Ingredients of Love (dela Conde no. 2)

Chapter 15: intimacy

Chapter 15

Intimacy

Right after the car accident years ago, I was very desperate to retrieve my memories back. However, after several treatment and observations to me the neurologist told me that it is impossible for me to regain the memories that I’ve lost. At first they diagnosed me of just having a short-time memory lost only, and after months of that I was so horrified by what they told me, kasi long-term memory lost na pala, and there’s only a small chance I could recall my past. So I gave up and just started a new life. I started forming new memories with people around me. However, under no circumstances I would expect that after coming back to the Philippines my memories would slowly coming back.

I am so confuse.

After retrieving some of it I felt more lost than before. Nalilito ako, parang gusto kong makaalala muli pero at the same time parang ayaw ko. I am too afraid to face my past dahil sa tingin ko mababago nito ang kung ano man ang nasa kasalukuyan ko, and I do not want it. I want to stay like this, I want to stay in his arms.

“Aren’t you going to sleep?” Homer asked me.

We went to a hotel after he saw me at Manila Bay. Ayaw ko kasing umuwi sa unit namin ni Pearl so I decided to stay in a hotel. Pero itong si Homer gusto na sa apartment niya lang ako, but I refused. Tapos hindi ko na alam kung paano niya ako napapayag na samahan niya ako rito sa hotel.

I don’t even know why I am letting him embrace me in this bed. Well, I felt like this is not just a simple embrace dahil kung pagmamasdan ang mga braso niyang nakapulupot sa akin at sa paa niyang nakadantay sa akin, we look like a couple who’s happily cuddling each other.

I stared him for a moment, then smiled at him bago ko isinuksok ang ulo ko sa leeg niya.

Hmm…He smells like chocolate. Parang ang sarap niyang papakin.

“Hmm…stop there you woman,” he said nang hindi ko napigilan ang sarili ko na halikan ang leeg niya. I giggled. Tapos hinigpitan niya pa ang yakap niya sa akin.

Paano ba ako umabot sa sitwasyong ito?

Kaya ba parang pakiramdam ko gusto ko siya dahil sa mga ala-ala na nagbalik sa akin? O slowly by slowly, hindi ko lang napapansin na nagkakagusto na ako sa kanya? Well, this man is really something; I mean para niya kasi akong inaakit. Oh! Ang feeling mo naman yata, Penny.

“I was so worried. Akala ko may masama ng nangyari sayo,” he said kaya napatingin ulit ako sa kanya.

Bakit ba ang lapit naming dalawa? Gusto ko tuloy siyang halikan.

“Talaga?” tanong ko na lang, but my eyes were looking straight to his lips.

I saw how the side of lips rose when he caught me staring his edible lips, but I still keep looking.

“Do you like me, Homer?” I asked him, still staring at his lips.

Instead of giving me an answer, I felt his lips brushing mine so I did not hesitate return him the favor. It was a slow, tender and a gentle kiss. As if he wanted me to memorize the rhythm of his lips.

“Hmm,” a moan escaped from me when I felt his hand slowly traveling from my waist then to my stomach.

“Ho-“ I wasn’t able to complete his name when I felt his warm hand slowly wandering the lower part of my body. I felt his palm caressing my leg, then pataas nang pataas.

I gasped when I felt him touching my thing while my shorts are still on. At dahil hindi makapal ang tela nitong sedang short na nabili namin kanina ay tiyak ako na nararamdaman na ng kamay niyang humahagod sa kaselanan ko ang pagkabasa ko.

I may not be the most intelligent woman in the world pero hindi ako tanga para hindi mapagtanto ang ginagawa namin ngayon. We are clearly making out while our clothes are still on and I f*****g like it!

I like the way he touch me, I like the way he rubbed my throbbing bud below. I never thought there would be a man like him that is so expert in making out. We’re still dressed but I already felt so contented! Damn!

“Homer,” I moaned his name.

Hindi ko alam kung alin ang pagtutuunan ko ng pansin, ang paghalik niya pa sa leeg ko o ang ginagawa ng kamay niya sa kaselanan ko? But whatever it is, I felt nothing but pleasure. How can he be as good as this?

I felt my toes curls, then after a while I felt something sluggishly dripping out from my private part.

