Kiss Me, Engineer ✅ [COMPLETED]

CHAPTER 17

"Do you love him?"

I was shocked by a sudden question from Bryson. We're at the shore, looking at the beautiful scenery of the sea. I don't know where Sylvan is, wala na naman siya sa bahay.

"Pasensya ka na kung chismoso ako pero I can see that you love him but why are you hiding it? It's obviously that he loves you too."

"May asawa siya." I answered.

Silence. Only lapping of the waves can hear. I think he was shock because he didn't talk after I said those words.

"It's easy to love but it's hard to endure the pain. Love is always with pain but I don't think I can carry it. Sunod-sunod yung sakit na idinulot niya sa akin kaya hindi ko magawang sabihin ulit sa kanya ang salitang iyon..." A single tear fell and I immediately wipe it. "Masakit siyang mahalin pero iyon ang gusto ko."

"Sav..." I heard he mumbled my name. I looked at him and smile.

"It's okay." Or it's not? I don't know. Even I know I'm not okay, I'm trying to convince myself to be okay. Yun lang ang choice ko. "Siguro maling tao lang talaga ang minamahal ko kaya masakit."

"Sav, Love hurts. Hindi sa tao yan dahil ginawa ang love na may kasamang sakit. Even he's the right person, it will hurt. Everybody will feel pain but after those, it's always have a happy ending."

I really can't listen to those advice but he's advice hits me different. It's like saying a lesson to me to learn on. When I was still a kid, I always thinking about what love is. My parents always saying 'I love you' to each other but I really don't know what's the meaning of those word until, Bryson, said those words. Is really true that love hurts? I don't know. It's my first time being inlove.

"Siguro tama ka..." My eyes still focus on the sea. Appreciating the beauty of it. "I really don't know what love is because it's my first time feeling this way. Masakit nga siguro ang magmahal."

"First love really hits different to our hearts. Because they will be the first person to teach how love and pain works together," Bryson said. Nang nilingon ko siya ay puno ng lungkot ang mga mata niya habang nakatingin sa asul na karagatan. Siguro naramdaman niya ang titig ko kaya nilingon niya ako at nginitian.

"Nagmahal ka na ba?" It's slipped on my mouth before I even realized what I said. Of course! Everybody loves.

"Yeah. She was my first love. I thought we will end being together..." I saw how his eyes watered and how the tears slowly fell. "We planned our future together. W-we promise to each other. I even gave her a ring to prove my promise. Until, she met my brother. She fulfill our promises with my brother. She married him and gave birth to three angels. I always thinking that maybe, I wasn't enough. My love for her is not enough for her to stay."

Naestatwa ako sa narinig ko mula sa kanya. Maski ang luha ko ay umagos nadin dahil sa sakit na nakabalatay sa mukha at boses niya.

"You didn't even try to stop their wedding? You didn't even try to get her back?" I asked. If he really loves that girl, he will do anything for her.

"I didn't. She loves him more than she loved me. Not everytime you need to fight. Hindi naman lagi laban, kapag alam mong talo ka na, suko ka na. I need to sacrifice for her happiness and if her happiness is being with him, I will gladly gave it to her."

If I am on his place, I will do what he did. Masakit man ay para naman sa kaligayahan niya iyon. If that happens to me and Sylvan, I will let him stay on Sydney's arms even I'm hurting. Just like what I say, Love hurts.

"You will find a woman who will love you more that she loved you," I said and hugged him. He's crying. Ang mga hagulgol niya ay patunay na hanggang ngayon ay nasasaktan pa rin siya. Even he don't say it, I realize na siguro grabe siya magmahal.

"I hope." I heard his chuckle but he's back on crying again. I reach for his arms and made him hug me. He cried on my shoulder.

I don't know how many hours or minutes we were there but we just enter the house when the sun slowly hiding. Wala pa rin si Sylvan. Siguro may paraan siya para makaalis sa islang ito. Sabagay, he brought me here.

Nagluto na ako habang tinutulungan ako ni Bryson. He stopped crying and back to he's normal attitude.

"Do you really have a girlfriend?" I asked. If he's brokenhearted and still love her ex, how can he find a new?

"I don't. I just don't want that asshole to think that I'm a hindrance." We both laugh at what he just said. Hindi ko namalayan ang oras at magaalas-diyes na ng gabi. Tapos na din kaming kumain pero wala pa din si Sylvan.

"Do you think he will came back tonight?" I asked when we were sitting on the sofa, waiting for Sylvan to enter the house.

"Maybe?"

We're not both sure pero hanggang sa makatulog nalang kami sa sofa sa kakahintay na dumating siya. Nagising lang ako nang marinig ang ingay na nagmumula sa labas ng bahay.

"It's a chopper." Rinig kong sabi ni Bryson na sa tingin ko ay nagising din sa ingay. Sabay kaming lumabas at napapikit ng hanginin ang buhangin dahil sa chopper.

"Kayo po ba si Savanna Herrera?" Sigaw ng isang lalaki na nagmula sa loob ng chopper.

"Yes!" I shouted too dahil hindi kami magkarinigan sa ingay ng chopper.

"Ihahatid na po namin kayo pauwi." He guided me and Bryson to enter the chopper. Kami lang ang tao sa loob at hindi na din naririnig ang tunog na ginagawa ng chopper.

Hindi nagtagal ang biyahe at agad kaming naibaba. I was sure that it was Sylvan's company pero hindi ko padin siya makita sa paligid ng rooftop.

"Wala padin siya." I whispered and I feel someone held my hand. It was Bryson.

