The good girl is changing me

Chapter twenty-three - I almost gave in

Chloe's POV:

I don't know what is happening with Aaron and me, but lately, we are very close. I am starting to think that our friendship won't be for so long. There is a reason why he is so nice to me, but I feel like if I ask him he won't tell me. To be honest, I won't deny that I would love to go out with him, but since he has never had a girlfriend or has been on a date, I don't know how he would feel about that. Is it bad that in some moments I want to kiss him? It's just that we spend a lot of time together and I know that he is not as bad as people say. The thing is that I don't want to make something, which will make him go away from me. I have never imagined that there will be a boy who will change my mind, but I am happy that it's him. I hope that one day everyone will understand that he is not that bad and will stop trying to hurt him. 

I woke and checked at the time. Why the weekend can't be a little bit longer? I have to go to school and to be honest this is the last thing that I want. Aaron and I didn't do many things during the weekend, but I kind of want to repeat it. Except for the time when I thought that, he will kiss me. If you ask me, I have no idea why I kissed his cheek, but something told me to go and do it. This was weird, but I have to say that I liked it. I hope that I am not starting to fall for him because if I am, I will be in trouble. It's not easy to hide a relationship. Especially from Katy. Kayla might believe me if I say that there is nothing to hide, but Katy will catch my lie. 

When I got ready, I went downstairs for breakfast. To my surprise, the girls were there. I don't remember inviting them, but I am sure that my parents have let them in. Not like I mind, but now this is the last thing that I want. I sat at the table and started eating without saying a single word. In my mind appeared every moment since the day that I met him. Why do I think so much about him? It's like he can't get out of my head. Sometimes I still think about the conversation, which I had with Dani. Now I think that slowly his words are becoming true. 

- Chloe. Hello. Are you here? 

- What? Sorry, I didn't hear you. Katy, what were you saying?

- Nothing. I wonder what is going on with you. 

- What should be going on?

- You tell me. Lately, your head is somewhere else and you don't go out with us.

- And this means that something should be going on?

- Yes, it does. Are you sure that there isn't a boy? - she said smirking

- They are five and I am going out with all of them. - I laughed

- I'm serious. No matter who is he, if you are happy with him, we'll be happy too. 

- I agree with Katy. Chloe, you can trust us. 

Are you sure? If I tell you that I might be falling for the one and only Aaron Wright, both of you will freak out. Moreover, I am not sure exactly what is going on. I mean, I like him, but do I like him that way? I have to think about this. I am not ready to lose my friends. Not yet. 

- There isn't a boy. Otherwise, I should be smiling and not hiding him. 

- If you say so. Even if there is, I hope that he can make you happy. You deserve this. - Katy said with a sad smile on her face

I hate to lie and hide things from them, but I don't have another choice. I need to convince them that he is not that bad. Maybe I can talk with them during the lunch break. 

When we were done with the breakfast, the girls and I walked out to school. In the moment we entered, I saw Lindsay and Ricky in front of Katy's locker. I wonder what they want now. Katy walked up to them. I pulled out my phone and texted Aaron to tell him that I won't come on the lunch break, but I will make it up to him later. He only said ok. I lifted my head and saw that Katy was in front of us. Since she is happy, there must be something. 

- Spill the tea. What did these two want from you?

- Ricky invited us to his party tonight and I said that we will go. 

- What!? Why would you say that?

- Because it's true. 

- You don't have the right to talk instead of us. I am not coming and there is nothing you can do to make me change my mind. - I said and left

I hate when she does this. Both of them know what type of person I am, but still, continue doing this. Well, mostly Katy. Kayla will ask me before doing something. The girls walked into the classroom and sat next to me. I refused to look at them and pulled out my phone. In that moment, I received a message. It was from Aaron. Let's see what he wants now. 

If you want you can come home tonight, but it has to be after 9 pm. 

Why after 9 pm? I hope that he won't do something dumb. 

I was thinking to go out with you in the afternoon, but maybe that is better. 

I guess that he is on his phone. 

Did something happen? 

No, just the girls ask questions and irritate me. Mostly Katy. I'll tell you tonight. 

Ok, have a nice day and see you later. 

Thanks. Bye Aaron. 

Bye Chloe. 

The fun fact is that I didn't name him Aaron on my phone. I mean I have put his name, but not exactly. Let's say that in my contacts he is "Hot stuff (Aaron)". The girl in me was speaking. I mean, have you seen him. This is not the reason why I like him, but if I have to act like a girl, this is what I will do. Good thing is that he doesn't know. Otherwise, he was going to laugh at me or think about dirty things. I am not guilty of my feelings. It just happened. He gets in my head and now he doesn't want to go out. I wonder under what name I am on his phone. Probably it's just Chloe. Like all the other contacts on his phone. 

On the lunch break, I walked with the girls. For some reason, Lindsay and Ricky told Katy to sit with them, and surprisingly she did it. They invited Kayla and me too, but I denied it. I walked to one empty table and soon Kayla followed me. I want to tell her everything because I can trust her, but I am not sure how she will react to this. 

- Chloe, are you ok? Katy is not here so now you can tell me what is going on. I see that you don't want to talk in front of her, but I promise you that I won't tell her anything. Not until you don't let me. 

- I just have many things in my head. That's it. 

- Is there really a boy?

- There isn't a boy in my life. Will you both stop with this? - I said and left

I checked if there was no one in the hall and walked out to the boys. I know that I told Aaron that I won't come today, but the girls irritated me enough. I walked up to them and saw a smile on his face. I guess that he is happy to see me. 

- I thought that you won't come. 