I think, nilabasan na yata ako.

Then his lips went back to my lips, “let’s sleep, Rayana,” he said before he embraces me again.

Is that it? f**k! I would be hypocrite if sasabihin kong hindi ako nabitin dahil sobrang bitin na bitin ako!

This man clearly knows how to hook a girl. Binibitin niya para hanap-hanapin siya! Damn!

“Rayana, let’s sleep,” he murmurs.

How could I sleep when I am still wet down there?

But nevertheless, I still fall asleep in his arms. And I must say that it was the longest sleep I ever had since then.

Quarter to ten na kasi nang magising na ako, unfortunately Homer isn’t here anymore but he left a message on my phone.

Homer: Love, I already ordered your breakfast, it’s on the table. Let’s have lunch later, I’ll send you the address later. Take care.

I smiled at his message. Since when did we have an endearment? Iniisip niya ba na may something na kami after we make out last night? Love, huh?

But my smiled gradually vanished when I remember something.

“You gotta figure this out, Penny, before you fell for him,” kausap ko sa sarili ko before I texted Pearl that I want to have lunch with her and I’ll just send her the address. I told her I was sorry that I didn’t go home last night and for making her worry.

When I received another message from Homer ay agad kong pinasa kay Pearl ang lugar.

I plan to ambush them. I can’t think of a better way to asked them about their relationship with each other. And God knows how much I prayed I am wrong.

Unang dumating si Homer, he brought flowers with him and he gave it to me the moment he saw me entering the place. I thanked him for the flowers then I sat on the opposite chair he’s sitting now. Then Pearl came in.

Gulat siya nang makita niya kung sino ang kasama ko as well as Homer. They said ‘hi’ to each other as if they didn’t get along that much. Like as if they didn’t share the same secret.

“What is this all about?” it was Pearl who took the chance to open up the conversation since our table became so awkward for the three of us. Halatang may tinatago sila.

“We’re having a lunch, what else?” I said. Then I saw Homer looking at me like he wanted to tell me something but he rather chose to keep his mouth shut.

Well, if none of them will start telling me the truth, then I guess it is just right for me to ask questions.

“I saw the two of you talking, and I heard some of it. And I’ve been so curious since yesterday if what is really going on.”

No one dared to spoke after I said that. Halatang nagulat sila pero hindi pa rin sila nagsalita so I utter words again.

“What is your relationship with each other?” I asked after I took a sip of my four-season drink.

I gaze Homer, then gaze Pearl. Both of them fell into silence as if they swallowed their tongue.

And it’s making me pissed.

“I will rephrase my question. Ano ang nililihim niyo sa akin?”

I saw Pearl closes her eyes, and then she looked at Homer, like she’s asking for some help. They shared the same gaze so I look down on my plate. I feel so jealous!

“Homer and I had a relationship.”

Naibaba ko ang mga kubyertos ko sa narinig ko then I slowly gawked at Pearl.

There was silence among us.

“Pardon?” mahinang tanong ko.

“Rayana,it’s not like what-“

I eyed Homer, “I am not talking to you,” I said before I face Pearl with my bloodshot eye.

“What did you just said?” I said looking straight to Pearl who’s now tense.

Nanginig bigla ang kamay ko. My chest went so heavy suddenly.

I prepared myself for this answer but I never expected that it would still be a bang on my ear. It feels like a bomb being dropped just right in front of me. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat na e-react ko.

“The last memory that I was able to remember was when Homer and I confessed our feelings with each other. And you told me that my biological father took me after my grandfather died, and I lost my memories due to car accident,” I told Pearl, my eyes are almost pleading her to tell me the truth!

Hindi nikailanman naging madali ang sitwasyon ko. It was so hard for me to start a life without remember something, and now that I remember a little bit of it, pakiramdam ko ang hirap ulit umusad sa buhay ko.

“Pearl is right,” Homer said, making all my bubbles of hope popped, one by one.

I felt like someone stole my breath for a second dahil I literally stopped breathing air after I heard it.

Parang kinukurot ang puso ko but I still manage to show them a smile.

I need to gather my shits together. I should not be affected by what they told me since it’s already part in the past.

