Love Me Again, My Alpha

CHAPTER 8

Sage

"I don't like him," firm na firm na sabi ni Liyue sa akin matapos niyang makita si Cullen na sa park kung saan ko sinundo si Kai.

"Why? Does it matter if gusto mo o hindi? The fact that you can't even take good care of my sons, you don't have the right to complain," sagot ko sa kanya habang nagda-drive.

Napasimangot ito.

I don't have to look at him. Kitang-kita ko sa peripheral vision ko.

"And also why aren't you wearing your abaya and niqab?" tanong ko sa kanya. "You're exposing yourself."

Muli itong napatingin sa akin.

"Why? Does it matter to you also?" sarkistong sagot nito sa akin.

Nakibit-balikat ako.

Oo nga naman. It doesn't matter to me since my grandma, who's the head family of my male omega mom, decided to engage us.

"I don't like that nanny. Fire him," sabi pa niya sa akin.

"No," iyon lang ang sagot ko sa kanya.

I will never do that. Even if it is against my family. I did it once and am going to do it again.

"Just leave Cullen alone, Liyue. I'm dead serious now," sabi ko sa kanya bago kinabig ang manibela patungo sa nirerentahan nitong hotel. "I don't care how many alphas or betas you sleep with. My business is my business. We made a deal when I accepted this engagement. Do not do anything that will make me back out," warning him.

I knew him. Siya ang dahilan kung bakit lahat ng potential nanny na na-hire ko ay umaalis sa bahay pagkatapos nakapagpaalam sa akin na tinatakot sila ni Liyue. He's own way of disciplining my kids aren't my type at halata ko naman sa kanya na ayaw niyang mag-alaga ng aking mga anak. That's why Kai decided to find Mama material and he found Cullen.

"Okay, okay," sagot niya.

We basically using each other. Ako, bilang tantanan na ako ng Lola at siya, upang gawin lahat ang kanyang gusto. He belongs to Alfar, which means dominant omegas should wear abaya regardless of the color and hide their face. And the eyes are only permitted to be shown if they are outside.

"Good. Mabuti na iyong nagkakaintindihan tayo. I'm planning to bring Cullen to my house. He'll be the official nanny of my sons," sabi ko sa kanya.

"Okay, as you say so. Just don't do anything that will shame me," sagot niya sa akin bago tinanggal ang seatbelt niya at saka bumaba ng wala man lang paalam o kahit pinansin man lang si Kai.

"Kai doshen't really like Liyue Daddy," sabi ni Kai habang naglalaro sa toy car niya habang nasa likod ng driver seat at nakaupo sa car seat. "If Kai chows a mama, it showld be Mama Cullen," dagdag pa niya.

"Do you like him that much?" tanong ko sa kanya habang pinapaatras ang sasakyan.

"Yesh. He's kind to Kai daddy. Mama knows when Kai cries and he always give Kai delicioush food," nakangiti niyang sagot.

Of all people that Kai could meet that day, why Cullen? Why did he have to meet him that day?

"Kai think Rai and Sai will like Mama," sabi pa niya habang patuloy pa rin sa paglalaro.

"Do you think so?" tanong ko naman sa kanya.

"Yesh. Mama is the besh. Daddy pwease make Mama Kai, Sai and Rai's Mama," sagot niya sa akin na ikinabigla ko.

Napatawa ako habang nagda-drive. Sure thing hindi madali lang kung gugustuhin ko but that's not easy even if I want to.

"Well, let me see," sagot ko sa bata.

Tinanghali na ako ng gising kinaumagahan. I don't have to worry about Kai since Cullen is probably here already. Tumayo ako at saka nagsuot ng roba. Pagkatapos ng aking morning ritwal ay maingat akong lumabas sa aking silid upang i-check kung ano ang ginagawa ng dalawa. Dahan-dahan akong naglakad palapit sa handrail ng hagdanan upang bumaba. Nakita kong may kalaro si Kai. The kid reminds me a lot of Cullen when we were young. Lihim akong napangiti.

If Cullen has a soft part for a kid like him, maybe.. just maybe…

"Mama naman," narinig ko ang boses ni Cullen habang nakaupo sa sofa patalikod sa akin. "Ang laki laki pa po ng utang na binabayaran ko. Bakit nagdagdag na naman po ang kuya?" sabi pa niya na pumiyok ang kanyang boses. "Wala pa po sa kalahati ang nabayaran ko, Mama. Hirap na hirap na po ako," aniya pa. "Po? Kailan daw po? Ginawa po niya akong sponsor? Mama naman!" aniya na halatang umiiyak base na rin sa paggaralgal ng kanyang boses. "Bakit po kasi laging ako na lang? Sige po, titignan ko ho ang aking magagawa," sabi pa niya pagkatapos ay pinatay na niya ang tawag. Nakita kong pinahiran niya ang kanyang mga luha gamit ang kanyang mga palad at braso.

