Where is my mind?

Dark room / Easy/ Drowning

Dark Room

dark night and dark room

you sit in the shadows and speak

i relax and speak true

i remember this feeling

just talking as me

not a single worry

i need to just feel real

in this world of vanity

i thought i wanted my friends to shut up

those were never real friends

they couldn't see the different places i go

the darkness i feel

not everyone can handle it

not everyone can gaze upon my dreams

most hide from me

because they refuse to see

the monsters in their own hearts

Easy

you say my life is easy

from a reflective window

you see your struggle

next to me forcing a breath

you can't see the pain inside

or the lies i tell myself

you can't see the exhaustion

it takes to live

why do we compare?

but to make ourselves feel important

discrediting or dismissing others

instead of symbiosis

give what you get

don't expect any more

because everything has a price

including ignorance

Drowning

bubbles wafting up in the shape of hearts

it's the air escaping my lungs

my head surfaces and sinks

as the waves crash upon me

i can't gain control

i cannot fight mother nature

keep struggling and maybe I'll survive

i have to stay awake to fight this tide

if i had enough air

i could dive and swim away

if i had a window

I'll take what i can get

this moment becomes my cage

seconds turn to minutes

minutes to hours

i ponder my life and regrets

i ponder my choice to dive in

will i die as i lived

suffocating, struggling for breath

suffering for my choices

hope in life is a flip of a coin

maybe you'll make it

maybe you'll drown

you'll feel like you're dying

because sometimes you are

bit by bit