“You guys should have told me, earlier. It’s been years, no hard feelings. W-we are all adults, right?” I said, faking my confidence.

I saw Homer looking at me, so I smiled at him.

Masyadong magulo ang utak ko ngayon. Nagkasagutan kami ni Pearl kahapon just because of this?

“I’m sorry,” I heard Pearl so I looked at her.

“It’s okay. Ginawa mo lang naman iyon so I won’t be bothered anymore. But you should’ve have told me earlier, I wouldn’t hate you for that.”

Wow. Where did you get all that guts, Penny?

“Uh, I think I need to use the washroom. Babalik din ako agad,” I said bago nagmadaling tumayo because I know in myself that I can no longer pretend in front of them. I may look like unbreakable outside, but deep inside I am very vulnerable.

When I reached the bathroom ay agad akong pumasok sa cubicle and I locked it. Umupo ako then hinilamos ko ang sarili kong mga palad.

Everything feels so odd! I can feel that there’s something off in their statement, but somehow it does make sense. Kaya siguro ayaw ni Pearl na mapalapit ako kay Homer para hindi ko na maungkat ang lahat because if I would learn everything, I would hate her. But what makes it odd is that it’s been years already, sinama ko pa si Pearl abroad before the accident so by that time I already forgive her? Ganon? And Homer, he wouldn’t treat me like this if there’s really something going on between him and my friend, unless he’s guilty on what they did and just want to make up things with me.

I did not graduate with latin honors during my baccalaureate days but that doesn’t make me stupid. My instinct tells me there’s something else, because Pearl would not react like that kung iyon nga ang rason. But somehow, their statement really makes sense. And it’s making me feel pain in my chest.

Who would have not be in pain if you, yourself got a taste of betrayal?

“Hey, Penny girl. Why did you call?” Marky asked on the other line.

I called him kasi to ask him a favor.

“Marky, I have a favor to ask, please buy me a ticket back to Seattle,”I said.

“Why is it so sudden? May nangyari ba?”

I can sense the concern in his voice but I decline to share a think to him. It’s not yet the right time dahil maski ako naguguluhan pa.

“Wala naman. Aiman want me to handle my shop na kasi, nagrereklamo na siya,” I said, a matter of fact.

“Ah. Okay, kailan mob a gustong umuwi?”

“Tonight, Marky.”

Alam kong nagtataka siya but hindi na siya nagtanong pa at sinabi sa akin na siya na ang bahala sa gusto ko. Nag text naman ako kay Pearl at sinabi sa kanyang I have something urgent to attend. Ang sinabi ko lang ay makikipagkita sa akin si Jeca. Buti na lang at may backdoor itong lugar na ito na siyang ginamit ko paglabas dahil alam kong hindi bibilhin ni Homer at Pearl ang palusot ko.

I do not know what has gotten into my mind at bakit lumipad agad ako pauwing Seattle. Hindi naman ako ang may atraso rito pero bakit ako iyong umiiwas? Maybe I was just too afraid to face it.

Mag-iisang linggo na rin ako rito sa Seattle and I never told Pearl I was here already. I think it was Aiman who told her that I was already here kaya ngayon nandito siya sa harapan ko habang abala ako sa pagbabasa ng financial report na ginawa ni Aiman.

“I’m sorry I didn’t inform you about my flight,” sabi ko habang nakatoon pa rin ang pansin ko sa papel.

I tapped my fingers on the table as I read the report and wait for Pearls words.

“Naiintindihan ko. You need time to think about it,” she said.

Binaba ko na ang mga papel at inayos muli ito sa folder saka binalingan nan g tingin si Pearl.

She looks so restless. Nagmumugto rin ang mga mata niya like she’s been crying the whole day. Nakonsensya tuloy ako.

“Patawarin mo ako kung hindi ko nasabi sa iyo ang lahat. Penny, I want to tell you everything but I can’t afford to see you devastated again,” sabi niya sa akin.

“Pearl, after hearing your statement last time, hindi ko pa rin makuha kung bakit parang galit na galit ka sa kanya. I understand natuhog tayong dalawa, but it really doesn’t justify your actions,” I honestly told her without leaving her gaze.

“Penny, just trust me this time. I am doing this for your own good.”

