Luna's Past

Chapter 16

Chapter 16

Anna’s POV

I know I should give this a chance, I know going back to the city isn’t in question. I know I can run to the train station, but would that do any good? Would he find me in another city? Would he even care if I ran from this?

"Anna!" Daniel called, catching up to me

"I know this is all overwhelming for you, but you are safe here. We're going to catch the rogue king."

"I know." I sighed. "I didn't think my life would be like this. I thought things would be good and I could have a life after the accident."

"What do you mean?" he asked.

"I don't know how to explain it without it sounding weird. I thought the dreams of this place were just dreams." I couldn’t believe I’ve been here in my dreams. I don’t want them to think I want to be here, but this place does make me feel like I belong. I don’t want to accept this. I know this is just all because of what has happened. I need to find my life again, and I need to know I am making the right decisions. I still don’t understand how I am connected to anyone here, but this is all too familiar.

"Wait, you've been here before we brought you here?" he asked, confused, and now I know if I don’t get away from him, he is going to keep asking me questions. Questions that I might not have answers to.

"It's familiar. I am tired. I just want to go to bed, Daniel. Good night." I said before going into my room.

I know there are going to be questions about what I just told him. I don't know how to explain it, but I feel like this is going to be a lot more complicated than it needs to be, but at least he'll understand why I am so worried about staying here.

Walking over to the window, I felt safe here. I know Darius says I am his mate I still really don't understand what that means. What if he doesn't like the way I am or how I kiss? Part of me wants to see where this is going to go, but I don’t want to get hurt again. I don’t know if I can get through that pain all over again.

I am afraid of love.

The howling of wolves seems to make me less stressed. I don’t know what it means, but I long to be closer to them. I know wolves are dangerous, but there is something about their howls that makes me feel calm. I make my way to the bed. I know I need to rest, but with everything that has happened and my apartment being destroyed, I don’t know how I feel about any of this. I don’t know if the guy who started all of it is ever going to be caught.

What will Darius do to him when he catches him?

I couldn’t sleep; something about everything is keeping me up. I make my way downstairs. The house is quiet, which is nice, but I could use someone to talk to. Even though I don’t know anyone here, if someone were to come and talk to me, I think everything would be fine.

“Hey.” A familiar voice spoke. “Can't sleep?”

“Darius,” I whispered. “No, not really, but then again, if this happened to you, you probably wouldn’t sleep either.”

“Well, believe it or not, when you aren’t sleeping, I don’t sleep either. I am in my office thinking about how I am going to keep you safe. I know the rogue king isn’t going to stop until he gets to you, but he is evading me, and I don’t want to go into the city since that is where most of the rogues are. Yes, I am an Alpha, but they could still kill me.”

“I don’t want you doing anything like that,” I said, shaking my head. “I told you I will stay here, I feel safe here. I don’t know if it's because of all the oversized protection, or if it is something else.”

“I know you will stay here, I can tell you are a woman of your word. I know you want me to make this quick and painless, but I don’t want him dead.”

“Why not? If he is dead, then you don’t have to worry about him bothering me again, and you can get on with your life and not have to protect me.” I sighed. “I know you have to make sure I am safe, but I still don’t know why.”

“I can show you why, if you give me time to show you. Since you are human and all, you don’t get to feel our bond as strongly as I do.”

“But you said I am supposed to shift, or something like that. Wouldn’t that make me like you?”

“Yes and no, I was born into this, you kind of got thrown into the wolf's den, it’s a little different for you, I am afraid.” He sighed. “But once you shift, I think things will be a lot easier for you to understand, and you won't be as afraid of me.”

"I don't know if I am afraid of you," I said, looking away from him.

Yes, he is scary big, but I don't feel like he would intentionally hurt me. I hope my gut is right and we will be alright.

"From your heart rate, I can tell you are." He said, coming closer. "It's beating faster now." He chuckled before he moved away. "I promise I will go slow and let you fall in love with me."

"Oh, you think you can make me fall in love with you." I giggled. "I guess we're going to see how long it takes. Might take until the day we're both old."

He chuckled.

"I will wait, but I don't think it's going to take that long." He smiled. "Want some warm milk?" He asked.

"No." I sighed. "My mom used to make me drink it when she wanted me to sleep. I never liked it."

"It's still soothing, though." He said, turning his back on me. "Try mine, I bet you'll love it."

I watched as he added some vanilla flavoring to two cuts, then he added the milk. "I promise this is the best." He said, putting a cup in front of me.

I lifted the cup up to my nose. It smelled sweet. I slowly drank some of it, and he is right, it tastes so much more than just warmed milk. “This is surprisingly good.” I mused. “But don’t think this is going to make me beg for it.”

“You don’t have to beg, I promise.” He mused. “It will help you sleep at some point. I know it's different here, and you are worried I won't let you leave, but when I get rid of our problem, you can leave if you want, even though I'd rather you stay.”

I didn’t say anything. Part of me wants to tell him I don’t know if I can leave; something about everyone here makes me feel wanted, and I really, actually want to stay. “Don’t worry, I won't push leaving here right now; it’s a calming feeling I get here. I don’t know why, but I am glad to be here.”

“Good.” He mused. “When you are done, try and get some rest. I have some stuff I have to do tomorrow, but you will be protected.”

“I know you won't let anything come around.” I smiled. “You'd better make sure you get some rest too, I know your work is a lot harder than mine.”

“Good night.” He smiled before he left me there.

Even though I am afraid of him, there is something about him that I can't get past. He is comforting even though he hasn’t touched me. I don’t know how to explain it, but something about him I want more than anything.

Once I am finished with the milk, I wash the cup and put it away. I make my way to my room, the place is quiet, even though I can sleep I don’t, I wander to the window and watch the stars, this place has the best view of the sky.

I wander to my bed and try to sleep, but it seems to evade me. Part of me wants to go back downstairs, but I don’t want to run into anyone, and I don’t know if people can hear me walking around. I just lay there hoping somehow I would get to sleep, but the sun is up, and I am still lying there. I force myself into the shower, hoping for some kind of relief, but once the water hits my wounds, I want to cry out, but I don’t. I manage to deal with the pain even though I feel like everything is bleeding, and I pray not