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My worst nightmare is to be alone and lonely. Knowing that I'm alone in this world revives the fear I'm trying to bury within.
The fear that losing someone I love so deeply will cause me to death, not physically but emotionally and mentally. Lagi kong ipinagdadasal na sana lahat ng mahal ko sa buhay ay laging nandyan sa tabi ko — safe and happy.
But hearing the gunshot, Hayden and Izi screaming in fear, and my mom lying unconscious in the bed — this scenario is like the nightmare I wish will never happen. But who am I kidding? Life is unpredictable and so with death.
Nakapikit pa rin ang mata ko, and I feel my daddy's body in front of me. I don't want to open my eyes, takot ako na makita ang nangyayari sa harapan ko. Because once I open my eyes, everything will change as though