“Kung para sa kapakanan ko naman pala ito dapat sinabi mo sa akin ‘yong tungkol sa inyo ni Homer hindi iyong pinagmukha mo akong tanga,” sabi ko sa kanya.

I saw her cover her face with her palms, then her shoulder started shaking.

She’s crying!

Agad naman akong tumayo at dinaluhan siya sa purple couch ng opisina ko at inalo siya. Even if she hid something from me, she’s my friend after all. She has nothing aside from me. So I should not treat him badly.

“Pearl, hush it. I am not mad at you nor hated you. Nagtatampo lang ako kasi naglihim ka sa akin.”

Niyakap niya ako at panay ang hingi niya ng tawad sa nagawa niya. Paulit-ulit niya ring sinasabi sa akin na para sa akin naman lahat ng ginagawa niya at gusto niya pa ring layuan ko si Homer.

Because she mentioned Homer ay hindi ko na rin napigilan ang sarili ko na mag-usisa pa.

“Do you like Homer?”

Binalot kami ng katahimikan na dalawa, and if my heart could only speak isisigaw talaga nito na kinakabahan na siya sa isasagot ng kaibigan ko.

Kumalas si Pearl sa akin and she stared at me for a while.

“I would be hypocrite if I will tell you that I never adore him.”

I mentally curse in my head!

I know she isn’t lying! Ngayon hindi ko na alam ang dapat kong maramdaman.

Ang tanging pag-asa sa utak ko ay biglang naglaho na lang. From what she said there’s a possibility na hindi nga nila gawa-gawa ni Homer ang sinabi nila sa akin noong nakaraan. Oh f**k it!

I shouldn’t ask her!

Naikuyom ko na lang ang mga palad ko habang piproseso sa sarili ko kung anong emosyon ba dapat ang ilabas ko. Basically, hindi ako natutuwa sa sinabi niya.

We share the same crush before pero ewan, pagdating sa dela Condeng iyon ayaw ko na may kahati ako.

“That’s in the past. How about now?”

Hindi ko alam kung saan ko napulot ang lakas ko para magtanong muli.

I prepared myself for her another bomb, but when she shook her head ay ganon na lang ang ginahawang naramdaman ko sa aking puso. I was so glad to know it. Very glad!

“That’s good to know, Pearl. Because I don’t really wanna share him. He’s mine,” I said, sounding so possessive. If Homer would get to hear me saying this, he would probably laugh at me.

Out of disbelief nagbago ang itsura ni Pearl. Hinawakan niya ang kamay ko as if she’s pleading me.

“Please, listen to me,” she pleaded.

“Pearl, this is my life. I have the right to decide on my own. Give me a chance to get to know Homer more, because I’m already fond of him, Pearl,” I said, almost pleading her.

“Penny, he’s a wicked man! Please!”

I just smiled at her.

“Whether he’s wicked or not, it’s for me to decide. Do not interfere, Pearl. Ngayon lang ako magmamakaawa sa ‘yo, just let me do this. Trust me also, Pearl.”

Alam kong labag sa kalooban niya pero hindi na niya ko kinontra pa. She just told me that whatever happens, I always have her in my back.

I smiled at her after that. Hindi ako mahilig magkimkim ng galit kaya pinatawad ko kaagad si Pearl. She’s a good friend of mine at alam kong hindi siya gagawa ng bagay na siyang ikasisira naming dalawa. May be the secret she is keeping from me is really that big and scandalous para ilihim niya ng ganito. But the more people around me hide everything from me mas lalo akong na-curious.

If they are not willing to divulge the truth for me then I will gather it myself.

“I see. You lost your memories due to traumatic head injuries, damaging your brain. This damage had included your permanent memory problem. Years ago, my father Dr. Schelin diagnosed you of having a long term memory lost. But you’re telling me that you regained some of your past memories, so when did it start?”

Nagpacheck kasi ako sa hospital ngayon kasi it’s been two weeks since nakauwi ako rito sa Seattle at wala na ulit akong ala-alang nahagilap ulit.

“It happened when I went to Philippines. I actually grew up there. There’s a particular scene happened to me which I felt like it was a déjà vu, then after that my memories gradually came back. I was also dumbfounded because I thought there’s no possible way of regaining my memories,” I told my neurologist, Dr. Merinda Schelin.

