Caught between my bully and my step brother

Chapter 13

Did he ...... did he just say what I think he said ?

He chuckles and I fele him place the book on my back and his spare hand opens it. The bookmark is at the back of the book. I know this because I have finished it. I squint as embarrassment floods me hoping he doesn't work out why that particular page is saved. He's quiet, as I think he reads I can't see properly as he holds me down. My heart hammers, and I hate that I have grown damp between my thighs. Something about what is happening is exciting my body even if my mind is far from that, too embarrassed to catch up with what my body is feeling.

The chapter he is reading is where the two guys have tied her down to the bed , they have immobilized her , took away any means of her escape, then they start to take her senses away too. They blindfolded her. Place headphones over her ears so she can't hear them, and they take what they want from her body. The thing is she wants it, craves it. Then they place a ball gag in her mouth too. She is completely at her mercy. Through the paragraph they readjust her, move her body how they want it and use her. She had never felt so alive, while feeling so helpless, as they took her together for the first time after working her up to it for weeks. They had slowly trained her body to accommodate them both. I was pinned down like that by him for a good few minutes while he read , I had stopped struggling. It was obvious it was pointless.

I squeeze my eyes shut as I feel him adjust on top of me.

" Doll " he whispers. I hear him breathe in a ragged breath, and then I hear the book thud to the floor as he throws it off of my back . Then he leans back over. His lips near my ear,

" Who knew our little Addie had such a dirty side "he whispers, and I whimper. Being held down like this was . . .

He chuckles darkly and then leans back up, letting go of my hair, and he climbs off of me.

" Don't worry doll, it's our little secret. We all have a dirty side "he states with a wink.

I pull up and wrap my arms around my legs.

" Trent, please "I whispered, tears stinging my eyes. I hated he knew this, that he saw that, and I hated that my body reacted to what had just happened. Trent now had knowledge about me that could cause me serious trouble. My mum, gosh, if she ever knew I read stuff like that, she would freak well, not really. It would be me freaking more I suppose . If he spread it around our hometown, all my credibility would be gone. I could never open a medical practice there. Not that I planned to, I wanted out of that town. But I could never go home again. I would be the talk of the town even if some of the other girls from our town read fifty shades. My tastes, well, I think they are more like fantasizing intrigue, I suppose like I have said before, have grown darker, filthier as each book I read passes. I am not sure if I would actually like it when the time comes to actually doing it. But that chapter was saved for a reason. When I touch myself, it's usually after I have reread that chapter.

" Please what ? " He asks me , tilting his head to the side, but I can't really look at him now, so I look away.

" Tell me what it is you want ? Or what it is you're doing. And please don't use this against me. Whatever your plan is this time, please don't use this" I ask with a shaky voice.

He huffed annoyed. " Addison , I told you this isn't me scheming anything " he started, but I snapped my eyes back at him.

" Then what is it ? " I snap angrily, cutting him off.

He grits his teeth. I can tell by the way his jaw clenches.

" Its . . . f*ck Addie just believe that I am not going to hurt you like that anymore, OK " he had stopped himself, whatever he was first going to say he chose not to.

I roll my eyes. " Yeah, OK " I say sarcastically, and look away, shaking my head. " Can you just leave " I add.

" Doll , what you're reading . . " He went to say something else, but I shouted, this time, shocking him and me, I have got lippy with him, given him plenty of attitude and fake bravado. But never had I angrily shouted at him or Toby. I had never had the balls to. But I was feeling raw and exposed and definitely confused, and it was making me want him to go desperately.

" I SAID GET OUT " I shouted.

He steps back , shocked and runs a hand through his hair and then he sighs. " Yeah sure Addie , I'll go. Just know what you may like isn't anything to be ashamed of. I have my own kinks too. Like getting excited over the fact I pinned you down just then "he looked at the book on the floor , then at the bed. After that, he turns and walks out of the room, leaving me with that bomb he had just dropped.

I gaped at the door for a long time after he left, I felt kind of numb and also really, really confused. What was all of that ?

So much had just happened , but also nothing at the same time in the last hour.

He hadn't done anything publicly to embarrass me besides grab my hand and frog march me back here. But he had also done a lot through the fact he had been close, really close. He had been close before, had his hands on me obviously, but that was him picking me up to throw me in a fountain or in the school showers fully clothed. This was a lot different to that.

I ran over everything he said and tried to come up with what his plan was, or why he said and did what he did. But all I came back to was that he was messing with me again for his own sick pleasure. Like he always had. By the time I came with that final conclusion, I was mentally and emotionally drained. I got up after being sat in the same spot he left me in for longer than I cared to admit and locked my door and changed, then crawled back into bed under the covers.

It took ages for me to fall asleep with everything on my mind.

Then, when I did, it was like my book came to life in my dream. Except . . . .

The two men weren't the ones I had come up with in my mind when reading the book; they were them. My tormentors were the ones that cornered the girl in the bathroom. But the girl this time was me. I heard Trent's voice in my ear. " Our little doll is filthy " he growled.

I woke up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat sitting up straight as his words rang like an echo haunting me, my n*****s hard between my thighs soaked. I was panting as I sat up and looked around my room.

" What the hell Addison " I snapped at myself.

I could not fantasize over them. Tomorrow, or should I say today, I will do what I always do, forget what happened yesterday , up my game in avoiding them while staying on alert. Because they were planning something I knew they were. I will not let them take this from me. And if Trent did tell people what he read in my book, I would just deny, deny, deny. Burn the books if I have to so there is no evidence.

It was bad enought they haunt my life , but my dreams too.

" Ergghhh " I groan to the room and fell back on the bed.

" And you better knock it off , they are not nice to us, so stop it "I embarrassingly tell off the stupid thing that was currently tingled between my thighs as the remnants of the dream still lingered. Ignoring the need to satisfy my needs, I roll over and think of my assignments, then recite all the symptoms of different illnesses in my head until my mind and body finally calm down and fall back to sleep. Thankfully free of Satan twins in any dreams.

The next morning I was groggy and tired and still felt vulnerable and fearful , but I did what I said I would. I tried to squash it all down and ignore it. But all day I found myself looking for them as paranoia consumed me. I avoided the cafeteria telling Lacey I fancied food from a burger place off campus. She eagerly agreed. She questioned if I was OK a few times during the day when I saw her, but I just told her I was fine, just tired from studying most of the night. She eyed me but let it drop. I didn't tell her about what happened with Trent. The fewer people that knew the better.