I knew that the saddest and hardest part of recovery from a heartbreak is facing the man who became a part of it, who became a part of your life. I never promised Matteo anything. I just reminded him of how much I love him despite of what happened to him. Despite of being blinded. After his mom convinced me to leave him. I spent a lot of time working on myself and my family— Gavin and Daddy.
Finally, I got to a good place na matagal kong inaasam, but not that quite. Bar and drinks, cries and sleepless nights. It was my escape of my own feelings, it becomes my place of my own vulnerability.
I couldn't wrap my head around the thought of seeing him after so many years. Akala ko nga hindi na. Pain took way longer than the time I even spent with him, tingnan niyo ilang buwan ko lang siya na