Napatango siya sa akin.

“You have a rare case, Miss Rayana. But based on what you’ve said, there’s something that had triggered your brain to regain your lost memories, right?”

I told him everything, well except naman sa mga ala-ala kong detalyadong nagbalik. Hindi naman niya iyon tinatanong. She just asked me kung sa paano kong paraan nahagilap ang mga ala-ala ko.

“So this man you’re talking about, the one who kissed you,” sabi niya tapos ngumiti pa sa akin nang nakakaloko, tila ba nanunukso. “Does he hold a deep part in your past?” she asked, so I nodded and told her Homer is somewhat my lover. Ngumiti naman siya sa akin, parang natutuwa pa siya.

“The problem here is that after coming back here, I have not regain anything,” sabi ko na lang. Tumango-tango naman siya sa akin.

“Are you stressed these days?” tanong niya, again I nodded and said ‘kinda’.

“That’s it Miss Rayana, due to your stress, your mind discards thoughts, feelings, or information that you are too overwhelmed to handle. Are you perhaps afraid to know everything? Sometimes if you’re too afraid to recognize the truth, your brain may also help you to reject this information.”

Our consultation went on until she told me she will conduct an MRI to me. Pumayag naman ako.

“I’ll inform you once the result of your MRI is already here.”

“Is there a way that I could regain some of my memories?”

“As you’ve said, your memories came back because there’s something that triggers it. I can suggest you go back to the place you used to before, just ask your friends. Maybe you could gather a bit of your memories. But if you find it too troublesome, I suggest you to keep that man on your side. He will be a great help, I guess.”

I bid goodbye to her when my consultation was done.

I think she’s right. Homer could really be a great help to me.

I received a message from Aiman kaya napahinto ako sa paglalakad at binasa muna ito saglit.

Aiman: hindi ka ba pupunta ngayon sa resto? We need you here, andaming customer.

Then I received another one.

Aiman: I already find new crews Hurry up, Penny. Dinadagsa na tayo

Nagulat ako sa huling minsahe niya. Ganon ba karami ang customer namin ngayon at talagang pinapadali niya talaga ako. Nga pala, our shop needed new crew that’s why naghanap siya. Good think may nakita agad siya, nagresign kasi yong tatlo naming crew.

To Aiman: I’ll be right there. Chill.

I walked to my car after then maneuvers it to my restaurant. To my horror, Aiman really didn’t lie to me when he told me na dinadagsa kami ng customer.

I went to the kitchen and help everyone up. Halos wala na kaming usap-usap at kanya-kanya na lamang kami ng trabaho.

Alas kuwatro pa lang ng hapon ng medyo gumaan ang paligid namin. Kunti na lang ang mga tao. According to Mich, one of my old crew, mga highschool Student na lang daw at mga college girls ang nandirito.

“Kaya niyo na ito rito? I think I need to rest, napagod ako,” sabi ko.

“Wow. Nahiya naman ‘yong pagod namin sayo,” Aiman blurted out but he just let me rest. Pero bago ako pumanhik sa opisina ko ay sinabi k okay Aiman na once wala ng customer ay papasukin sa opisina ko ang mga bago niyang nahire na crew. Nasabi niya kasi na hindi pa niya na orient ang mga ito sa lahat ng tungkol sa resto namin kaya ako na lang ang gagawa.

Pasado ala-singko ng hapon pa may pumasok na dalawang babae sa opisina ko. By the way they speak and look, I know the one named Greta is French and Mildred is a Portuguese.

“Just the two of you?” I asked them.

“No, there’s other one, still entertaining the ladies,” Greta said.

Wow. I like her enunciation.

Pero nagtaka ako sa sinabi niya kasi may ini-entertain pa raw na customer? Mahigpit ang bilin ko na papasukin sila kapag wala ng customer. It’s already past 5 in the afternoon, we should close our shop early since it’s Sunday.

“Just give me a moment, okay? I’ll be right back,” I told the two ladies then went out to my office to see the new crew. Lahat naman ng crew ko rito babae, kaya nagulat ako nang isang nakatalikod na lalaki ang nakita kong nakikipag-usap sa dalawang customer namin.