- Yes, but the girls irritated me and here I am. Aren't you happy to see me?

- Of course that I am. Maybe a little bit surprised, but mostly happy. 

- I'm glad to hear it. 

- Chloe, is there a problem? You look upset. 

- No, I'm fine. I just have many things in my head. 

- Do you want to snuggle?

- Can I?

- Yeah, sure. Come here. - he said and I sat at the small stairs next to him

Soon everybody will know the truth and I will be the number one enemy in the school. For what? Just because I am going out with the bad boys, who are not bad. I need to stop thinking too much. What break my thought was a kiss on the top of my head. I looked at Aaron and he gave me a smile, which I returned. I wish that my friends could understand me. That way there wasn't going to be a need of hiding. 

Five minutes before the lunch break to finish, I walked inside. Until the end of the classes, I was avoiding the girls. They tried to talk with me, but I cut them off. Then I walked home and took a nap. Not like sleeping with resolve my problems, but at least for a while, I will stop thinking about them. Later I will take a shower and go out to his house.

I must have slept a lot because my mom woke me up for dinner. Both of us walked downstairs. I don't know what we'll eat, but it smells delicious. When I was done, I told my parents that I will go out. I was thinking to tell them that I will be with the girls, but I didn't. There is a chance that they will ask them and the lie will be visible.

 I walked to Aaron's house and knocked on the door. No one answered. I tried with the bell but got the same result. I was about to walk away when I decide to just walk in. Luckily, the door was open, which means that he is here. I walked to the living room and saw a small bottle on the coffee table. These were painkillers. Aaron was sleeping on the couch. It was dark and I used the torch on my phone to see him. His face was covered in scars again. I felt how the tears were ready to fall down, but I tried to hold them as much as possible. Without making much noise, I went to get the first aid and started cleaning his face. I am glad that he didn't wake up. When I was done, I sat on the floor in front of him and slightly rubbed his cheek with my thumb. Then I got up and gave it a soft kiss. He knows that I hate to see him like that, but for some reason, he continues doing it. Soon he woke up and looked at me. 

- Chloe? 

- Yes. Did you forget that you invited me?

- No, I just... maybe. 

- Why I am not surprised?

- Look I'm sorry. I had a dream that someone kissed me. 

- It was half a dream. 

- What do you mean?

- I kissed you, but now the way you think. Will you tell me what happened and why your face is in scars?

- You don't have to worry about that. 

- But I do. Every time you say this. What if the next time someone tries to kill you?

- No one will kill me. I am fine. 

- No, you're not. You are acting like a kid. 

He didn't say anything and I felt a hand wrapped around me. Aaron pulled for a hug and I broke down in his arms. I hate to cry in front of him, but he is making me. Why can't he understand that I care about him and don't want something bad to happen? He wiped my tears and looked at me. Well, it was still dark and I don't know can he see something, but I know that he was looking at me. 

- I'm sorry that I am always disappointing you. 

- You are not disappointing me. I am just worried for you. 

- I know and I'll try to be a better person. Just for you. 

- Thank you. I appreciate it. 

With that, I felt a soft kiss on my cheek. In that moment, I melted like chocolate. It was a short, full of emotions kiss. I wonder what I real kiss will feel like. More and more, I realize that I can't escape from my feelings for him. I felt that his face is very close to mine. Our noses were touching each other and his hot breath was on my neck. I shivered with the thought of him doing things to me. I want to kiss him so badly but now is not the time. I have to say that if he continues like that soon I might give up and let him do whatever he wants with me. I know that he will be careful, but the question is will I be. 

I tried to pull away, but he cupped my face with both of his hands and didn't let me. Both of us were staring at each other like this is the last time when I will see him. My breathing was heavy. 

- I will never leave you, no matter how much you want it. 

I felt how my heart stopped for a second. His words got stuck in my head and now were on replay. 

- I don't want you to leave. I want you here with me. 

In that moment, I thought that he will kiss me, but no. He only kissed my cheek and gave me a tight hug. I rested my head on his chest and felt his heartbeat. 

- It's beating for you. 

- I... - but I couldn't say anything

We stayed like that for a while and then we pulled apart. Right now, I want to stay here, but I have to go home. Maybe if I tell the truth to my parents, they will understand me and will let me spend some time with him. Otherwise, they will get mad and I will be grounded. 

- Look, I have to go home. 

- You can stay here if you want. I won't mind spending some time with you. 

- I know, but not now. I have to think about this and what to do. The girls are asking questions and I think that they suspect that there is a boy in my life. 

- Ok, I understand. Maybe the next time. 

- I'm sorry. When things get clear, I will come more often. 

- I will be glad if you do it. 

He sent me to the door. The moonlight was falling in front of it.  

- The moonlight falls perfectly on you. 

- Thanks. - I said and felt how my cheeks heated up

We were looking at each other when he cupped my face with his hands and kissed my forehead. I felt how my body relaxed under his touch. No one else has had this effect on me. 

- Now go. I will see you tomorrow. 

- I will. Goodnight Aaron and sweet dreams. 

- To you too. Bye Chloe. 

With that, I walked home. I don't know what is going on with me, but I feel that very soon I will give in. No matter how much I try, I won't be able to deny my feelings for him. I have to admit it. The risk is big, but it's not my fault that I fall for him. Well, it kind of is, because if I haven't talked with him that day, I was never going to be in this situation. What's done, it's done. I can't turn back the time and to be honest I don't want to. I want to be with him, to help him, and prove to everyone that he is not a bad person. Soon I will tell Aaron everything. I just need to find the right moment.