Love Maze

Prologue "Ano kaba naman Alisa you like Daxon? Hindi bat parang ang bata naman niya para sayo?" "I thought you preferred someone who is older than you?" My friends always ask this to me whenever I mention Dax to them. Their reaction about dating him is like they saw me dating a minor. They say that I’ll end up being a fool for loving someone like Dax. They said that the Adriatico's never liked someone older than them. But I don’t wanna use my head, loving him is not like a math problem that I can solve. I don’t wanna calculate, Love ain’t a math problem. "Alisa you are here, again." he said while looking at me. "I want to see you again Dax that's why I'm here," sagot ko sa kanya. He look shocked sa sinabi ko but after a couple of minutes he recovered from it. "I don't want to see you, Alisa. You are not for me, I don't like older woman." It shattered my heart hearing that from you. Hindi ko pinakinggan ang mga sinasabi sa akin ng mga nakapaligid sa akin. I always thought that maybe I could change your preferences. I know it’ll be cold like winter, but I still wanna try if you could love me again like before. I want you to love me the way you like those younger girls. If you push me, I’ll fall, just raise me up again. I want you to give love me again just like before you knew my age. Girls around my age falling in love with older boys but here I'm falling for a man that is younger than me. Hindi naging sagabal sa akin ang sinabi mo na hindi mo ako gusto. I feel that you like or might love me deep inside, I still wanted to try it. Watching you play with younger girls hurts like hell but I choose this. I choose to understand and love you, even though your love for me is like a maze in a darkness. "Tumigil kana diyan sa kahibangan mo!" sigaw sa akin ni Ellie, tinitignan niya ako habang nakapamewang siya. "Ellie, I can't stop right now," mahina kong sagot sa kanya habang nakatingin kay Dax na nakikipag harutan sa isang babae sa restaurant. "Hindi ka niya gusto Alisa, please listen to me." Ilang besis ko ng narinig ito kay Ellie pero hindi ko kaya, hindi ko kayang sumuko. No matter what others say, don’t listen. Just let’em talk, whatever they say. The more they do, the more I’m sure of what I'm feeling for you and only you. Naalala ko pa kung ano ang nararamdaman ko noong una tayong magkita, noong niyaya mo akong mag-date. I don't like you that much that time but you made me feel things that I never felt with my past relationship after months of dating you I realized you are the man for me. I realized na ikaw ang gusto ko makasama hanggang sa tumanda ako. "Alisa babe, do you know what is the brightest star?" Nakaupo tayo sa hood ng iyong kotse habang pinapanood ang mga bituwin. Napalingon ako sayo bago ako sumagot. "Sirius right?" Napangiti ka sa sagot ko at umiling sa akin. "It's you! For me you are the brightest and the most beautiful star. No one can compare you, ikaw lang ang gusto kong tignan habang nag-sstar gazing tayo," he said. Naramdaman ko ang pamumula ng pisngi ko at kitang kita ko ang pagkislap ng iyong mga mata. This memory is our most beautiful memory for me, because I feel so loved by you in the past. But now you can't even look at in the eyes, what happened? I thought I was the brightest and the most beautiful star? Years have passed at parang natauhan na ako sa kahibangan ko sayo. I did my best to forget you. Sinarado ko ang puso ko sa kahit na kanino, I never love someone. But I've been looking for someone to shed some light, because I feel so trapped into a very dark maze that I can't get out. Then you came back in my life ruining all of my feelings again for someone. I don't know if you really love me this time, I only wanted to find the way back into love. But I'm still trapped with your love maze, just please take my hands don't let it go. I want to ran with you in this maze wanted to be with you and find our way back into love. "Dax! Please don't let go of my hands, love me." "I won't let go this time, Alisa." "But you don't love me dahil mas matanda ako sayo." "Can’t you hear me, you have to trust me. Babe just don’t give a damn about my past self." This moment in my life feels like a dream, but I trust you and love you. After searching for the stars that refuses to shine since you left, here they are again lighting up our way out of this maze and help us find the way back into love. We might be in a maze but it was a love maze that made us realize that love is not just a straight line. ~~