Napairap na lang ako sa ere.

Kaya naman pala dinadagsa ng mga babae itong shop ko dahil ang bago kong crew ay walang iba kung hindi ang anghel na may sungay na si Homer Vaughan dela Conde.

Kahit nakatalikod siya, I know it’s him. And why is he here by the way?

“Sorry, I didn’t inform you. Wala kasing ibang nag-apply,” biglang sabi sa akin ni Aiman na kalalabas lang sa kitchen.

Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin, “then dapat yong dalawang babae na lang ang tinanggap mo,” dagdag ko pa.

“Wala raw siyang trabaho eh, naloko ng agency kaya naawa ako. At saka malaki naman ang naitulong niya ngayon sa atin, ang dami kaya nating customer dahil sa kanya. So don’t fire him,” paliwanag ni Aiman sa akin.

Parang gusto kong matawa.

Anong pinagsasabi niyang naloko ng agency? Eh may-ari nga iyan ng isang malaking restaurant sa Pilipinas!

“Alonzo!” Aiman called Homer.

Napakunot Ang noo ko.

Alonzo? Anong kalokohan ito?

Lumapit naman siya sa amin. Pero inirapan ko lang siya.

“Alonzo, this is Penny Rayana, our boss,” pakilala sa akin ni Aiman.

Naglahad naman ng kamay sa akin si Homer tapos parang nagpipigil pa siya ng ngiti.

“Nice to meet you, ma’am.”

Wow. I’m speechless. Really!

Bumalik na lang ako pagkatapos nang nangyari at sinimulan ang orientation ko sa mga bagong crew, of course, kasali sa orientation itong si Alonzo ko no.

When everything was settled ay nagpaalam na ang lahat na uuwi na, including Homer kaya ganon na lang ang gulat ko nang makita ko siyang nakasandal sa sasakyan ko.

Why is he still here?

"Can I join you?"

Aba, gagawin pa yata akong driver.

But since I also want to be with him, pumayag na rin ako.

"Can we eat some dinner in your place?"

Binalingan ko siya ng tingin sa tanong niya, but I just nodded. I miss him, that's why.

I lived alone in my unit. May bahay naman kami pero minsan lang ako umuuwi doon.

When we reach my place agad siyang nagtanong kung nasaan ang kusina at kaagad siyang nagluto. At sa tingin ko ay hindi lang basta luto ang gusto niyang gawin dahil nakahubad ba naman siyang nagluluto sa kusina. He's clearly seducing me!

Ako naman itong si marupok ay pinanuod ko siya habang nagluluto at habang tumatagal ay mas napapagtanto ko na mas masarap pa yata siya kesa sa niluluto niya.

"Let's eat."

He only cooked pasta. Pero masyadong ginalingan ang plating niya. Tsk. Pa-impressed.

When we're done eating ay sinabi ko na sa kanya na pwede na siyang umalis. He told me he was homeless pero hindi ako naniniwala. Si Aiman siguro mauuto niya pero hindi ako, so pinalabas ko talaga siya.

Nagulat na lang ako nang matapos akong mag half Bath at mag palit ng damit ay naabutan ko siyang nakaupo sa labas. Bababa kasi sana ako kasi naiwan ko sa sasakyan yong phone ko.

"What are you doing here?" kunot noo kong tanong sa kanya.

Nag-angat naman siya ng tingin sa akin at saka tumayo.

"I told you, I'm homeless. I don't even have single thing with me aside from my phone and passport," paliwanag niya.

Inismiran ko lang siya at sinabihan siyang ibigay ang jacket niya sa akin at ako ang hahalulghog dito.

He may not have a house nor a car here, pero I'm sure he has a wallet na may lamang pera at credit cards niya para makabook man lang sa hotel or what. Pero kahit punitin ko ang jacket niya, maliban sa passport niya ay wala na akong nakitang iba. Kinapa ko naman ang bulsa niya tapos narinig ko lang na natawa siya saglit kaya sinamaan ko siya ng tingin.

"Baka may iba ka kasing makapa," sabi niya.

Namula naman ang pisngi ko nang magets ko ang sinasabi niya. Ang halay talaga ng utak ng lalaking ito!

"So pinanindigan mo talaga iyang pagkaloko mo sa agency, ha, Alonzo?" I mocked him.

