine, I'm okay now and Samuel will take care of me” I mastered a smile talking about that asshole called my husband I can't believe I loved him, what was I thinking? But deep down I knew I still did, my feeling for him were stronger the pain he was inflicting on me, which I knew was wrong that’s why I knew that there is only one thing left to do in this circumstance, and was to leave do I can stop loving him, do this stupid feelings will go away

"I know Jen always make everyone feel better, but I'm sorry I have to go, I have finals in the morning but I promise to come before you discharged okay"-and I nodded before laughing at her stupidness she liked to call herself in a third person which was weird but it’s Jen she was always my weird best friend, we said our goodbye and she gave a kiss on the forehead before leaving and I closed my eyes as the tears fell thinking about my baby, I hated being alone now, and thinking about my f****d up life, but now I only had one thing in mind how I'm going to escape that hell hole called a castle but my peace was disturbed when the opened the door, and his cologne filled my nose I couldn’t stop myself from shaking the fact that he was there made scared did he come to finish me off? And how I am going to live with someone I’m scared of.