Cullen never says no to his parents ever since we started dating. He always has this part time job to support his ill father habang ang kanyang nanay ay naglalabada sa mga kapit-bahay. Dalawa lang silang magkapatid. Ang kuya niyang beta at siya. Because of being a recessive omega, mas naging priority ng kanyang mga magulang ang kanyang kuya since they thought that he has a great future ahead than him. Cullen never said no to his parents lalo na kapag tungkol sa kuya niya. Kahit pa siguro huling piso nya na lang ay ibibigay niya sa magulang. During college, ginapang talaga ng mag-asawa ang panganay habang ang bunso ay nagpa-part time para matustusan ang kanyang pag-aaral bukod sa pagiging scholar. I wanted to help him so bad but he refuses. Ayaw niyang umasa sa akin.

He said he can get through it. And he did. He graduated with honors. I'm an alpha who's proud of his recessive omega.

But the burden of his parent's debts because of his brother falls on him. I really wanted to wring his brother's neck but I restrained myself. He's a one cocky bastard who doesn't know when to shut his mouth. I wanted to take Cullen away from them to ease the burden that he was carrying alone.

Napangiti ako. This is the chance.

"Sorry for listening to you while talking but I can offer you a deal," sabi ko sa kanya na ikinagulat niya na nagpalingon pa sa kanya sa akin.

Correct. .

He's crying silently like always. Whenever he's hurt or whenever he wants to give up, his tears would just drop and no sound would come from his mouth. Ganoon siya kapag hindi na niya kaya ang problema. But he never kept it from me. He wanted me to just listen to him at kung minsan ay naga-advice ako sa kanya which he listens to sometimes.

He would accept one to three jobs para lang sa pamilya niya na hindi naman binibigyan ng pansin ang mga effort niya. But the good thing about Cullen as my partner is that he never fails to show whenever we have a date kahit na alam ko ay pagod siya. He would often invites me to his small apartment and then cook for me despite the threat of my father.

I know that. But Cullen never told me about it. He never shows worries about that threat whenever we are together. Noong nalaman ko, huli na ang lahat.

"D-deal?" tanong niya sa akin. His innocent eyes are adorable.

"Yes," tigas kong sabi. "I'm going to pay every debt you have in exchange for you coming with me," sabi ko.

Nakita kong napalunok siya.

"All my d-debts?" tanong niya with a little bit of a stuttering voice.

"Yep. All of it," seryosong sagot ko sa kanya.

"B-but it will take a long time for me to be able to pay you," sabi niya sa akin.

Lumapit ako sa kanya.

"It's fine. All you have to do is take good care of my sons. That's the deal I want you to do," sabi ko sa kanya. "I knew you wouldn't ask for my help, Cullen so that's why I have to do this," dagdag ko pa sa kanya at saka itinukod ang aking mga braso sa armrest ng one seater sofa na kinauupuan niya. Inilapit ko ang aking mukha sa kanya.

You must remember everything that you have done to me, Cullen. Everything.

Nakita ko ang pagtaas baba ng kanyang maliit na adams apple at hindi nakatingin ng tuwid sa akin. But I catch the regret thing flashes on his pained eyes.

Bumaba ang aking paningin sa kanyang mapulang labi na madalas niyang basahin gamit ang kanyang dila at saliva. I never saw it dries even once thus making it red. At kapag kumain siya ng malamig or kahit madaanan lang ng mainit na bahay ang kanyang mga labi ay mas lalong tumitingkad ang pagkapula nito. And his button nose. All about him makes me wanna take off my mask and take him right now and then.

But it's not the right time yet.

I still have a lot of things to do.

Hindi ko napansin na I was closing the space between our lips kung hindi lang biglang dumating si Kai at ang kalaro nito sa sala.

"You have one day to think about it. Give me a call and then I'll pay it right away," sabi ko sa kanya bago umalis sa pwesto ko.

Hindi ko ma hinintay ang isasagot niya at umakyat ako pabalik sa loob ng aking silid.

Damn it!

I just had my shower and I think I needed one again since my body wanted to mate with Cullen. The atmosphere was calling us to do it.

Agad kong itinapat ang aking katawan sa malamig na agos ng tubig sa shower.

Kahit anong lamig ng tubig ay hindi ko pa rin makalma ang aking sarili.

A female alpha can't get pregnant that's why we have a very high drive when it comes to mating. Instead of the womb and ovaries, we have testes and the prostate glands which produce sperm inside of us, as a replacement for them and make omegas pregnant regardless of gender.

How do we do mating?

It's the same with normal male and females. Female alphas still have that organ s*x organ but it doesn't use to be like old times. We use it to urinate and impregnate an omega. An omega male should enter our s****l organ to be able to pass down our sperm into them. How do we know if an omega is virgin? They will feel pain when an alpha's connecting tube will be inserted in their organ's opening and the alphas only know about it.

As soon as our sperm has been passed to the omegas especially during their heat, they will be able to get pregnant.

When I had Cullen on my bed, he was virgin and clumsy.. I wonder if he had another alpha after we got separated.