Napangisi naman siya bago hinapit ang baywang ko upang magkalapit kami.

"Hindi mo lang ba ako namiss?"

Tinitigan ko lang siya at hindi sinagot.

"Kaya ka ba umalis ng walang paalam because you thought there's something between me and your friend?"

Natutop ko ang mga labi ko.

"Malay ko ba talaga hindi ba? I do not remember my past. So malay ko ba kung ginagamit mo lang ako ngayon," sabi ko nang may pagtatampo.

He cupped my face so our eyes would meet.

"I wouldn't follow you here if I'm not serious about you, Rayana. Would you rather to see me in my bended knees just to show you my sincerity? Kasi gagawin ko, maniwala ka lang sa akin," he told me so I just nodded.

"Just go inside,may kukunin lang ako sa baba. Mag-usap na tayo mamaya," sabi ko sa kanya.

It took me a while before I reached the parking lot of this building kasi nasa 9th floor ang unit ko, hanggang 12 floors kasi itong building.

Nang makuha ko ang phone ko ay sakto namang napatawag sina Jeca sa akin kaya nag-stay muna ako saglit sa baba. Wala kamustahan lang.

Nang matapos ang tawag ay umakyat na ako pataas. Pagpasok ko sa unit ko ay nagtaka ako kasi tahimik.

Bukas na lang siguro kami mag-uusap.

"What the f**k are your doing here? Bakante ang guest room ko, Homer," Saad ko nang maabutan ko siya sa kama ko na nakaupo.

Pilit ko namang inaalis ang tingin ko sa kanya. Paano ba naman kasi, he's not wearing a shirt! Ang tanging saplot niya lang sa katawan niya ay ang hello kitty pajama ko. Sobrang sikip yata nito para sa kanya kasi pati yong umbok niya, klarong-klarong ko rito sa kinatatayuan ko! Para bang gusto nitong kumawala.

Ave Maria!

His abs are waving at me!

"Let's talk now," sabi niya.

I really wonder if he really wants us to talk o gusto niyang umiskor sa akin? Well, either of the two would be fine but my id is telling me to choose the latter.

I went to my bed, humiga ako tapos pinatay ang lampshade.

"Let's talk tomorrow, I'm tired. Lumipat ka na sa kabilang kwarto," Saad ko. Pero imbes na sundin niya ang sinabi ko ay bigla siyang gumapang sa kama at nakisalo sa kumot ko then he slowly snakes his arms around me.

Tinitigan ko siya nang masama.

"Let's sleep," untag ko then he just nodded at me.

But little did I know that he would come up into a wicked idea of stealing me a kiss.

"I can't sleep without a goodnight kiss," sabi niya sa akin before claiming my lips again.

Dahil sa bugso ng damdamin ko at sa labis na pangungulila sa kanyang mga labi ay tumugon ako sa kanyang mga halik. Hanggang sa kapwa na kami nalasing na dalawa sa palalim na palalim naming paghahalikan.

Para naman akong nakoryente nang maramdaman ko ang mainit niyang palad na sinasapo ang pwet ko hanggang sa humagod siya pataas sa likod ko.

Just like him, I can't also stopped my hand from wandering his body hanggang sa narating nito ang umbok sa pagitan ng hita niya. Without thinking twice pinasok ng kamay ko ay pajamang suot niya.

I gasped. Natigilan ako at napamulat na para bang natauhan ako bigla. I pulled out my hand at tinulak ko siya palayo then tumayo ako sa kama.

Ano 'yong nakapa ko? Nakakatakot. Unti-unti ko kasing naramdaman iyong paglaki niya.

Homer tried to reached me but I stayed back. Narinig ko ang pagtawa niya kaya napapikit ako sa hiya.

Ramdam pa rin ng mga palad ko yong bagay niya.

"Why are you so scared? Hindi naman nangangagat iyon, nambubuntis lang," panunukso niya pa.

Pinanlakhan ko siya ng mata.

"Tigilan mo ako dela Conde! Stop seducing me!" sigaw ko tapos nagmartsa ako palabas ng kwarto tapos pumasok sa kabilang silid at ni-locked ito.

Damnit!

To be continued….

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