"Maybe he's just busy." He smiled trying to lit up my mood. I just shrugged. Sinamahan kami ng lalaki kanina pababa ng rooftop. Halos lahat ng mata ay lumipat sa amin nang marating namin ang lounge ng building. We both sat on the sofa, eyes still on us.

Umalis na iyong lalaki kanina at kami nalang ni Bryson ang nakaupo. Nang hindi mapakali ay tumayo ako at hinarap si Bryson.

"Samahan mo ako sa opisina ni Sylvan," I said. He didn't say anything. He just nodded and stood up. We both enter the elevator at halos lahat doon ay nakatingin sa amin.

Hindi tulad noon ay wala akong narinig na pinag-uusapan ako. Buti naman. Halos lahat ay umalis na at kami nalang ang natira sa elevator. Ang kaba ay dumaundong sa dibdib ko nang makarating kami sa harapan ng pinto ng kaniyang opisina.

"Gusto mo bang samahan kita sa loob?" Bryson asked but I just shooked my head.

"Hintayin mo ako sa baba." I commanded and he just followed. Napabuntong-hininga ako nang makita na pumasok muli siya sa elevator.

Pinihit ko ang seradura ng pinto at papasok na sana ngunit narinig ko ang boses niya na may kinakausap mula sa loob.

"Why you just can't sign the annulment?" Rinig kong boses ng kausap niya. Napahinto ako at hinintay na sumagot siya.

"Sydney is sick! You just can't make me sign the annulment paper!" I heard his voice.

My heart clenched and I feel my self crying silently. Napahigpit ang hawak ko sa seradura.

"She knows that you have other woman! It's either you sign the annulment paper or break up with your mistress."

I can't explain how my heart clemched and how my knees tremble. Mistress. That f*****g word I hate. I let myself fall to him and set aside thathe's married.

"I don't know.." Mahinang boses ni Sylvan ang sumagot.

"I'll wait for your answer." Nang marinig iyon ay nagtago ako sa malaking halaman na nasa tabi ng pinto. Luckily, he didn't saw me. Inayos ko muna ang sarili ko and after a few minutes, I enter his office gracefully.

"Savanna." He acknowledge my presence.

"Hindi na ako magpapaligoy-ligoy pa. Have s*x with me." Hindi na ako nagulat nang lumabas iyon mula sa bibig ko. We don't have relationship but we have a s****l relationship. He offered it and I should take advantage of that.

"W-what?"

"Have s*x with me," I said without even stuttering and I'm thankful of that.

"It's not called s*x Sav! It's make love!"

"Whatever do you say. f**k me. Make love with me. s*x with me." I walk towards him and unbuttoned his polo. He just looking at me with full of questions in his eyes.

"Undress." I whispered then slowly kiss his neck. Sumunod siya habang ako ay sinimulang tanggalin isa-isa ang suot ko.

"Why are you doing this?" He asked but I continue kissing his neck. I can't kiss him on his lips. Tuwing naaalala ang sinabi niya kanina.

"Kiss me." He whispered but I just shooked my head. My kisses slowly travelled down and it landed on his chest.

I heard him groaned when my hand encircled around his shaft. The heat slowly crept on my body. He made me stood up and in my shock, he kiss me passionately.

"Lay down on the table." He whispered and I just followed. Inalis ko ang lahat ng gamit sa mesa niya at humiga doon.

"Whatever your reason, I'll maje love with you." I heard him mumbled but I just shrugged.

He enter me with his long shaft and we both groaned.

"Fuck." He hooked my legs on his shoulder and make his move faster. I heard the lapping of our skin that added on heat I feel.

"Ohh-Sylvan.." I stiffle a moan because we might hear outside.

"Moan loud." He breathed. I open my eyes and saw him staring deeply at me. I encircled my arms around his neck and move my hips on rhythm of his thrust.

"f**k! Make it rough.." I demanded and he oblique. His move became faster, rougher and harder. I can't even breath because of his moves.

"I'm coming.." I breathed. He didn't say anything but I can feel his near to his orgasm too. The pleasure was too much and I exploded like a wild bomb. He pound too fast and then the heat of his semen exploded inside me.

I became breathless for awhile. We stay quite for a long time. He carry me and made me lay on the sofa.

"Stay. I'm just gonna wash myself." He whispered and I just nodded.

When he enter the bathroom, I stood up and dress myself. Nagmadali akong lumabas mula sa opisina niya. I enter the elevator and before the door close, I saw him storming out of his office. Nakahinga ako nang maluwag ng hindi niya ako nasundan.

I saw Bryson sitting uncomfortable on the couch and he stood up when he saw me.

"Let's go." I said as my tears fell.

"What happen?" He followed me.

I didn't answer him. Pumara siya ng taxi at may sinabi na lugar na hindi ko alam kung saan. He held my hand and make me face him.

"What happen?" He asked again.

I don't know how to answer him. I don't really know. All I know is, I'm hurt. He hugged me. Hindi na siya nagsalita at hinayaan na umiyak ako sa mga balikat niya. Huminto kami sa isang bahay. I didn't ask where were we.

"Sav, you can tell me what happen." He made me sit on the sofa and caressed my back.

"I don't know.. I don't know.." Tanging pag-iling lang ang nagawa ko. Hindi ko alam kung paano sasabihin kung gaano kasakit na malaman na hindi niya kayang hiwalayan yung asawa niya para sa akin. How can he say that he loves me if he can't sign the annulment paper?

Of course! I'm the f*****g mistress here.

"I'm the mistress here, Bry.." I cried. Finally, I can lean on someone without them judging me.

"Rest for awhile, Sav. You're tired." He whispered. He kissed my forehead at inalalayan ako papuntang sa isang pinto. I guess it's a room.

Maybe he's right. I'm tired.

On everything.