Blame me Once

"Be my w***e!" It wasn't a request but an order from someone that I treated as my best friend. I  was at my lowest moment ,  I had no energy left  to refuse him. And so his w***e I become, I can't complain, for it was me who cause his pain. I thought being that close will make him realize, that I also love him the way that SHE did. That I can also make him happy  like the way SHE did BUT lahat pala ng iyon,  akala ko lang. Eventually, as time goes by, Mas pasakit nang pasakit, physically and emotionally.  Hindi ko na kaya. Ayoko na, Sa tingin ko naman, sapat na ang mga pinagdaanan kong hirap mula sa kanya. I already paid my debt too much. Utang na may kasama pang interes. I need to escape Away from him, I need to find the dignity that was lost because of love that I have for him, I need to restore myself that he destroyed because of hate that he have against me. So that if the time comes that we see  each other again, I can look at him in the eyes, Saying that, "You only have the right to blame me once!"