I loathe myself
Chapter 38 Alexis I saw it all. I was at the delivery room and looking at my wife’s almost lifeless body while they cleaned her up. She looked so innocent, so frail and so breakable. Gusto ko siyang yakapin, gusto ko siyang gisingin and it took all my willpower to stop myself at kahit siguro gawin ko yun, wala pa ding mangyayari dahil natutulog siya dahil sa gamot at sa anesthesia. It was a gruesome and bloody sight and not any man could stomach it. But I choose to look at it. I choose to witness it and I couldn’t stop my tears. Parang bawat hiwa na ginagawa nila sa asawa ko, ako ang nasasaktan. Gusto ko silang pigilan. I don’t want them touching her body. I don’t want them hurting her but I know that it is for her own good. While I’m looking at her, I feel like I am numb. Parang
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